yes oh yes you are not seeing things I am truly home from work early tonight....
lemme recap how I got here... ready...
here we go....
I'm standing at the bus stop listening to my music, singing outloud...I don't care if drunks going to the beer store hear me or not...
bus pulls up... woo hoo it's my favourite bus driver.... the sexy hunk of a man that I wouldn't throw out of my bed for eating crackers... Raistlan stayed on the bus he was getting off a couple of stops down the street to go to the library... showed him a couple of christmas cards we got in the mail this morning (btw thanks deli I LOVED that card)... he got off the bus... I'm now free to stare at the driver and drool all over myself... which I do... discretely of course ... so he doesn't think I'm some sort of mental patient.... uneventful ride up to the part where we get to the Pen Centre... where normally I would just stay on the bus and go downtown... but I notice there is another bus in the downtown spot... I'm oblivious to the fact that the sexy driver just told the other passenger that he has to get out and get on the other bus... so I pull the lil earbuds out of my ears and pause my music.... I was like huh?...
Sexy turns around and asks me if I was just going directly downtown... I said yeah... he explained that he was just helping the other driver because that driver was so far behind on doing the route... so he was actually out of service.... I was like oh ok... he looks out the front window then looks back at me with a cocked eyebrow and a sly lil smile and says wanna go for a ride on the highway?... took less then 2 seconds to say uh yeah!.... not only is he sexy to look at and fun to talk to the man can drive.... I dunno what it is but I'm a sucker for a man who can really drive.. and hello... if he can manage a bus like he can can you imagine how he can drive a car??? but I digress....
so whee got to go straight downtown instead of having to deal with the route on the way to the station... he got me there with enough time to go to Tim Horton's... oh yeah I lust this man even more now....
so I got into work logged into my computer... then I go and have my smoke.. normal routine... come back to my computer.. catch Nat up on all the gossip he's missed the last couple of days... log into my phone at 5:45pm as per normal... I go into the section on the intranet where you can click to go home early and put it as paid for timebank... didn't think anymore about it... turned around and started talking to Nat and Sh and J... and all of a sudden Nat points at my computer.. I said what I didn't get a call (didn't hear a ding in my ear) he says... looks like you're going home early... I turned around and saw that the lil box telling me I could go home early had popped up.. WHOO HOO.... I look at my clock and see that it's 5:55pm.... woo hoo was at work for ten whole minutes (logged in).... so I said bye to the people I was talking too... found the Major (sup) and told him I had no idea how to log my shift when I was told I could go home 5 minutes before my shift even started "officially"... he didn't know either.... I told him I'd worry about it tomorrow and hustled my ass down to the bus station to catch my bus...
and surprised the fuck outta Raistlan by coming home early...
then my mom calls...
Me "Hello?"
Mom " Rae??"
Me "Yeah?"
Mom "uh why aren't you at work?"
Me "because I was sent home early"
Mom "you worked less than an hour?"
Me "yes...I was sent home before my shift started"
*pause*
Mom " uh...."
Me "so what can I do for ya?"
LMAO I love confusing my mom some days...
anyway so thats how I am home now...
and now I'm getting kicked off the computer... LMAO
Thursday, December 30, 2004
103 Is Forever When You're Just A Little Kid....
Ring around the Rosie, Pocketful of Posies, Ashes to ashes, We all Fall Down....
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
Gravedigger...
This song has been in my head for about a month now... and I can't shake it... theres something about it that makes it stay in my head... and its only the chorus that stays...
Songs work their way into my head until something changes in my life to make another song stick....
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
it sounds so dreary... talking to a gravedigger... almost morbid.... *shrugs*
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
It's a good song tho... it's by Dave Matthews Band...just incase you wanna find it....
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
Gravedigger...
This song has been in my head for about a month now... and I can't shake it... theres something about it that makes it stay in my head... and its only the chorus that stays...
Songs work their way into my head until something changes in my life to make another song stick....
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
it sounds so dreary... talking to a gravedigger... almost morbid.... *shrugs*
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
It's a good song tho... it's by Dave Matthews Band...just incase you wanna find it....
Gravedigger when ya dig my grave could you make it shallow so that I can feel the rain...
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Here I Go Again On My Own...
ok where've I been... I know someone is asking themselves that question...
lets get this over with it'll be less painful for all of us involved...
WORK:
I start training on monday january 3rd... I will be moved over to the RR campain, which is good... at least I'm not going to be one of the poor saps who is getting laid off... I didn't have to do any testing for it because they still have my test results on file from four months ago when I started and got an 87% on the Windows98 test... yeah I know win98... wtf are they thinking nobody uses that anymore.... but anyway... my shift will change as of monday to 8am to 4pm... thats my training shift... I feel sorry for any person, animal and any sub species of either of those who have to deal with me first thing in the morning... unless I'm naked in bed and getting fucked at 6:30 in the morning you had better stay far away cause it won't be pretty...
HOLIDAYS:
they were good... spent the whole weekend at my moms house... opened gifts had dinner... on boxing day Raistlan's mom came to my moms house... at about 10 pm so we waited til monday morning to open the presents from her house... we got mostly money from her.. woo hoo... went to best buy after work on monday and bought the mp3 player I wanted... hells yeah now I am truly in my own little world when riding the bus... saw my grandmother.... yay... whatever at least she didn't go on and on about my uncle veggie.... but hey life sucks sometimes... so yeah all in all holidays were good.... now to figure out how to work in an evening gown, leave work early and figure out a way to get to Niagara Falls before dinner is over on friday night.... hmmm
ME:
well I feel like I've gained a million pounds... when I weighed in at moms house over the holidays I had lost another five pounds... I need to get Raistlan going... best way for me that I've found to lose weight is the fun way :P having sex... uh huh if I can drop 10 pounds in two weeks just from having sex... well hell how much could I lose in a month of sex... I'm gonna find out or he's gonna die trying.... LOL
FAMILY:
kids are good... happy with what they got for christmas... Gambit was upset because I wouldn't let him take his new motorcycle to his dads house... knowing my luck the asshat would sell it on him... don't ask.. he just has a tendency to do that to the poor kid... Keenan was extremely upset.. he found out on Tuesday morning that he was going to grandma's house when grandma left... that was heartbreaking... if you are wondering why we sent him to Raistlans mom's house look above in the work section of this post.... Raistlan.. well he seems happier on the new campaign that he's on at work which is good... even picked himself up a lil girlie friend... puhshaw... we'll crush that soon enough.... seems I'll have to ive her a what for as well.... LMAO anyway if ya wanna know more about whats going on with him... go to his blog and ask him...
FRIENDS:
well now... hmm... I hope that my friends had good holidays I did think about a couple of them during the holidays.... theres one that I did not thinkof while at my moms house and I'm glad I didn't... for thinking of her makes me mad and upset right now... she pushed me away and thought I wouldn't be able to handle whatever emotion bullshit she's been going thru and inturn made me feel like shit.... all I can say is I didn't do anything wrong yet you made me feel like a red headed step child... that doesn't just go away because you say you've missed me.... I'm sorry but I thought we were friends and could talk about anything... apparently I was wrong... its gonna take a whole lot of time....
Squig I miss ya... hope you're doing alright and all is well in you're part of the world.
Squirrels thanks for the poem...
Peachy did ya ever mail the xmas cards??
Jamie stop poking me when I'm not looking my ribs are starting to bruise....
Deli I hope you had a good christmas and everything went well...
Moon I hope the holiday was good and not to hectic for you...
Anna sorry to hear about the car overheating, but glad everyone had a good holiday nonetheless...
Shana hope you had a good holiday despite the probs the day or so before....
Tracy are you still alive?? lol
Shiney smile!!
and yes I wrote this post before catching up on everyone elses journals/blogs.... :P
lets get this over with it'll be less painful for all of us involved...
WORK:
I start training on monday january 3rd... I will be moved over to the RR campain, which is good... at least I'm not going to be one of the poor saps who is getting laid off... I didn't have to do any testing for it because they still have my test results on file from four months ago when I started and got an 87% on the Windows98 test... yeah I know win98... wtf are they thinking nobody uses that anymore.... but anyway... my shift will change as of monday to 8am to 4pm... thats my training shift... I feel sorry for any person, animal and any sub species of either of those who have to deal with me first thing in the morning... unless I'm naked in bed and getting fucked at 6:30 in the morning you had better stay far away cause it won't be pretty...
HOLIDAYS:
they were good... spent the whole weekend at my moms house... opened gifts had dinner... on boxing day Raistlan's mom came to my moms house... at about 10 pm so we waited til monday morning to open the presents from her house... we got mostly money from her.. woo hoo... went to best buy after work on monday and bought the mp3 player I wanted... hells yeah now I am truly in my own little world when riding the bus... saw my grandmother.... yay... whatever at least she didn't go on and on about my uncle veggie.... but hey life sucks sometimes... so yeah all in all holidays were good.... now to figure out how to work in an evening gown, leave work early and figure out a way to get to Niagara Falls before dinner is over on friday night.... hmmm
ME:
well I feel like I've gained a million pounds... when I weighed in at moms house over the holidays I had lost another five pounds... I need to get Raistlan going... best way for me that I've found to lose weight is the fun way :P having sex... uh huh if I can drop 10 pounds in two weeks just from having sex... well hell how much could I lose in a month of sex... I'm gonna find out or he's gonna die trying.... LOL
FAMILY:
kids are good... happy with what they got for christmas... Gambit was upset because I wouldn't let him take his new motorcycle to his dads house... knowing my luck the asshat would sell it on him... don't ask.. he just has a tendency to do that to the poor kid... Keenan was extremely upset.. he found out on Tuesday morning that he was going to grandma's house when grandma left... that was heartbreaking... if you are wondering why we sent him to Raistlans mom's house look above in the work section of this post.... Raistlan.. well he seems happier on the new campaign that he's on at work which is good... even picked himself up a lil girlie friend... puhshaw... we'll crush that soon enough.... seems I'll have to ive her a what for as well.... LMAO anyway if ya wanna know more about whats going on with him... go to his blog and ask him...
FRIENDS:
well now... hmm... I hope that my friends had good holidays I did think about a couple of them during the holidays.... theres one that I did not thinkof while at my moms house and I'm glad I didn't... for thinking of her makes me mad and upset right now... she pushed me away and thought I wouldn't be able to handle whatever emotion bullshit she's been going thru and inturn made me feel like shit.... all I can say is I didn't do anything wrong yet you made me feel like a red headed step child... that doesn't just go away because you say you've missed me.... I'm sorry but I thought we were friends and could talk about anything... apparently I was wrong... its gonna take a whole lot of time....
Squig I miss ya... hope you're doing alright and all is well in you're part of the world.
Squirrels thanks for the poem...
Peachy did ya ever mail the xmas cards??
Jamie stop poking me when I'm not looking my ribs are starting to bruise....
Deli I hope you had a good christmas and everything went well...
Moon I hope the holiday was good and not to hectic for you...
Anna sorry to hear about the car overheating, but glad everyone had a good holiday nonetheless...
Shana hope you had a good holiday despite the probs the day or so before....
Tracy are you still alive?? lol
Shiney smile!!
and yes I wrote this post before catching up on everyone elses journals/blogs.... :P
Friday, December 24, 2004
Night Before Christmas, T-Shirt Hell Style... I leave you with this... >:D
Twas the night before Christmas, and back at my mansion;
My dog was balls deep, in young Scarlett Johansson
Three teenage runaways all chained to my bed,
Two sucked my tits, while the last gave me head;
The handcuffs were chafing, their collars on tight,
I warmed up the cattle prod for a long night.
A call from security disrupted my screwing;
An alarm had gone off, and some trouble was brewing.
I went to my monitor, scanned the estate.
The intruder was visible on camera eight.
A fat load of crap in a fuzzy red suit,
In a queer little sleigh with his bag full of loot.
Eight tiny reindeer the color of fawn;
This would be the last year they would shit on my lawn.
The hookers and runaways would just have to wait,
While I did what I did to protect my estate.
When I got to my parlor I saw Santa there;
My bodyguards had him strapped down to a chair.
They had beat him severely, they couldn't avoid it.
And Santa they said, well he rather enjoyed it.
"I came for your help," he told me with a tear;
"You're the only one who can save Christmas this year."
"We are so much alike, I know that much is true;
Since you also spread joy; just as much as I do.
I give everyone presents I don't ask to get paid
Is it so much to ask that I want to get laid?"
"A blumpkin! a donkey punch! the old Cleveland steamer!
Mrs. Claus is too old, and she won't let me ream her!"
I sympathized with the old guy this was true;
But there were some things (and some guys) that I just wouldn't do.
"I'll help the old dude" said a voice from behind me,
He looked over my shoulder and said, "Thank-you kindly!"
So, who would I thank for last minute salvation?
Why young Scarlett Johansson (from Lost in Translation)
Santa was thrilled and he did a quick dance
With a gleam in his eye and a tent in his pants.
She dropped to her knees and she spit on her hand,
As she undid his belt something happened, unplanned.
At the touch of her fingers he moaned and he farted;
And Santa was finished before he had started.
And Scarlett was literally covered in goo;
Like a young blade of grass in the fresh morning dew.
But more like a birthday cake covered in frosting;
Poor Santa collapsed the whole thing quite exhausting.
Scarlett licked her full lips and she said, "it's quite chalky."
"It's lucky for you that I'm into bukkake."
Well, Santa got up and he brushed off his suit,
As she licked the last drops of his seed off his boot.
Then Santa said, "Sorry, I guess one thing's clear:
It's that Santa should come more than one time a year."
But I heard him exclaim as he drove out of sight,
Merry Christmas to all, and buy a gift certificate at
www.tshirthell.com, tonight.
Never Get to Stop and Open Our Eyes...
ok so I'm a hypocrite... I've decided to accept that...
I expect whatever man I'm with to want to be with me so much that he comes running home after work, school, whatever he's doing...
it's not that bad... I mean I don't expect him to buy me flowers, chocolates and a diamond ring with a working car for a box...
it's not that bad.. :P
Just expect them to want to spend time with me...
BLAH!!!
I am Sooooo not in the spirit of christmas....
guess I better hurry up and get in it... my sis and mom will be here in two hours to pick up my clan for our yuletide celebrations....
so I won't be posting again until probably Sunday... not sure tho... but needless to say I won't be here...
so I hope you all have a happy holiday, merry christams, happy kwanzaa, happy hanukah (sp), joyeux noelle, happy yule and whatever else you may celebrate...
Bah-Fucking-Humbug!
I expect whatever man I'm with to want to be with me so much that he comes running home after work, school, whatever he's doing...
it's not that bad... I mean I don't expect him to buy me flowers, chocolates and a diamond ring with a working car for a box...
it's not that bad.. :P
Just expect them to want to spend time with me...
BLAH!!!
I am Sooooo not in the spirit of christmas....
guess I better hurry up and get in it... my sis and mom will be here in two hours to pick up my clan for our yuletide celebrations....
so I won't be posting again until probably Sunday... not sure tho... but needless to say I won't be here...
so I hope you all have a happy holiday, merry christams, happy kwanzaa, happy hanukah (sp), joyeux noelle, happy yule and whatever else you may celebrate...
Bah-Fucking-Humbug!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
I Can Say What I Want To Say....I Want To Blow You.... Away...
"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing, watch you smile while you are sleeping, while you're far away and dreaming, I could spend my life in this sweet surrender, I could stay lost in this moment forever, every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure."
to just kiss you, wrap my arms around you and feel love returned...
"Don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep, cause I 'd miss you babe and I don't want to miss a thing, cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do, I'd still miss you and I don't want to miss a thing"
to just look in your eyes and see love returned...
"Lying close to you feeling your heart beating, And I wondering what you are dreaming, Wondering if it's me you are seeing, Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together, I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever"
to just whisper to you and hear the love returned...
"And I don't want to miss one smile, I don't want to miss one kiss, I just want to be with you right here with you, Just like this, I just want to hold you close, I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment, For all of the rest of time"
to just kiss you, wrap my arms around you and feel love returned...
"Don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep, cause I 'd miss you babe and I don't want to miss a thing, cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do, I'd still miss you and I don't want to miss a thing"
to just look in your eyes and see love returned...
"Lying close to you feeling your heart beating, And I wondering what you are dreaming, Wondering if it's me you are seeing, Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together, I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever"
to just whisper to you and hear the love returned...
"And I don't want to miss one smile, I don't want to miss one kiss, I just want to be with you right here with you, Just like this, I just want to hold you close, I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment, For all of the rest of time"
ok nicities over with now...
I'm so fucking mad about work right now... I'm so frustrated...
last night I find out that the campaign that I'm on now is leaving... and that everyone on my campaign and another one which is also leaving will be split between two incoming campaigns I shall name them RR and AA...
so if you are going to the RR campaign you're ok you just have to start daytime training I think on the third... however if you are being moved to AA then you will be laid off until AA is ready to start training... most likely a week or two...
Last night I was told that "as of right now" I'm signed up to go to the RR campaign.... not so bad... except that whole daytime training thing...
I get told to just roll with the punches, go with the flow... flow this motha fuckers...
I have been working at Hell for four months and this is my third campaign... flow this!
I had just gotten the hang of my first campaign when all of a sudden they switched me to CC and now I had just been getting the hang of CC and now they're fucking changing me again...
I just wish that when they are going to fuck you up the ass with a telephone pole using shards of glass for lube that they wouldn't marinate the glass in tabasco first....
*walks away rubbing her sore butt*
And now I'm back from outer space, you just walked in and I had that look upon my face...
sitting at the bus station on the metal bench I swore I wouldn't sit on, due to frozen checkerboard ass effect, a drunken male sits down next to me and wishes me a merry christmas... ok not odd for this time of year...
he goes on to tell me about his job and school and how hes not usually this talkative but he's drunk... I nod and smile and try not to talk to much to him...
says he's waiting for his bus... I tell him I figured that since he was in a bus station...
my bus pulls in... I'm praising anyone who'll listen... we both stand up... I glance at him... I walk toward my bus... he walks toward my bus... I glance at him again... he mumbles something about this being his bus... I start cursing those I was just praising... he gets on the bus before me... ok maybe he'll go to the back and sit there... he's standing in the middle of the aisle... looking to see where I'm going to sit... I sit down nice and close to the driver... put my bag on the other seat... he moves it and sits down.... now he's trying to convince me he's like Santa Claus and that he/offers only come around once a year.... by this time his cheap liquor breath is really grating on my nerves... and stomach... then he tells me about the "other girls" he has but how he wants me.... yeah like thats supposed to work... he wants to know how hard I would like to hold on to him... I tell him so hard that he can't breathe... he didn't get it... so I let him know that my man might want to hold onto him that hard too... he didn't get it... now he thinks I want him and that my man would too... so he tells me how big his dick is and if we weren't so close to the front he would whip it out for me to see... asks me if I'd like to go to the back... umm no... again with the Santa bit... tempted for a moment to tell him I'm Jewish... he says oh my stop is coming up... tells me its my last chance to take him up on the opprotunity... apparently his parents are "out of town".... umm no... I need to get home to tuck my kids in... so he shrugged said it was his loss and that I would never meet a black santa with a dick like his again...
yep like I care... I don't "play" with just anyone... you gotta be someone special...and black santa doesn't qualify....
not even going to get into shopping...
not even going to get into the story about wanting to kill Raistlan...
not even going to get into how I went skating again today... (didn't fall)
not even going to get into how expensive it is to fly to England...
not even going to get into how much my back hurts...
not even going to get into the story about the lil engine that could...
wha? where'd that one come from...
there's nothing right now that could top "Black Santa Proposal"
he goes on to tell me about his job and school and how hes not usually this talkative but he's drunk... I nod and smile and try not to talk to much to him...
says he's waiting for his bus... I tell him I figured that since he was in a bus station...
my bus pulls in... I'm praising anyone who'll listen... we both stand up... I glance at him... I walk toward my bus... he walks toward my bus... I glance at him again... he mumbles something about this being his bus... I start cursing those I was just praising... he gets on the bus before me... ok maybe he'll go to the back and sit there... he's standing in the middle of the aisle... looking to see where I'm going to sit... I sit down nice and close to the driver... put my bag on the other seat... he moves it and sits down.... now he's trying to convince me he's like Santa Claus and that he/offers only come around once a year.... by this time his cheap liquor breath is really grating on my nerves... and stomach... then he tells me about the "other girls" he has but how he wants me.... yeah like thats supposed to work... he wants to know how hard I would like to hold on to him... I tell him so hard that he can't breathe... he didn't get it... so I let him know that my man might want to hold onto him that hard too... he didn't get it... now he thinks I want him and that my man would too... so he tells me how big his dick is and if we weren't so close to the front he would whip it out for me to see... asks me if I'd like to go to the back... umm no... again with the Santa bit... tempted for a moment to tell him I'm Jewish... he says oh my stop is coming up... tells me its my last chance to take him up on the opprotunity... apparently his parents are "out of town".... umm no... I need to get home to tuck my kids in... so he shrugged said it was his loss and that I would never meet a black santa with a dick like his again...
yep like I care... I don't "play" with just anyone... you gotta be someone special...and black santa doesn't qualify....
not even going to get into shopping...
not even going to get into the story about wanting to kill Raistlan...
not even going to get into how I went skating again today... (didn't fall)
not even going to get into how expensive it is to fly to England...
not even going to get into how much my back hurts...
not even going to get into the story about the lil engine that could...
wha? where'd that one come from...
there's nothing right now that could top "Black Santa Proposal"
Monday, December 20, 2004
Where Oh Where Has My Little Rae Gone....
Lost: 5'1", Long Blonde Hair, Green Eyes, last seen wearing blue pants , grey shirt, O.C.C jacket, blue and silver one shoulder bag, last seen travelling Northbound on the 406 headed to The Pen Centre, in a grey mini van, on Saturday December the 18th 2004 to go christmas shopping. If you have seen or heard from her please leave a comment on this blog for she has not returned or called.
If you see her don't try to approach her for she is a bit skittish at times and may run or bite if cornered.
If you see her don't try to approach her for she is a bit skittish at times and may run or bite if cornered.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Mommy By Day, Crazy Monkey Lover By Night...
"If this world is wearing thing and you're thinking of escape, I'll go anywhere with you, just wrap me in chains, but if you try to go alone, don't think I'll understand.....Stay... Stay with me... In the silence of your room, in the darkness of your dreams you must only think of me, there can be no inbetween when your pride is on the floor, I'll make you beg for more...Stay...Stay with me"
WOW....long days...
yesterday was one fine example of a long day...
Mom came to pick me and the smallest midget monkey up at about noon... we went to Cupolo Sports, we picked up The EX's skates that had to be sharpened... well of course while we're there I start looking at skates for the littlest midget monkey, the big midget monkey has been in skating lessons for almost two years now and the littlest one wants to skate too...
I think that Keenan is going to be a hockey player... he hasn't even gotten on the ice yet but theres just something about the way he was in the sports store... I hope he really doesn't want to play hockey.... don't get me wrong I like watching hockey... especially if someone I know is playing inthe game... but not my babies. lol
Anyway... found the monkey some skates... omg they're so cute... cause they're so little... (remember people the kid is only 3) ... so my mom gets this bright idea... "Hey Rae lets see how much a pair would cost for you!" riiiiiight... this fat lil girl hasn't been ice skating in ten years... so I humour my mom by trying on skates... yeah...I bought a pair... aren't even broken in... omg... BTW incase anyone cares I prefer wearing mens/boys skates... but anyway...
get to the arena because the biggest midget has skating with his school...hence why we were picking up the EX's skates... whom by the way used to be a hockey player... blecch... there is something to be said about a man who can skate... but I digress...
So yeah you guessed it... this fat lil girl put on the brand new skates and wobbled her ass out to the ice...
clutching at the wall like a cat looking face on into a bathtub full of water... what does the EX do... oh yeah you can guess it... he comes skating up to me and does that wretched sideways snowplough "I'm gonna spray ya with a bunch of snow" stopping maneuver and starts laughing because I'm standing there wobbling all over the place... riiiight that was productive... anyway so I start slowly sliding around the ice... get to where my mom is on the other side of the wall as she sees me... she starts chuckling and says to me..."would you like me to call over Gambit and have him teach ya how to skate again?" ....geez thanks... support coming from everywhere... Gambit comes skating up with his friend...
Gambit-"Hey mom I thought you said you didn't know how to skate anymore?"
Me- "well doesn't look like I'm doing too well now"
Gambit- "aww it's ok my first day back on the ice I was wobbly too"
With that he took my hand and helped me around the rink... what a sweet kid...
I must say by the time I got off the ice I was actually skating again...not like I used too...but since now I have no excuse to not take the kid skating anymore looks like my skating will be improving... maybe next time we'll get some pics of the lil fat girl in skates... don't hold your breath.... :P So I've come to the conclusion that I was like a weeble ;)
"Weebles wobble but they don't fall down!"
Maybe after I come home from shopping I'll tell you how I almost killed Raistlan
"You'd better hope and pray that you make it safe back to your own world, you better hope and pray that you wake one day in your own world, cause when you sleep at night they don't hear your cries in your own world, only time will tell if you can break the spell in your own world."
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Merry Fucking Christmas....
well I'm having a great fucking week and it's only thursday... well maybe its good its thursday maybe less will happen this weekend...
so far it seems that I've had to yell at The Ex...you're an asshole.
after visiting with a friend they don't seem to want to talk to me...so much for four years...you confuse me so much do you even realize that?
after getting home contact with another friend has dwindled down to hi and bye's when coming into a chat room and leaving again... If I did something just fucking come out and say it.
another claims that I've abused them and now they don't care...right if you didn't care so much then why are you so upset?
so apparently this week my goal is to see how many friends I can completely alienate myself from...who's next? step up...
and people wonder why I hate christmas...
I'm so sick of this fucking shit...
why do I even bother?
one way or another I seem to fuck it up...
Fuck You!!!
so far it seems that I've had to yell at The Ex...you're an asshole.
after visiting with a friend they don't seem to want to talk to me...so much for four years...you confuse me so much do you even realize that?
after getting home contact with another friend has dwindled down to hi and bye's when coming into a chat room and leaving again... If I did something just fucking come out and say it.
another claims that I've abused them and now they don't care...right if you didn't care so much then why are you so upset?
so apparently this week my goal is to see how many friends I can completely alienate myself from...who's next? step up...
and people wonder why I hate christmas...
I'm so sick of this fucking shit...
why do I even bother?
one way or another I seem to fuck it up...
Fuck You!!!
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Dreams...
so it was kinda strange I had four dreams last night (monday night/tuesday morning) ... it was strange that I remember them all... yet not... strange because they all had the same person in them...
I'm not going to post who was in the dreams... I shall refer to them as "you" ... heck "you" might even know who "you" are if "you" are even reading this...
Anyway... On with the dreams...
We were sitting in my livingroom, just shooting the shit. (I don't remember the whole conversation) but then you all of a sudden out of the middle of no where asked me about the holy crusades ( in real life I know nothing of the crusades yet in my dream...) I start telling you all about the crusades. Then we went for a drive. Went to go visit some people. Then you told me that you had to go to catch your plane. (end dream 1)
I met you at the airport. You were coming in on a layover.We stayed and hung out at the airport. We started exploring differet parts of the airport like two little kids on some sort of hunt. Going thru all the buildings and restricted areas. Then there was an announcement over theloud speaker and you said it was time for you to go. You said you were going to Russia because you heard they had the best tasting chicken nuggets at the McDonalds there. (end dream 2)
I lived in a big house. you came to visit. we played hide and seek with the kids. I was hiding in a huge closet at the end of the hallway. It was really late at night. After about 10 minutes you came into the closet with me and we sat quietly chatting waiting for the kids to find us. After about about 15 minutes of chatting in the closet I left to go see where the kids were, you stayed in the closet. I went downstairs and found the kids sleeping on the couch. I came back upstairs and we sat in the closet talking about anything and everything until the sun came up. (end dream 3)
You were sitting on the couch in the living room with your arm along the back of the couch, I walked in and sat down next to you and put my head on your shoulder. You brought your arm down and draped it around my shoulders and we just sat there. not saying anything, not doing anything just sat there enjoying each others company and the silence. (end dream 4)
I was told by a dream interpreting guru this morning that there is a theme which connects all four of the dreams... if you know what the theme is please feel free to take a guess. :D
I'm not going to post who was in the dreams... I shall refer to them as "you" ... heck "you" might even know who "you" are if "you" are even reading this...
Anyway... On with the dreams...
We were sitting in my livingroom, just shooting the shit. (I don't remember the whole conversation) but then you all of a sudden out of the middle of no where asked me about the holy crusades ( in real life I know nothing of the crusades yet in my dream...) I start telling you all about the crusades. Then we went for a drive. Went to go visit some people. Then you told me that you had to go to catch your plane. (end dream 1)
I met you at the airport. You were coming in on a layover.We stayed and hung out at the airport. We started exploring differet parts of the airport like two little kids on some sort of hunt. Going thru all the buildings and restricted areas. Then there was an announcement over theloud speaker and you said it was time for you to go. You said you were going to Russia because you heard they had the best tasting chicken nuggets at the McDonalds there. (end dream 2)
I lived in a big house. you came to visit. we played hide and seek with the kids. I was hiding in a huge closet at the end of the hallway. It was really late at night. After about 10 minutes you came into the closet with me and we sat quietly chatting waiting for the kids to find us. After about about 15 minutes of chatting in the closet I left to go see where the kids were, you stayed in the closet. I went downstairs and found the kids sleeping on the couch. I came back upstairs and we sat in the closet talking about anything and everything until the sun came up. (end dream 3)
You were sitting on the couch in the living room with your arm along the back of the couch, I walked in and sat down next to you and put my head on your shoulder. You brought your arm down and draped it around my shoulders and we just sat there. not saying anything, not doing anything just sat there enjoying each others company and the silence. (end dream 4)
I was told by a dream interpreting guru this morning that there is a theme which connects all four of the dreams... if you know what the theme is please feel free to take a guess. :D
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Fnord...
You are a Hyper FNORD! YaY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps up
and down*
Which FNORD are you?
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Monday, December 13, 2004
blah...
ok so everyone has been subjected to my whining about how I can never get enough sleep and how I don't know why I can never get enough sleep...
last night I went to bed at just after 10 pm and I woke up 10 am this morning...
guess I won't be bitching today about how I didn't get any sleep... LMAO
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so yesterday was weird and gross... woke up very sore... coulda been the sex... or coulda been because I slept funny after the sex...
I had a stomach ache... everytime I burped it was gross and egg tasting... it was gross....
My head hurt and I was moody...
it was bad.. felt like I was either gonna puke or die...
thank the Gods I got some sleep and feel better eh or I would have to keep carrying on with the gruesome details... LOL
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Yesterday was the longest day of my life... up at 8:30 am screaming that even God doesn't get up this early in the morning... complaining that I wasn't feeling well...
was making the boys lunch when it was only 11 am... Gambit got picked up at 12:30pm... I had dinner made by 6pm... and was ready for bed by 8 pm... it was nuts... I tried to stay up as late as my shift would normally be for work... and I just barely made it...
So I should be nice and tired when I get home from work... YAY...
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Enh.. I'm bored... any men out there wanna get naked for me??
last night I went to bed at just after 10 pm and I woke up 10 am this morning...
guess I won't be bitching today about how I didn't get any sleep... LMAO
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so yesterday was weird and gross... woke up very sore... coulda been the sex... or coulda been because I slept funny after the sex...
I had a stomach ache... everytime I burped it was gross and egg tasting... it was gross....
My head hurt and I was moody...
it was bad.. felt like I was either gonna puke or die...
thank the Gods I got some sleep and feel better eh or I would have to keep carrying on with the gruesome details... LOL
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Yesterday was the longest day of my life... up at 8:30 am screaming that even God doesn't get up this early in the morning... complaining that I wasn't feeling well...
was making the boys lunch when it was only 11 am... Gambit got picked up at 12:30pm... I had dinner made by 6pm... and was ready for bed by 8 pm... it was nuts... I tried to stay up as late as my shift would normally be for work... and I just barely made it...
So I should be nice and tired when I get home from work... YAY...
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Enh.. I'm bored... any men out there wanna get naked for me??
Saturday, December 11, 2004
A Good Shopping Day???
ok normally I hate shopping... because if I find something I like I never find it in my size... which just depresses me... all the skinny bitches end up with the cool looking outfits...
So when my mom and sister called me up to go shopping at Value Village (yes its a second hand shoppe...so what??) I was like... enh.. I guess... thought maybe I would find a couple things for the kids... so today was their huge sale 50% everything (with a couple of exceptions)...
Mark this day on your calendar... not only did I have fun shopping, I found stuff for me that was cool and actually FIT!!! and I didn't spend a fortune... weeeee
I bought some clothes for Gambit because his father the asshole ex apparently believes that I don't buy stuff for the kid and constantly complains the kid has no clothes, but since he always has something on when he gets here...enh not worth it ... but I digress... anyway... I bought Gambit 3 pairs of pants, 4 sweaters, and 4 shirts... (Keenan has a huge wardrobe so we didn't buy any new clothes for him...) I bought for me 6 pairs of pants, 2 sweaters and 2 shirts...
all of this came up too $101.79... even for all we bought thats a good price... BUT... remember it was 50% off day... Soooooo....
I got it all for $57.13 !!!
Annnnnnndddd.... what made it even better besides saving half off everything...
I set myself a $60 budget....and for one of the first times in ages... I was within my budget...
*content sigh*
yep it was a good day thus far...
I'm gonna go get myself a special lil drink now >:) cause I'm feeling good and damn I deserve it...
oh yeah and...
Bah Humbug... :P
So when my mom and sister called me up to go shopping at Value Village (yes its a second hand shoppe...so what??) I was like... enh.. I guess... thought maybe I would find a couple things for the kids... so today was their huge sale 50% everything (with a couple of exceptions)...
Mark this day on your calendar... not only did I have fun shopping, I found stuff for me that was cool and actually FIT!!! and I didn't spend a fortune... weeeee
I bought some clothes for Gambit because his father the asshole ex apparently believes that I don't buy stuff for the kid and constantly complains the kid has no clothes, but since he always has something on when he gets here...enh not worth it ... but I digress... anyway... I bought Gambit 3 pairs of pants, 4 sweaters, and 4 shirts... (Keenan has a huge wardrobe so we didn't buy any new clothes for him...) I bought for me 6 pairs of pants, 2 sweaters and 2 shirts...
all of this came up too $101.79... even for all we bought thats a good price... BUT... remember it was 50% off day... Soooooo....
I got it all for $57.13 !!!
Annnnnnndddd.... what made it even better besides saving half off everything...
I set myself a $60 budget....and for one of the first times in ages... I was within my budget...
*content sigh*
yep it was a good day thus far...
I'm gonna go get myself a special lil drink now >:) cause I'm feeling good and damn I deserve it...
oh yeah and...
Bah Humbug... :P
Friday, December 10, 2004
Quiz Time Again...
You are 73% Flirt
How Much of a Flirt Are You? Take This Quiz :-)
Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.
You are a Tomboy Girl!Instead of flirting, you tend to pal around with the guys you crush on. And why not? You can hold your own in sports, video games, and gross out contests. Just make sure and suprise them with a touch of girlishness every once and a while. Then you'll be treated like the hottie you are - not like one of the guys. What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |
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You Are a Natural Beauty!You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |
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What Guys Think of Your Pigtails or Braids...Trendy, wild, and unconventional. You're a handful and it's hard to predict your behavior. But he loves that! What Do Guys Think of Your Hair? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |
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You Are Low MaintenanceOtherwise known as "too good to be true" You're one laid back chica - and men love that! Just remember that no good guy likes a dormat. So if you find your self going along to get along... Stop yourself and put up a little bit of a fight. Are You High Maintenance? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |
(Told ya so when we were having breakfast...LOL)
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You Are Not a Gold DiggerYou go out of your way to take care of everything in your life. Including money - which you've got plenty of, thank you very much. And you have no intentions of being a trophy girlfriend for some bald guy. Just make sure that hottie you met isn't scheming to be your boy toy! As a successful woman like you knows, gold digging goes both ways these days. |
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You Are a Flashy Red Bra!Outgoing, friendly, and fascinating. You're a charmer, with your pick of the men. But you want a man who's as magnetic as you are. You need someone who can keep up with your all night gab fests! What Kind of Bra Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |
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(with my pick of men??? Yeah Right...)
Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have?"
Scared
Your eyes are scared. Your eyes are scared of pain, or rejection. You know how much it hurts to lose someone u cared for, but in return they dumped you like a sack of potatoes! Someday you will find your special friend, or lover, so dont stay hidden too much. You have also seen much misery when it comes to guy too, so you pefer to keep it safe, and keep your heart locked up from everyone guy that seems to be interested. You dont wanna go through anymore pain....
Take the quiz: "What should your nick name be?"
shorty
your loud and your proud.. and u hate your parents
(funny enough lots of people have called me that)
Take the quiz: "Which deviant fetish should you indulge in? (sexy pictures)"
BDSM Fetish
Restraints! Hot wax! Chains! It's all about BDSM (Bondage Domination Sadism Masochism) for you! Whether you're the giver or receiver of pain - you'll love every moment of it, and because there are so many ways of indulging in BDSM, you're sure to find a possibility you and your partner will enjoy!
Take the quiz: "What Kind of Soul Do You Retain?"
Free
You have an open heart and open mind and you chose not to let anyone get to you and the way you want to live.
Alright I'll spare ya now... cause I know y'all don't actually read these :P
umm I don't think so..
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You Are a Peppermint CappuccinoYou're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please What Kind Of Coffee Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |
ok I agree with the description but did they have to pick peppermint cappuccino??? EW!
window shopping online
ok so I found some stuff that I would really want but have no way of getting... sometimes it sucks not having a credit card...
this is too funny for me not too have... t-shirt
I would like one of these for me... one for the DrunkenMonkey... one for my mom... one for my sister... Hell one for anyone who drives...
Anything from here would be nice too... since we know how much I hate my computer sometimes...
then of course the stuff I listed on the other post... the burberry would be nice and of course the cars..
these would be nice for kicking some ass...
if I have one fetish that is non-sex related toe socks would be it... especially happy bunny ones :D
wouldn't mind these ones too... I just don't have a calf that big :P
Cruel But Cute... thats pretty close to Cute But Violent...
Anyone who gets me these I'll model 'em for ya just cause they're too cute...
I'm a hat whore sometimes almost as much as a pen whore... oh hell I guess I'm just a whore (no comments from the peanut gallery)
Pj's are always good for gift giving... :D
I don't even bowl that often but I want this too... :D
hm and I don't tend to carry purses or anything too girly... good thing this isn't girly :P
this is too funny for me not too have... t-shirt
I would like one of these for me... one for the DrunkenMonkey... one for my mom... one for my sister... Hell one for anyone who drives...
Anything from here would be nice too... since we know how much I hate my computer sometimes...
then of course the stuff I listed on the other post... the burberry would be nice and of course the cars..
these would be nice for kicking some ass...
if I have one fetish that is non-sex related toe socks would be it... especially happy bunny ones :D
wouldn't mind these ones too... I just don't have a calf that big :P
Cruel But Cute... thats pretty close to Cute But Violent...
Anyone who gets me these I'll model 'em for ya just cause they're too cute...
I'm a hat whore sometimes almost as much as a pen whore... oh hell I guess I'm just a whore (no comments from the peanut gallery)
Pj's are always good for gift giving... :D
I don't even bowl that often but I want this too... :D
hm and I don't tend to carry purses or anything too girly... good thing this isn't girly :P
Thursday, December 09, 2004
The Phone Manners Of Some People...
had something weird happen this afternoon while trying to nap...
well the phone was ringing and I figured enh might as well answer it...
so I get up peek at the kitchen phone to see who it is.. its a ridgeway number (where I grew up and where Gambit, The EX and my mom live) so I grab the phone next to me...dial tone,
so I hit the flash button to see if I can hear them leaving a message..
sure enough I hear the voicemail...
and then click...
so they didn't leave a message..
so I grab my cordless and call the number back..
which I've been known to do before...
Her"Hello??"
Me"Hi someone just called my house from this phone number, I didn't seem to grab it in time"
Her"yeah well I was looking for someone else , it was a wrong number"
Me"oh ok well sorry about that thanks"
Her "Yeah whatever"
Me "Bye"
Her "whatever get a life"
so I look on the phone and it says Private Name...
which means she had to go thru my call privacy to get to my voicemail in the first place..
I did a reverse look up to see if there was a name to find out whos name it is for the number...
unfortunately I came up with nothing
So being the bitch that I am....
if anyone would like to find out for me who Mrs Cunt is...
it would be greatly appreciated.
1-905-894-9410
feel free to call her anytime of the day...
fuckin cunt, calls my house hangs up on my machine, gets lippy with me and tells me to get a life...
**if this behaviour and immature attitude offends you...you've obviously forgotten that I could fucking care less**
oh yeah...
Bah Humbug
well the phone was ringing and I figured enh might as well answer it...
so I get up peek at the kitchen phone to see who it is.. its a ridgeway number (where I grew up and where Gambit, The EX and my mom live) so I grab the phone next to me...dial tone,
so I hit the flash button to see if I can hear them leaving a message..
sure enough I hear the voicemail...
and then click...
so they didn't leave a message..
so I grab my cordless and call the number back..
which I've been known to do before...
Her"Hello??"
Me"Hi someone just called my house from this phone number, I didn't seem to grab it in time"
Her"yeah well I was looking for someone else , it was a wrong number"
Me"oh ok well sorry about that thanks"
Her "Yeah whatever"
Me "Bye"
Her "whatever get a life"
so I look on the phone and it says Private Name...
which means she had to go thru my call privacy to get to my voicemail in the first place..
I did a reverse look up to see if there was a name to find out whos name it is for the number...
unfortunately I came up with nothing
So being the bitch that I am....
if anyone would like to find out for me who Mrs Cunt is...
it would be greatly appreciated.
1-905-894-9410
feel free to call her anytime of the day...
fuckin cunt, calls my house hangs up on my machine, gets lippy with me and tells me to get a life...
**if this behaviour and immature attitude offends you...you've obviously forgotten that I could fucking care less**
oh yeah...
Bah Humbug
Showin the Freaky Side Again
RULES Copy this entire list into your blog/journal
BOLD everything about you that is true.
Leave plain anything that is false about you.
Put an * at the end of false statements you would LIKE to be true.
Please include this credit: Copyright 2004, Garrison Steelle. www.churchofsteelle.com Okay, now, you have the rules.
I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone else during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn.
I have had sex while surfing porn on the Internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights I cannot sleep without sex or masturbating.
The bed is NOT my most favorite place to have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for someone over a web cam.
I have had sex over a web cam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if they turn me on.
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped wax onto a lover's body.
I have had a lover drip wax onto my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence.
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PLAYBOY is tame, maybe even boring.
I click on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn.
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn video.
Much of what I know about sex come from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research given the opportunity.
My current lover does not sufficiently meet my sexual needs.
I currently have a "crush" on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships.
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I'm not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone snuggled up next to me.
I have had sex under water.
I have had sex in the snow.
I am in a polyamorous relationship.
I have to have music playing while having sex.
I have had more than ten orgasms in one night.
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.
Garrison Steelle turns me on.
I have fantasies involving Garrison Steelle.
I would pose nude for Garrison's camera if he promised to NEVER show them to anyone (truthfully wouldn't care if he showed them to anyone...lol)
BOLD everything about you that is true.
Leave plain anything that is false about you.
Put an * at the end of false statements you would LIKE to be true.
Please include this credit: Copyright 2004, Garrison Steelle. www.churchofsteelle.com Okay, now, you have the rules.
I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone else during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn.
I have had sex while surfing porn on the Internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights I cannot sleep without sex or masturbating.
The bed is NOT my most favorite place to have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for someone over a web cam.
I have had sex over a web cam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if they turn me on.
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped wax onto a lover's body.
I have had a lover drip wax onto my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence.
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PLAYBOY is tame, maybe even boring.
I click on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn.
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn video.
Much of what I know about sex come from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research given the opportunity.
My current lover does not sufficiently meet my sexual needs.
I currently have a "crush" on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships.
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I'm not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone snuggled up next to me.
I have had sex under water.
I have had sex in the snow.
I am in a polyamorous relationship.
I have to have music playing while having sex.
I have had more than ten orgasms in one night.
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.
Garrison Steelle turns me on.
I have fantasies involving Garrison Steelle.
I would pose nude for Garrison's camera if he promised to NEVER show them to anyone (truthfully wouldn't care if he showed them to anyone...lol)
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Things I've Learned This Week....
1. It's hard to get a cigarette lit when wearing leather gloves
2. Bus drivers don't care if you're sitting before they hit the gas
3. When sitting on a metal wire bench waiting for a bus and it's below zero you will have a checker board forever frozen onto your ass
4. You can miss someone before they are actually gone
5. It's damn near impossible to get a newly potty trained snow suited kid out to a bus in less then ten minutes
6. It's fun to test the waters with the new supervisor
7. People look at you like a beggar if you forget your lighter and ask for a light
8. It's best to just miss the bus and find a pair of socks
9. Just when you thought it couldn't get any colder when you don't have a winter coat on... it does.
10. It's best to go to the bathroom before standing and waiting for a bus for 45 minutes in the cold
11. Never let the freaks at work know just how freaky/kinky you can be
12. When you want to log something online while at work it will inevitably choose then to disconnect you
13. Jolt at work is always a good thing
14. When you want to go home and your shift ends at 9 pm you will get a call at 8:59 pm
15. When you are hoping that someone will open up to you that will be the time that they shut down and not say anything
16. Lava lamps get REALLY hot
17. When you forget your cigarettes at home and you really need one you'll buy just about any kind
18. My friends will always be a great source of amusement
19. When you forget your doctors note that you need for work and try to go back in the house to get it that will be the day that you also forget your keys
20. That sometimes the eager person will turn into the distant person
2. Bus drivers don't care if you're sitting before they hit the gas
3. When sitting on a metal wire bench waiting for a bus and it's below zero you will have a checker board forever frozen onto your ass
4. You can miss someone before they are actually gone
5. It's damn near impossible to get a newly potty trained snow suited kid out to a bus in less then ten minutes
6. It's fun to test the waters with the new supervisor
7. People look at you like a beggar if you forget your lighter and ask for a light
8. It's best to just miss the bus and find a pair of socks
9. Just when you thought it couldn't get any colder when you don't have a winter coat on... it does.
10. It's best to go to the bathroom before standing and waiting for a bus for 45 minutes in the cold
11. Never let the freaks at work know just how freaky/kinky you can be
12. When you want to log something online while at work it will inevitably choose then to disconnect you
13. Jolt at work is always a good thing
14. When you want to go home and your shift ends at 9 pm you will get a call at 8:59 pm
15. When you are hoping that someone will open up to you that will be the time that they shut down and not say anything
16. Lava lamps get REALLY hot
17. When you forget your cigarettes at home and you really need one you'll buy just about any kind
18. My friends will always be a great source of amusement
19. When you forget your doctors note that you need for work and try to go back in the house to get it that will be the day that you also forget your keys
20. That sometimes the eager person will turn into the distant person
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
holiday blah...
so I'm thinking that I'm not going to decorate for christmas this year....
my apartment is too small for anything... my tree is currently being used as a prop on a float... and we won't even be here christmas day... so really whats the sense...
I hate christmas....
bah hum bug...
I'm really not into christmas this year... and I haven't done any shopping and me taking time off fucked up my finances and budget for christmas ... two days wasn't a big deal but damn five isn't good...
I keep getting asked what I want for christmas... everything that pops into my head is too damn expensive... apparently as you get older the toys get more expensive...
and I feel greedy by listing a bunch of stuff that I want...
that and what I want for christmas isn't going to happen... it would be nice to have all my friends together... but unfortunately they're scattered all over the world... literally.
oh well time to get ready for work....
my apartment is too small for anything... my tree is currently being used as a prop on a float... and we won't even be here christmas day... so really whats the sense...
I hate christmas....
bah hum bug...
I'm really not into christmas this year... and I haven't done any shopping and me taking time off fucked up my finances and budget for christmas ... two days wasn't a big deal but damn five isn't good...
I keep getting asked what I want for christmas... everything that pops into my head is too damn expensive... apparently as you get older the toys get more expensive...
and I feel greedy by listing a bunch of stuff that I want...
that and what I want for christmas isn't going to happen... it would be nice to have all my friends together... but unfortunately they're scattered all over the world... literally.
oh well time to get ready for work....
Monday, December 06, 2004
Changes...
ok so I got a lil bored this morning, I made a couple changes to my blog...
they're not that noticeable hence why I'm writing out what they are....
I took off the calendar *shrugs* wasn't using it...
I made it so that when you come to my blog there are random polls that you'll get... right now there are only 5 different ones, I'm sure I'll add more...
if you have suggestions for polls please feel free to just leave it in a comment...
if there is anything you ever wanted to know about me or ask me then again feel free to leave me a comment with the question in it... I'll answer anything...
they're not that noticeable hence why I'm writing out what they are....
I took off the calendar *shrugs* wasn't using it...
I made it so that when you come to my blog there are random polls that you'll get... right now there are only 5 different ones, I'm sure I'll add more...
if you have suggestions for polls please feel free to just leave it in a comment...
if there is anything you ever wanted to know about me or ask me then again feel free to leave me a comment with the question in it... I'll answer anything...
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Where'd That Come From....
So I've been asked why I post these quiz results...
manly its just for fun.. just to see what kind of answers I'll end up with... and then yes I post them to my blog so that others can see the results... it may be silly but thats me...
Also when I feel like posting something and the words won't come to me it fills the time, taking and also posting the quizzes...
or even the list things I've been posting to my deadjournal... those are just a "get to know me" kind of things...
I know I lead a boring exsistence... I don't always have deep philosphical thoughts... I'm not always conflicted... well ok I am but not anything I can post in this forum or the other...
yes believe it or not there are somethings I keep private....
I wanted my blog to be more then just my daily going ons... I wanted to be able to vent about stuff... I wanted to be able to post my goals, hopes, dreams, my problems... I'm not looking for someone to come by and try to fix me... hell I'd probably cut ya down if you tried...
but now I'm sitting here wondering what happened to all that....
I seem so scatter brained...
I wish for a lot of things... none of which will come to me... I guess I just wish too big... or maybe I wish big because I know that the things I wish for unattainable... that way I won't even try for them...
I was once asked "So how are we going to go about getting you more post secondary education?" .... we?? as if someone could help out with that... like someone is just going to hand me a wad of cash and say you can have this if you go back to school... hells yeah I'd take it... but hell no it's not going to happen... I'm not a school type... but there are some things I'd like to go back for...
I would rather be able to go out and experience stuff... I keep getting this feeling that if I don't do it now then it'll be too late...
I'm only 26 years old... when is it going to be too late? I figure I'm good til I'm at least 40... so why the feeling of urgency? Am I going to die young or something?
I'm scared.... yeah I said it... I'm scared...
I'm scared to do what it is I really want to do.... the fear comes from way back... maybe I won't be good at it... maybe nobody'll be interested... maybe I won't make any money at doing it.... maybe I'll be too good at it.... I won't even tell people what it is I want to do for fear that it will be unsupported by my friends... that would hurt more than anything... that would hurt more than failure.... I've been told that no matter what I want to do I'll be supported... but I know thats not always true...
I've also started noticing that I am starting to care about what people think.... well I can't dress like that or they'll think I'm weird... or I can't tell them this or they'll think I'm nuts... especially the people who are dear to me...
I should practice what I preach... lol... I'm always saying who cares? if thats what you want to do, say, dress, who cares thats who you are....
Time for Rae to wake up and take a dose of that...
eww I just refered to myself in the third person... ick..
I'm proud of what I have overcome thus far in my life.... I could've been so much worse off then now...
overcoming lots... stuff that I see people struggling with... and wishing I could help them...
but I know I could be so much more...
manly its just for fun.. just to see what kind of answers I'll end up with... and then yes I post them to my blog so that others can see the results... it may be silly but thats me...
Also when I feel like posting something and the words won't come to me it fills the time, taking and also posting the quizzes...
or even the list things I've been posting to my deadjournal... those are just a "get to know me" kind of things...
I know I lead a boring exsistence... I don't always have deep philosphical thoughts... I'm not always conflicted... well ok I am but not anything I can post in this forum or the other...
yes believe it or not there are somethings I keep private....
I wanted my blog to be more then just my daily going ons... I wanted to be able to vent about stuff... I wanted to be able to post my goals, hopes, dreams, my problems... I'm not looking for someone to come by and try to fix me... hell I'd probably cut ya down if you tried...
but now I'm sitting here wondering what happened to all that....
I seem so scatter brained...
I wish for a lot of things... none of which will come to me... I guess I just wish too big... or maybe I wish big because I know that the things I wish for unattainable... that way I won't even try for them...
I was once asked "So how are we going to go about getting you more post secondary education?" .... we?? as if someone could help out with that... like someone is just going to hand me a wad of cash and say you can have this if you go back to school... hells yeah I'd take it... but hell no it's not going to happen... I'm not a school type... but there are some things I'd like to go back for...
I would rather be able to go out and experience stuff... I keep getting this feeling that if I don't do it now then it'll be too late...
I'm only 26 years old... when is it going to be too late? I figure I'm good til I'm at least 40... so why the feeling of urgency? Am I going to die young or something?
I'm scared.... yeah I said it... I'm scared...
I'm scared to do what it is I really want to do.... the fear comes from way back... maybe I won't be good at it... maybe nobody'll be interested... maybe I won't make any money at doing it.... maybe I'll be too good at it.... I won't even tell people what it is I want to do for fear that it will be unsupported by my friends... that would hurt more than anything... that would hurt more than failure.... I've been told that no matter what I want to do I'll be supported... but I know thats not always true...
I've also started noticing that I am starting to care about what people think.... well I can't dress like that or they'll think I'm weird... or I can't tell them this or they'll think I'm nuts... especially the people who are dear to me...
I should practice what I preach... lol... I'm always saying who cares? if thats what you want to do, say, dress, who cares thats who you are....
Time for Rae to wake up and take a dose of that...
eww I just refered to myself in the third person... ick..
I'm proud of what I have overcome thus far in my life.... I could've been so much worse off then now...
overcoming lots... stuff that I see people struggling with... and wishing I could help them...
but I know I could be so much more...
Saturday, December 04, 2004
Quizzes
 | You scored as Upper middle Class. Your determination have soared you this high, yet not high enough to enjoy the luxuries of the upper class. Your most valued posession is your country club membership which is kept framed in the office.
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I'm Seeing A Theme In The Quizzes I Do...
 | You scored as Pissed at the World Cat. And here we have the next serial killer. Try having some cotton candy, it'll make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside, Psycho.
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Ramblings Of A Drunken Rae....
**WARNING just got home from Toronto-Possibilities of the "I Love You Man" Syndrome**
ok so on the way to the bar I was thinking "nah I won't drink anything so I can drive home" BAHAHA... if theres something I dislike more then buses it's driving down Younge St on a friday fucking night...
walked in and immediately asked for a drink after finding who we were looking for...
and proceeded to down 3 more very quickly after the intial one...
sometimes I wonder why I go up to toronto for the gatherings when he's leaving town after visiting... I don't really know anybody but him... I mean I know a couple of people to say "hi how's it going? cool..." but thats about it... *shrug* it's to see him... even if I don't get to talk to him very much during the night...
an hour and a half to get there.... an hour and a half to get home... two hours there...
most people would say I was nuts... most people who know me know I am...
"...I love you always forever, near and far, closer together, everywhere I will be with you... everything I will do for you... you've got the most stumbling brown eyes I've ever seen..."
why do I do this....
I'm just the little gnome, one of santas lil elves... I'm the one that hears about the ones that got away, the ones that didn't, and the mishaps in between...
makes me a lil sad...
I remember the times of drivng up for a hockey game, or going to dinner, or birthday parties, or just to hang out...
I remember New Years Eve/Day... visits down here at 3am just because... breakfast... going to bad strip joints... rescuing me from the side of the road...
The girlfriends... the hoity toity... the bitch... the stuck up...
The lonely times where there weren't any...
He's a wonderful guy... has beautiful eyes... great sense of humour...
sometimes I wonder...
just where I fit in...
aquaintence, friend, good friend, close friend, confidant, bestfriend.... more... less...
it doesn't matter...
I've said that for the past few days now... it doesn't matter...
as long as I can call him my friend... to me he is very special... more than he knows...
"...well excuse me guess I mistaken you for somebody else, somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself, these foolish games are tearing me, you're tearing me apart and your thoughtless words are breaking my heart..."
what I want doesn't matter...
if only he knows that I wish him the best and miss him... and hopes that he'll keep coming home... and I'll always be here if he needs me...
yeah apparently I'm in one of the mushy drunken moods... but fuck you if you don't like it :P
I can't say any of this to him because he'd probably think I had gone nuts... we don't get to mushy...
aww fuck it I gotta go before it gets any worse...
I don't want you to go.
ok so on the way to the bar I was thinking "nah I won't drink anything so I can drive home" BAHAHA... if theres something I dislike more then buses it's driving down Younge St on a friday fucking night...
walked in and immediately asked for a drink after finding who we were looking for...
and proceeded to down 3 more very quickly after the intial one...
sometimes I wonder why I go up to toronto for the gatherings when he's leaving town after visiting... I don't really know anybody but him... I mean I know a couple of people to say "hi how's it going? cool..." but thats about it... *shrug* it's to see him... even if I don't get to talk to him very much during the night...
an hour and a half to get there.... an hour and a half to get home... two hours there...
most people would say I was nuts... most people who know me know I am...
"...I love you always forever, near and far, closer together, everywhere I will be with you... everything I will do for you... you've got the most stumbling brown eyes I've ever seen..."
why do I do this....
I'm just the little gnome, one of santas lil elves... I'm the one that hears about the ones that got away, the ones that didn't, and the mishaps in between...
makes me a lil sad...
I remember the times of drivng up for a hockey game, or going to dinner, or birthday parties, or just to hang out...
I remember New Years Eve/Day... visits down here at 3am just because... breakfast... going to bad strip joints... rescuing me from the side of the road...
The girlfriends... the hoity toity... the bitch... the stuck up...
The lonely times where there weren't any...
He's a wonderful guy... has beautiful eyes... great sense of humour...
sometimes I wonder...
just where I fit in...
aquaintence, friend, good friend, close friend, confidant, bestfriend.... more... less...
it doesn't matter...
I've said that for the past few days now... it doesn't matter...
as long as I can call him my friend... to me he is very special... more than he knows...
"...well excuse me guess I mistaken you for somebody else, somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself, these foolish games are tearing me, you're tearing me apart and your thoughtless words are breaking my heart..."
what I want doesn't matter...
if only he knows that I wish him the best and miss him... and hopes that he'll keep coming home... and I'll always be here if he needs me...
yeah apparently I'm in one of the mushy drunken moods... but fuck you if you don't like it :P
I can't say any of this to him because he'd probably think I had gone nuts... we don't get to mushy...
aww fuck it I gotta go before it gets any worse...
I don't want you to go.
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Now that wasn't a big surprise was it?
 | You scored as Wrath.
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Pizza Pockets For Breakfast??
well is it truly breakfast?
just because you eat a meal in the morning does that make it breakfast??
I got home from Chicago...and the next day I called in sick for work and ran away... got home about 6 hours ago...
my sleep has been fucked up... again...
laid in bed Tuesday night awake... wide awake... walked around the room... looked out the window... stared at the ceiling...
when sleep wouldn't come I started thinking...
that made it worse...
in Chicago I was crawling into bed somewhere around 4 am... and would sleep into the afternoon...
Come home (Monday)... go to bed just after 3 am...slept late
Tuesday called in sick, ran away... awake all night... couple lil cat naps...
Wednesday still away, couple cat naps... awake all night...
So alas here I find myself on Thursday morning back at home... eating disgusting pizza pockets at 7 am thinking... does this count as breakfast?
how odd is that?
I should be wondering as always whats the matter with me because of my stupid sleeping pattern... nope instead.. I'm wondering if pizza pockets are good breakfast food...
*sigh* I don't wanna go back into work today... they changed a bunch of shit while I was away... when they do that I'm always scared that I'm gonna fuck something up really badly...
I'm always scared of some of the stupidest shite... *sigh*
if I could rewind the last 24 hours I would... and do them again... maybe even do them differently... oh well... too late now...
my brain is fuzzy I need to get away from my blog.. . or else I'm just gonna keep posting idle chit chat shite...
and then I'll get strange email comments from Squasha about how I have issues :P
(psst hun I know I do and after 4 + years I would think you would know to) LMAO
just because you eat a meal in the morning does that make it breakfast??
I got home from Chicago...and the next day I called in sick for work and ran away... got home about 6 hours ago...
my sleep has been fucked up... again...
laid in bed Tuesday night awake... wide awake... walked around the room... looked out the window... stared at the ceiling...
when sleep wouldn't come I started thinking...
that made it worse...
in Chicago I was crawling into bed somewhere around 4 am... and would sleep into the afternoon...
Come home (Monday)... go to bed just after 3 am...slept late
Tuesday called in sick, ran away... awake all night... couple lil cat naps...
Wednesday still away, couple cat naps... awake all night...
So alas here I find myself on Thursday morning back at home... eating disgusting pizza pockets at 7 am thinking... does this count as breakfast?
how odd is that?
I should be wondering as always whats the matter with me because of my stupid sleeping pattern... nope instead.. I'm wondering if pizza pockets are good breakfast food...
*sigh* I don't wanna go back into work today... they changed a bunch of shit while I was away... when they do that I'm always scared that I'm gonna fuck something up really badly...
I'm always scared of some of the stupidest shite... *sigh*
if I could rewind the last 24 hours I would... and do them again... maybe even do them differently... oh well... too late now...
my brain is fuzzy I need to get away from my blog.. . or else I'm just gonna keep posting idle chit chat shite...
and then I'll get strange email comments from Squasha about how I have issues :P
(psst hun I know I do and after 4 + years I would think you would know to) LMAO
Christmas List
All I want for Christmas is a bottle of Burberry Touch For Men...
oh yeah and a car or should I say cars...
I have some expensive tastes...
ok so there is more to what I want for christmas and I'll make a realistic list later..
Anyway...
I'd love to tell ya about my latest adventure.. however its secret...Muahahaha... and you thought I told you everything... Riiiiiight.... :P
oh yeah and a car or should I say cars...
I have some expensive tastes...
ok so there is more to what I want for christmas and I'll make a realistic list later..
Anyway...
I'd love to tell ya about my latest adventure.. however its secret...Muahahaha... and you thought I told you everything... Riiiiiight.... :P
Monday, November 29, 2004
Chicago...The End...
so here's the rest...
On Saturday John and I went to the ICP concert... I C Motha Fuckin P!!!!
I had a blast...wasn't too sure whether or not John did...LOL but I did...
At first when we got there there was some guys on stage...(don't remember who) we went down on the floor where all the rowdy motha fuckers hang out...
As the different groups came on they got rowdier (if thats a word) I was getting squished by guys twice my size...so John and I moved to a different spot...wasn't impressed with whoever was on and John asked if I wanted to go see if we could find a better spot to see from... seeing as I'm a midget in stature the spots were limited... so we went out I bought a couple of shirts... YAY!! then we decided to go upstairs and see if the view from the balcony was better... it was... and it had seats... so couple of more groups go up... the last of which being Esham... the crowd was awesome...and a lil awe inspiring... FAM-A-LEE!!! as Esham finishes everyone knows that ICP is coming up next so they/we start chanting with them I C P!! I C P!! and the theatre went dark... oh yeah it was awesome... Shaggy and Violent J come out and the fun begins the stage setup was awesome and all hellish looking...of course..since it was the Hell's Pit Tour... lol... crowd goes nuts... anyway to make a long story short about the concert itself... ICP shook up and sprayed so many bottles of Faygo that at the end of the concert you could taste Root Beer in the air... it was fuckin cool. I loved it... mad props go out to everyone involved with getting me there... theres a huge list of people who helped out in that.. number 1 of course would be Jason if it weren't for the DrunkenMonkey convincing me over a year ago that "I needed to give them a chance and just listen" I wouldn't even be a Juggalette today ;) and yes I am one now :P even got the t-shirt to prove it... and of course Raistlan for being so nice and not having a problem with me going to see Anna and John and of course thanks to Anna and special thanks to John for the tickets... btw John gets the special thanks because he came with and was my own bodyguard for that night ;)
However the night did not end well...
John and I were standing at a bus stop waiting for a bus (I hate buses) when his phone rings... it's Anna's brother... Anna had been taken to the hospital... not good. she hadn't been feeling well for a few days but apparently when she got home after dropping us off at the concert she was walking up the steps into the house and her scar from last January's surgery bust open and she was bleeding all over the place... for more gruesome details about it all...ask her to post it to her blog...
So needless to say John and I hopped into a taxi went home where I stayed and he was off to the hospital... I wasn't even sure if I would see her for the rest of my trip.
But alas she came home that night pumped on morphine and stomach packed with gauze...lol
again for gruesome details ask Anna :P
Sunday...
enh was too tired to do anything... however it was John's birthday and the three of us went out for dinner to a Korean Buffet... first time I ever had Korean food wasn't too bad... and if it was dog I was eating I don't wanna know :P
went back to the house and ralph (Anna's friend) and Joey (Ralph's nephew) came over...we watched some movies...stayed up late and went to bed... >:)
Monday...
slept... then got up... then slept... then talked to Patrick on the phone a couple of times... took a nap with John... then packed... napped with John some more... then went to the airport...
NO I did not go to the museum and I don't regret it because I didn't want Anna to be uncomfortable or in pain... I'll just catch it next time ;)
and thus ends my adventure in Chicago...
On Saturday John and I went to the ICP concert... I C Motha Fuckin P!!!!
I had a blast...wasn't too sure whether or not John did...LOL but I did...
At first when we got there there was some guys on stage...(don't remember who) we went down on the floor where all the rowdy motha fuckers hang out...
As the different groups came on they got rowdier (if thats a word) I was getting squished by guys twice my size...so John and I moved to a different spot...wasn't impressed with whoever was on and John asked if I wanted to go see if we could find a better spot to see from... seeing as I'm a midget in stature the spots were limited... so we went out I bought a couple of shirts... YAY!! then we decided to go upstairs and see if the view from the balcony was better... it was... and it had seats... so couple of more groups go up... the last of which being Esham... the crowd was awesome...and a lil awe inspiring... FAM-A-LEE!!! as Esham finishes everyone knows that ICP is coming up next so they/we start chanting with them I C P!! I C P!! and the theatre went dark... oh yeah it was awesome... Shaggy and Violent J come out and the fun begins the stage setup was awesome and all hellish looking...of course..since it was the Hell's Pit Tour... lol... crowd goes nuts... anyway to make a long story short about the concert itself... ICP shook up and sprayed so many bottles of Faygo that at the end of the concert you could taste Root Beer in the air... it was fuckin cool. I loved it... mad props go out to everyone involved with getting me there... theres a huge list of people who helped out in that.. number 1 of course would be Jason if it weren't for the DrunkenMonkey convincing me over a year ago that "I needed to give them a chance and just listen" I wouldn't even be a Juggalette today ;) and yes I am one now :P even got the t-shirt to prove it... and of course Raistlan for being so nice and not having a problem with me going to see Anna and John and of course thanks to Anna and special thanks to John for the tickets... btw John gets the special thanks because he came with and was my own bodyguard for that night ;)
However the night did not end well...
John and I were standing at a bus stop waiting for a bus (I hate buses) when his phone rings... it's Anna's brother... Anna had been taken to the hospital... not good. she hadn't been feeling well for a few days but apparently when she got home after dropping us off at the concert she was walking up the steps into the house and her scar from last January's surgery bust open and she was bleeding all over the place... for more gruesome details about it all...ask her to post it to her blog...
So needless to say John and I hopped into a taxi went home where I stayed and he was off to the hospital... I wasn't even sure if I would see her for the rest of my trip.
But alas she came home that night pumped on morphine and stomach packed with gauze...lol
again for gruesome details ask Anna :P
Sunday...
enh was too tired to do anything... however it was John's birthday and the three of us went out for dinner to a Korean Buffet... first time I ever had Korean food wasn't too bad... and if it was dog I was eating I don't wanna know :P
went back to the house and ralph (Anna's friend) and Joey (Ralph's nephew) came over...we watched some movies...stayed up late and went to bed... >:)
Monday...
slept... then got up... then slept... then talked to Patrick on the phone a couple of times... took a nap with John... then packed... napped with John some more... then went to the airport...
NO I did not go to the museum and I don't regret it because I didn't want Anna to be uncomfortable or in pain... I'll just catch it next time ;)
and thus ends my adventure in Chicago...
Saturday, November 27, 2004
Chicago...Continued...
Went to Anna's mom and dad's for Thanksgiving dinner...
Dinner was delicious, company was entertaining...
we watched the latest Harry POtter after dinner
came home chilled out...
went downtown tonight...it looks really good all lit up...
was like Toronto but not really...
hard to explain
went and saw the skyline tonight...
saw the planetarium... snapped a pic for Raistlan...
I'll post pics when I get home...
haven't really taken a lot of pics tho..
celebrated Jonathan and Joshua's birthday tonight with cake and some singing... Sunday is John's birthday... dunno what we are doin for that
blah not much else to say...
oh yeah one other thing went to the occult shop I had found online... got myself a new book, new soap, and some resin for the house... made me happy :D
Tried white castle...enh..wasn't impressed but the hamburgers are definately cute ;)
Dinner was delicious, company was entertaining...
we watched the latest Harry POtter after dinner
came home chilled out...
went downtown tonight...it looks really good all lit up...
was like Toronto but not really...
hard to explain
went and saw the skyline tonight...
saw the planetarium... snapped a pic for Raistlan...
I'll post pics when I get home...
haven't really taken a lot of pics tho..
celebrated Jonathan and Joshua's birthday tonight with cake and some singing... Sunday is John's birthday... dunno what we are doin for that
blah not much else to say...
oh yeah one other thing went to the occult shop I had found online... got myself a new book, new soap, and some resin for the house... made me happy :D
Tried white castle...enh..wasn't impressed but the hamburgers are definately cute ;)
Friday, November 26, 2004
I Knew I Was Worth Something :P
I'm worth $1,514,142.14! How much are you worth?
hmm Canadian or American??
oh well doesn't matter...since Bush has been in office our dollar is going up :P
(tellya about thanksgiving dinner tomorrow)
hmm Canadian or American??
oh well doesn't matter...since Bush has been in office our dollar is going up :P
(tellya about thanksgiving dinner tomorrow)
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Chicago...Thus Far...
well here I am...
I'm here in Chicago sitting in Anna's bedroom just finished a delicious piece of lasagna...kinda wishing I could spark up a smoke while I sit here and type like I normally would at home... *sigh* damn non-smokers...
lol Anyway... thus far in the trip...
dropped my mom off at work Raistlan and I head to the border (Fort Erie/Buffalo) pull up to the agents lil box....and as we're pulling up I say to Raistlan..."this guy looks like a hard ass"...sure as shit
BG = BorderGuard
scene follows:
BG- Citizenship? *pointing at Raistlan*
Raistlan- Canadian
*BG points at me*
Rae- Canadian..
BG to Raist- where ya going?
Raist- taking her to the airport (motions towards me)
BG looks to me- and where you going?
Rae- I'm going to visit a friend in Chicago for thanksgiving
*BG takes our licenses backs away from the truck, looks at the truck, looks at my license and looks at me*
BG- weren't you just there a couple of weeks ago?
Rae- pardon?
BG- didn't you just take a trip to Chicago a couple of weeks ago?
Rae- Uh...No...
BG- you sure about that?
Rae- Yes!
*BG backs to the back of the truck and looks at license plate, walks inot his lil booth, looking at probably some imaginary screen*
*I turn to Raist and say "what the hell??" last long trip my sister took in the truck was when she went to Detroit but that was in July" BG steps out of booth*
BG- and in the luggage? Just clothes and stuff?
Rae- Yep just my clothes
*BG turns to Raist*- and you're coming straight back after you drop her off?
Raist- Yes.
BG- Go Ahead...
ok so apparently this dude was trying to use some sort of scare tactic or he really thought I was someone he let over the border a couple weeks ago...
Second odd occurence was we board the plane in buffalo...everyone is seated...
*bing bing* This is the captian speaking, as most of you are aware the planes that we fly are mainly computerized and just like your computer at home we sometimes geterror messages. We are experiencing one such error message at this time. we need to shut down and reboot the plane...(in my head I"m freaking out...when my computer gets an error message its because its a piece of crap...what does that say about this plane???) just so you know all the lights and power will go off in the cabin.
10 seconds later...we're all in the dark... (fucking wonderful he's cold booting the plane) I'm sitting in my seat wondering if he got the blue screen of death...I start to giggle... the guy next to me didn't think it was funny...
Lights come back on we taxi down the runway and we're off...
I love the feeling of flying...if I could fly everyday I would... the take offs the landings hell even the turbulence... I love it all...
I was bummed I didn't get to see the sunrise like I wanted to because it was over cast... damn chicago weather... talking about which... it started snowing at about 3pm and hasn't let up :( and guess who forgot their boots... uh huh yep go ahead point yer fingers at me...
oh well... I got to meet Patrick today...yay he's so great...he's a really nice guy... I was so tired... I was laying down for a nap he brougt me a blanket... so we napped together...
Anna made a kick ass lasagna dinner...mmmmm yeah Rae's gonna eat real good this weekend LOL
John set up the laptop so I could go online with it...not that I have yet...I've taken over Anna's computer upstairs... I'm so mean... I'll give it back ;)
talking to Raistlan earlier he's tellin me to sneak one of John's laptops into my luggage on the way home ...LOL
So right now Anna's downstairs passed out on the couch... poor woman has been running all day... Johns' quaking...kids are sleeping...and me... well I think I'm going to go rummage in the fridge for a snack ;)
oh btw thanks again Shana for letting your camera come on vacation with me :D It's having a great time LOL
I'm here in Chicago sitting in Anna's bedroom just finished a delicious piece of lasagna...kinda wishing I could spark up a smoke while I sit here and type like I normally would at home... *sigh* damn non-smokers...
lol Anyway... thus far in the trip...
dropped my mom off at work Raistlan and I head to the border (Fort Erie/Buffalo) pull up to the agents lil box....and as we're pulling up I say to Raistlan..."this guy looks like a hard ass"...sure as shit
BG = BorderGuard
scene follows:
BG- Citizenship? *pointing at Raistlan*
Raistlan- Canadian
*BG points at me*
Rae- Canadian..
BG to Raist- where ya going?
Raist- taking her to the airport (motions towards me)
BG looks to me- and where you going?
Rae- I'm going to visit a friend in Chicago for thanksgiving
*BG takes our licenses backs away from the truck, looks at the truck, looks at my license and looks at me*
BG- weren't you just there a couple of weeks ago?
Rae- pardon?
BG- didn't you just take a trip to Chicago a couple of weeks ago?
Rae- Uh...No...
BG- you sure about that?
Rae- Yes!
*BG backs to the back of the truck and looks at license plate, walks inot his lil booth, looking at probably some imaginary screen*
*I turn to Raist and say "what the hell??" last long trip my sister took in the truck was when she went to Detroit but that was in July" BG steps out of booth*
BG- and in the luggage? Just clothes and stuff?
Rae- Yep just my clothes
*BG turns to Raist*- and you're coming straight back after you drop her off?
Raist- Yes.
BG- Go Ahead...
ok so apparently this dude was trying to use some sort of scare tactic or he really thought I was someone he let over the border a couple weeks ago...
Second odd occurence was we board the plane in buffalo...everyone is seated...
*bing bing* This is the captian speaking, as most of you are aware the planes that we fly are mainly computerized and just like your computer at home we sometimes geterror messages. We are experiencing one such error message at this time. we need to shut down and reboot the plane...(in my head I"m freaking out...when my computer gets an error message its because its a piece of crap...what does that say about this plane???) just so you know all the lights and power will go off in the cabin.
10 seconds later...we're all in the dark... (fucking wonderful he's cold booting the plane) I'm sitting in my seat wondering if he got the blue screen of death...I start to giggle... the guy next to me didn't think it was funny...
Lights come back on we taxi down the runway and we're off...
I love the feeling of flying...if I could fly everyday I would... the take offs the landings hell even the turbulence... I love it all...
I was bummed I didn't get to see the sunrise like I wanted to because it was over cast... damn chicago weather... talking about which... it started snowing at about 3pm and hasn't let up :( and guess who forgot their boots... uh huh yep go ahead point yer fingers at me...
oh well... I got to meet Patrick today...yay he's so great...he's a really nice guy... I was so tired... I was laying down for a nap he brougt me a blanket... so we napped together...
Anna made a kick ass lasagna dinner...mmmmm yeah Rae's gonna eat real good this weekend LOL
John set up the laptop so I could go online with it...not that I have yet...I've taken over Anna's computer upstairs... I'm so mean... I'll give it back ;)
talking to Raistlan earlier he's tellin me to sneak one of John's laptops into my luggage on the way home ...LOL
So right now Anna's downstairs passed out on the couch... poor woman has been running all day... Johns' quaking...kids are sleeping...and me... well I think I'm going to go rummage in the fridge for a snack ;)
oh btw thanks again Shana for letting your camera come on vacation with me :D It's having a great time LOL
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
I Can't Stand And Walk, But I Stand Accused.....
ok so I'm sorry I haven't posted anything real personal like in the last few days or so...
Been on a bit of a rollercoaster... (oh *shudder* perish the thought)
yeah yeah yeah I know...
Anyway... what have I been doing...
well I've been working some over time so I could get some money together for going to Chicago, I've been trying to figure out whats going on at work with my stupid campaign and whether or not I'm still going to have a place in Hell when I come back from Chicago, I'm trying to figure out a day that I can go spend the day with my Squasha when he gets here, and I've been working thru some emotion that decided to poke its ugly head back up again like mom's meatloaf three days later...
I really need to pack tonight...yes I haven't packed yet...LOL Moonie and Shan's heads are probably spinning out of control now...LOL
Yes I leave later tonight at 3am and I have not packed yet ;)
But anyway incase I don't actually post anything while I'm gone...
Happy Thanksgiving to all my American buds ;)
And to the Canadians...um...uh...well... Happy Being A Canadian!!!
To anyone else who's not covered in those two countries... WOW thanks for readin my blog ;)
hmmm...
thats about all the thoughts I have right now...
Been on a bit of a rollercoaster... (oh *shudder* perish the thought)
yeah yeah yeah I know...
Anyway... what have I been doing...
well I've been working some over time so I could get some money together for going to Chicago, I've been trying to figure out whats going on at work with my stupid campaign and whether or not I'm still going to have a place in Hell when I come back from Chicago, I'm trying to figure out a day that I can go spend the day with my Squasha when he gets here, and I've been working thru some emotion that decided to poke its ugly head back up again like mom's meatloaf three days later...
I really need to pack tonight...yes I haven't packed yet...LOL Moonie and Shan's heads are probably spinning out of control now...LOL
Yes I leave later tonight at 3am and I have not packed yet ;)
But anyway incase I don't actually post anything while I'm gone...
Happy Thanksgiving to all my American buds ;)
And to the Canadians...um...uh...well... Happy Being A Canadian!!!
To anyone else who's not covered in those two countries... WOW thanks for readin my blog ;)
hmmm...
thats about all the thoughts I have right now...
Friday, November 19, 2004
So do I change my blog name??
ok I'm thinking I need to change the name of my blog...
I google'd the name RAE to see if I could find my blog in there...
this is what I find RAE AT HOME to me this is kind of disturbing :(
I google'd the name RAE to see if I could find my blog in there...
this is what I find RAE AT HOME to me this is kind of disturbing :(
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Night Has Fallen, Laying Awake....
So I was watching the movie Insomnia the other night (when I couldn't sleep) and after watching the DVD I like watching all the lil bonuns features and one of them was about Sleep Debt and I thought hmm thats odd... so watched it and realized hey is that why everyone is always so tired??
So I looked it up and did some reading on it... I'm betting EVERYBODY has sleep debt nowadays...
I'm sick of people telling me that I have a Sleeping Disorder so I figured hey I'll go look that up too see if its just sleep debt or if I have a sleeping disorder.
So then I looked at the page that said Sleep Robbers and I expected to see "KIDS" in big letters, it seems the last two days that Keenan has not been here my sleep has been greatly improved, because I can lay down and take a nap without convincing him that he should lay down too.
So I've been having fun surfing around on the sleep pages...learning about all kinds of different sleep related things...
Unfortunately, it made me kinda sleepy ;) Here Go Educate Yourself! LOL
So I looked it up and did some reading on it... I'm betting EVERYBODY has sleep debt nowadays...
I'm sick of people telling me that I have a Sleeping Disorder so I figured hey I'll go look that up too see if its just sleep debt or if I have a sleeping disorder.
So then I looked at the page that said Sleep Robbers and I expected to see "KIDS" in big letters, it seems the last two days that Keenan has not been here my sleep has been greatly improved, because I can lay down and take a nap without convincing him that he should lay down too.
So I've been having fun surfing around on the sleep pages...learning about all kinds of different sleep related things...
Unfortunately, it made me kinda sleepy ;) Here Go Educate Yourself! LOL
Are You Narcissistic?
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | High |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Moderate |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Moderate |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | Low |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Moderate |
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
I'm Trying to Get Back to Burlington to a Square in the Centre of Town...
So I've decided that I need to find someone who will do all my shaving for me...
I'm really quite sick of shaving...I think I'm going to start breaking it down throughout the week...so I'm not trying to get all my shaving done in one day...could be as follows;
Monday - Pits
Tuesday - Yoni
Wednesday - Right Leg
Thursday - Left Leg
Friday - Pits
Saturday - Right Leg
Sunday - Left Leg
Unless I'm going somewhere more exciting then work... then maybe I'll do all of them when I get showered to get ready to go out...you know like on this Saturday when I go to the Christmas Party for work (don't ask why its in the middle of Nov. Long Story) Maybe I'll do the whole package...
Blah why is it we females seem to strive to be smooth?? Maybe I'll just give up shaving for the winter...shave on Saturday before the party then go on strike from shaving for the rest of the winter...hmm there's a thought..
I'm really quite sick of shaving...I think I'm going to start breaking it down throughout the week...so I'm not trying to get all my shaving done in one day...could be as follows;
Monday - Pits
Tuesday - Yoni
Wednesday - Right Leg
Thursday - Left Leg
Friday - Pits
Saturday - Right Leg
Sunday - Left Leg
Unless I'm going somewhere more exciting then work... then maybe I'll do all of them when I get showered to get ready to go out...you know like on this Saturday when I go to the Christmas Party for work (don't ask why its in the middle of Nov. Long Story) Maybe I'll do the whole package...
Blah why is it we females seem to strive to be smooth?? Maybe I'll just give up shaving for the winter...shave on Saturday before the party then go on strike from shaving for the rest of the winter...hmm there's a thought..
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Busted Flat In Baton Rouge...
You are 47% Virgo
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You are 60% Libra
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Hmm yet you don't think I'm a cusp baby eh? well put that in your pipe and take a long hard drag on it and choke to fucking death. LMAO
mhmm that sounds about right to me >:)
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well the description seems right however I'm not a fan of yellow /:)
I always said a man can't swing anything at ya if he's laughing too hard ;)
| It's Not Sex. It's ... : Rockin the Casbah |
Great now I have that damn song in my head...
| Your Hippie Chick Name is: Sunflower |
Riiiight....
| Your Star Wars Masturbation Method Is: Manually Targeting the Rebel Base |
Have I mentioned before that I dislike Star Wars...??
Hmmm I need Raistlan to do that one...because at least if I'm that gay and he's that gay then we really are great for each other...LMFAO
Well that was fun :D Thanks for coming out...
