Craziness Spreads Like Wild Fire

I've gotten addicted to the distraction, so that I'm not even subconsciously focusing on the obsession, that had been a distraction, that would lead to massive depression.


So very deep... ;)

Well hello again and welcome to the fact that I think I've gone a bit insane...

I signed up for some online distant learning type courses...

I'm a glutton for punishment...although if you've been along on this crazy ride with me from the beginning you probably already know that... but... if you haven't...

I signed up for a Social Psychology course...an Introductory Physiology course... which some people know those two courses have been kicking my ass a bit and taking up all sorts of my time and energy...so the gluttony comes in when I now reveal that I've signed up for a third course... not only is it a third on top of all the hours of stuff I'm doing for these other two courses, it technically started 3 days ago... so... I got behind in my other two courses when Burton and I went away... like nearly a week behind... caught up with those two and decided yesterday... fuck it let's go big and add this one that started a couple days ago...yep...glutton.

At least it's not quite as 'heavy' so to speak as the the two original courses... it's entitled Think Again: How to Reason and Argue... 3 lectures in and I'm really liking it...

I sort of forgot how much I really love to learn...it's been a beautiful distraction...one of the best so far...

Especially right now when things are... I'm not sure how to put it exactly... things are... starting to 'flare up' again....

I thought it might...but I'm really really trying not to pay attention to it...

It's close to the time where Burton and the Nerd will be leaving for Cali for 'good'... I say for good but really do hope that it's uber temporary...

It's nearly back to school time... which The Boychild's school has moved into this town instead of being two town's over...so that will make 'laying a beat down' a lot easier if necessary... and I'm not talking about laying it down on him...

I'm a crazy git and turned down a $14/hr full time job...the responsible part of my brain has been screaming at me that I'm insane for not taking it, that we could really use that money, and so forth... and yet the most of the time, stressed out side of my brain pointed out that...I wouldn't be able to go to derby practice any more, I wouldn't make it to Wednesday night skates, I wouldn't be able to make it to game night any more... and really...those are the only times I've really been leaving my house...and they've been really good stress relievers...
We're not falling into destitution if I don't work, we just don't have a whole lot of money for extras and do have to save up a bit when we want stuff...
But I truly believe that I would become a miserable cunt ALL the time if I took that job.
And strangely enough... The Man agreed.

This past Tuesday I went and got some new ink... I'm liking it although my arm hurts...My Sister and I went down to my artist and got matching tattoos...
So now I have 4...I won't be allowed to get any more until the Man gets one...if it wasn't for this being a present from my Sister...this last one wouldn't have happened...only because the Man has been saying since my first one  that he's next...lol (his taste in imagery is expensive)

My Sister's is the top one, which leaves the bottom one as Me!

I'm trying to think what else has happened in the last little bit...Oh went away with Burton... That was a fun weekend...we went up a day early this year...omg that was so nice...so quiet... she read an entire book...I did some stick weaving (aka knitting)...sat in silence...because we could...and can with each other without it being weird...Red Spiral was really fun though this year for me...even though it was small and had a bunch of new faces...missed a lot of the 'old' faces...but fun was still had...

Yep This Happened!! A Rainbow Ballerina Fairy Kitty!!

Who really liked playing on the swing... ;)

This years' theme was The Child Within... I liked playing dress up as a child...decided to do it during the weekend as well.

In the vein of craziness that is me still... I had signed up in July for a 5km run called Run or Dye...I think it my be a case of me Dying while Dyeing... because well... I haven't been to the gym in months and haven't been working out anywhere else... so maybe when I go to do the 'run' it'll be a lovely wake up call for me...lol and maybe it'll get my ass back to the gym.

I can't sit still for too long without a true purpose... or I really start to lose it...
Blogging has been difficult it requires me to look at myself and see what it is I want to say to the world...
But really...
There is so much I'd like to say but just can't.

So I'll continue to mask....

Right in the Feels.

All The Feels.

Makes me cry every time... because... I know.

Baggage...

So I'm getting ready to go to Red Spiral once again.
I'm at the stage now where I'm going to be packing my bag. The last couple of nights it's been chilly down here so I imagine it'll be chilly up North.

I came across my garment bag type suitcase, and by came across I mean it's still half packed full of clothing that I had taken on the trip to Reno last year. I opened it up and smiled with some really bittersweet memories as I looked at what was packed away and forgotten about. They lil multi-coloured dress I'd hang around the house in, the dress I've only worn once because my bday last year was the first time it fit me properly. There's a lot of reminders in the bag...of what had happened, has happened, will never happen again, and a few 'I wish that had of happened' as well.

By this time the last couple years I was sitting here with an itinerary and plane tickets all ready to fly away to see Bing. Well in 2009 it was me waiting for him to get here...

Couple more months it'll come full circle. And as of right now there's only one loose end that needs to be tied up, that he promised he would but hasn't. Hard to believe (to me) that this has where it's nearly ended up.

A bag of clothes that at times is too painful to unpack...and a shirt.

But for now I pack my bag so that I can go on one last camping trip up North before my lovely wife leaves me to follow her hubs to San Bruno.

Thankfully I have other bags that I can put clothes in... ;)