Weigh In #2

dun dundun dun...measurement day...

As I said in my last post...now that The Man is home it was measurement day today...it's a few days late but that's ok... incase anyone is caring and keeping real tabs on me...Here's Last Months Measurements

ok so without further adieu...(added a couple more and took out the ones that won't change)

Ankles - Right 9 in - Left 9.75 in
Calves - Right 16.75 in (+ 1 in)  - Left 16.5 in (-0.5in)
Thighs - Right 26 in (+1 in) - Left 25 in (-0.5 in)
Forearms - Right 10 in (-0.5 in) - Left 10.75 (+0.25 in)
Biceps - Right 12.25 in (-0.75 in)  - Left 13 in (-0.75 in)

Hips - 44.5 in (-1.75 in)
'Belly' - 42.75 in (-1.75 in)
Waist - 37.25 in (-0.25 in)
Underbust - 36 in
Overbust - 44.5 in (-1.5 in)
Neck - 15.5 in (+0.5 in)

Weight 197.12 lbs (-2.88lbs)
BMI 36.35 (when I originally started it was up at 40ish...last year)

my weight from last months should actually say 200+lbs...
just as I feel ripped because of the fact that I'm bloated today due to girly issues...my waist on Friday was 36in...gah!

alright enough whining...more exercising...

blargh...

so much to tell so little time..so not feeling like typing...

the Man came home on Friday...surprised the Boychild who was extremely nervous about his karate on Saturday...he was nervous because it was only his 2nd tournament...he won 3rd in kumite at his first tourny and he won 2nd in his kumite in this past one...he was hoping to win with his kata but he made one wrong step which turned the whole second half of his kata completely around...none of the spectators would have noticed but those who know the kata noticed...especially the judges...he knew he made the mistake as soon as he did it..still so so so so proud of him for attempting a harder kata...

Saturday evening I went to a music trivia night with my sister...her team fell through so it was the two of us going around to find out if there was anyone else who needed team members...found a woman whose team fell through as well...so there was 5 of us on the team...all the other teams had 8 or more people... so I'm really proud of our team that we ended up in third...

*fist pump to useless music trivia*

today was the first league practice day...lots of us rolling around the arena, laughing and having a good time while working our butts off...was stopped by one of the girls who I haven't seen in a few weeks because she was in the other group...she told me that I was looking good...apparently she had been checkin out my butt and said it was looking smaller...lol

I don't see it...I was telling Big Daddy tonight that I just don't see the weight loss when I'm looking at pictures of myself...Burton said that she has a pic of me at her wedding that she's seen and that she can tell a big difference between that pic and now...

since The Man is home gonna do measurements tomorrow... bit nervous...

bah I dunno what else to type tonight...I'm a bit on the tired side...so think I'm going to head to bed...

Whining Begone!

Friday night I came home from derby training and as I was laying in bed I started having a hard time breathing...it got to the point where I asked the Man to go grab me my inhaler...it worked enough so that I could fall asleep...

Last night at derby training and hanging with Hoho, I had been coughing a bit as if I couldn't quite get enough air... got home and had a really hard time trying to get to sleep...and ended up waking up the Man a couple of times (felt bad because he had to be at the bus station real early this morning)

So today was spent laying around because walking to the store this evening winded me... I just don't know what's going on with my chest...just sort of feels like someone is sitting on my chest...

I'm becoming a big whiner on Saturday nights and I'm not liking it... anyone that's anyone that reads my blog knows that up until 2 months ago I was a huge lazy ass...I think signing up for the derby training that's two nights in a row was a bit of a mistake...Friday nights I feel good and sturdy on my skates...Saturday I get there and I can feel the fatigue in my legs from the night before...which sucks...I got shin splints again on Saturday whereas I didn't get any at all on Friday...I'm just worried that I'm either going to fall behind in training or possibly hurt myself on a Saturday...

I sent an email off to one of the trainers today and hopefully we can talk about it and work out something...I may need to switch to the other training group, but as far as I know they're ahead of us in training, and also Burton is in the training group I'm in and she helps make the drills fun.

Told the Man that this was a sucky time for him to go away for a couple of weeks...especially with my suddenly not feeling 100%

but meh...enough of my whining... ;)

#FutureBadass

And here we go...my inspiration...my muse...my encouragement...

Every time I think to myself...meh I'm not gonna do my work out today... or omg my legs hurt from skating last night.... gonna take a good long look at this picture and remember that the first time I saw it I said...

I wanna be like her when I become a real derby girl... lol

(I do have a realistic body image and know I'll never look like this...but as I said...good reminder of what I'm working towards)

I Notice...

Sometimes I feel like I'm constantly running to catch up...

I was reminded in a conversation last night with a friend of mine why it was that I don't really trust people who tell me that they love me and that they are my friend...

It generally gets to a point where those who are my friends go off and find people who they'd rather hang out with... and I start to get left by the wayside...I get it...

season...reason...lifetime...

sometimes the reason comes and goes and there's nothing I can do to hang onto them...they just slowly fade away...

some fade more slowly some not so much...

what's worse is knowing that they're fading away and watching them have fun with others...or still seeing them but feel them pull away from me with each time we get together...

I used to think I was being paranoid...but when it's happened that way so many times I can't help but see the signs now...

what's worse is when the other persons involved don't even realize that it's happening...all of a sudden one day they'll say 'oh hey we haven't hung out in a long time' ... or ... 'we should totally get together because we haven't in a long time'

they've been so busy that they don't notice...but what they don't know is that I noticed...I don't have many people in my life and when they start fading away... I notice.


I don't blame them...I'm not a very exciting person.

Patience...It's a Virtue, right?

Went off to see the doctor again today...

I went by myself today and had yet another fantastic visit with him...

we talked about he changes that have been happening since my last visit...and afterward I asked him about the shin splints that I've been getting when I'm at roller derby...which he thinks is awesome btw... out of the four causes of shin splints I am likely to have two...one moreso then the other...

the backs of my legs (hamstrings) are too tight...so I need to work those out...with...you guessed it...more stretches...did it a few times in his office and sure as shit stretched 'em out... so... before derby and after, and when I get up and before I go to bed... all when I'm supposed to do my stretches...

so on the TMI front... have to keep making notes of all  the changes in my 'menstrual cycle' ... he's never seen anyone have changes as quick as I have and is interested to see how this goes... (see it wasn't that gross...coulda gone way into details :P)


The Boychild had his birthday this past weekend...he turned 11 on Saturday...yikes...I'm really starting to feel old I swear...we went out go-karting and mini putting before heading back to my Mum's to have dinner...dried out pork loin with dried out chicken...and some veggies...

I'd have to say that my Mum seems really supportive about the whole diet change sometimes and then so not very supportive...while at her house she asked me if I made sure to get enough of the foods I could eat before everyone else...but then while I was out grocery shopping with her today she was suggesting some things that were on sale...and when my answer was 'I can't eat that anymore' she would shake her head and mumble something about how she wasn't sure what my doctor was talking about... o.O srsly?

I myself have noticed the difference in my weight loss and how I feel since changing my diet...and yet she knows more about what will help me then my doctor does...
Her whole theory has always been... 'you need to lose wait'... yeah well...at least the doctor said 'you need to lose weight...and here's how you need to do it...'
I think I'll stick with my doctors advice instead. I don't think she completely understands what exactly is going on with Sugar Toxicity...

Patience.

Patience is what I need...in dealing with my mother, dealing with my lack of ability with roller derby, dealing with my slow weight loss...dealing with everything... patience...

Even Oranges?!?

This whole change of my diet has been one experiment after another...so I'll likely bore you with posts about some of them...like...um...now...

I just finished my dinner...I made baked pork loin with a creamy masala sauce, baked asparagus, steamed carrots, sliced tomatoes and a bit of cheese... it was very yummy... though I have to admit that I didn't feel very full at all...and was left with a craving for something sweet...so...

according to the doctor I could still have fruit but to quarter larger pieces of fruit... so we bought some oranges for the Boychild the other day...I cut it in half and sliced up half of it for me and the other half for the Boychild...

approximately 15 minutes after finishing the orange slices I got a headache...and a strange pressure behind my nose/eyes...

I know that it's not just from fruit...because I've been able to snack  on blackberries, strawberries, mangoes and pineapple in small quantities...so apparently oranges are a no go...

the other night I was so sick of water that while at the hotel I ended up getting a mango smoothie...oy that was a mistake...

I got about 1/3 of a way through it and started to feel drunk...there's no way else to describe it...feeling light headed and woozy and like I just wanted to lay down...

Gave the rest of it to the Manchild...

Couple of weeks ago had a huge sweet craving and ended up buying a chocolate bar from the Boychild...huge mistake that day as well...huge headache...sick to my stomach...

so yeah...don't think I'll be trying that again either... I'm just surprised that the few slices of an orange is giving me the same reaction that the chocolate bar did...

so from now on I must remember that no matter how much I crave sweet/sugar

Sugar = headache, irritability, light headedness, stomach ache, low energy....

 Colour me unhappy.

Purple and Gold...

This weekend that just past was an extremely interesting weekend fo shizzle...

I know I've blogged about the LIONS convention before in the past...and here I am...gonna do it again...

I didn't get right drunk on the Friday night like I normally would have and like most of the LIONS do...I was drinking a sugar free sparkling water as I strolled around the hospitality suites and munched on veggies and meat, chicken wings and pulled pork...wasn't exactly the best dinner..but meh...at least I stayed away from the finger sandwiches, pizza and crackers...I was a really good girl when it came to eating only what I should be eating...

Friday I checked into the hotel and went down to registration...anyone who really knows me...knows that I'm non longer a Lion and haven't been for nearly two and a half years...so when people came  up to me and asked what I was going to be selling (they had my name on a table to reserve it for me) I told them I was selling my vest and pins (aka Lions stuff), they seemed shocked and asked why...I laughed at their shocked expressions and told them because I hadn't been a lion for nearly two years and that I thought it was time to get rid of my stuff...but instead of just taking a loss on it I decided to sell it instead...

Well as soon as that got around I had 3 different clubs asking me to come out for dinner, or out to a meeting...one of which is in Niagara Falls...who for the last 90 years they've refused to go co-ed..apparently since they're celebrating their 90th anniversary they've decided to finally go with the times and take women into the club  now...their current president (whom I used to work with at the call centre - oh and he could barely ever remember my name) invited me out 3 times over the weekend and when he left on Sunday had given me another hug, kissed me on the head and said 'I'm serious you give me a call when you want to come out for dinner' ... Another was the Thorold club...see when I first joined LIONS I was sponsored and brought into a Thorold club...then because of politics and bullshit it closed down after 60 some odd years and within two years the district founded another club there and it's been up and running for nearly two years...and one of my favourite people is a member there and she was trying to get me to come out to their meeting...she thought I still lived in Thorold...
What I thought was funny was the fact that the club that I had left...not one of their members stopped to have a conversation with me...one of them stopped to tell me that she thought I was doing good by the Manchild being in the LEOS and that she was glad I was still affiliated that way...but didn't really seem to care what I've been up to...lol

Got a few nice compliments from a few friends...standing at the registration table waiting for my name badge for the weekend, my Lion Crush gave me a hug and told me that I was looking good and that I looked as though I had lost quite a bit of weight...and then got a sly smirk on his face and said 'So...you're a roller derby girl now eh?'....lol we hung out with him and his wife a bit throughout the course of Friday night like we normally do...instead of him getting drunk off his face, his wife did this year... Saturday morning is always fun...

You can tell those who partied just a little too hardy...and for once..I wasn't one of them...The three of us went out for breakfast and then we split ways...Sis and Manchild went to all the business meetings and I set up my table, where throughout the day I answered the question of why I was selling my stuff over and over again...

I didn't do too bad for myself with my table but didn't really do great either...

Saturday night the Manchild and I came home for some supper with The Man and The Boychild...then we went back to the hotel to hang out before going to bed...(we had another early morning brekkie in the morning at the hotel so decided it best to just stay) ...while I was waiting for Sis to get out from the Governor's dinner I hear a 'psst' come from behind me...turn about and there's my dad...

Colour me a little surprised...he works next door to the hotel, came out for his smoke break and saw me walking around just outside the ballroom...so went outside had a smoke with him and were talking about LIONS (he used to be one too) and another lion walked out to have a smoke and the three of us were talking about some changes going on and so forth...

after dad went back to work I stayed outside talking to the other lion (he is from the Niagara Falls club that the other guy was inviting me to) it was nice...so yeah after the dinner we hung out a bit with the International Director and the Governor...and then it seemed like everyone had gone to bed...so we followed suit...

Sunday morning is when I got to be my proud Mama self...lol
They have a Youth Breakfast on the Sunday morning for the last few years...aand it's just showing the lions, lioness and guests all the youth programs that the district has and has been working on...one of which is establishing Leos clubs...(a club for kids ages 12 to 18) and the Manchild is in a LEO club by his dads house...and the Leos were rockstars all weekend...the Lions and Lioness are happy to see the kids getting involved as well...so they gush all over the kids and ask them all sorts of questions and say how proud they are of them for doing a good ob and volunteering to help out the community...so needless to say the Manchild was loving the attention and was on his best behaviour...

They have a memorial service for all the Lions and Lioness in the district who have passed on over the last year since the last convention...and I nearly cried as I found out that one of my favs passed away and I wasn't told...why would I be really I'm no longer a Lion ... but it still made me really sad...he was an awesome man...

So I've decided that we're going to host a youth exchange student this year....I picked up a girl from Hungary's information while we were at  the breakfast...the Manchild wanted me to take the girl from Brazil's info...just because he seemed to want it so bad I said no...lol

He said he wants to go to Brazil when he goes on his youth exchange...I told him I'd prefer he went to Switzerland...lol when he asked why I responded with 'because at least I know someone who lives there so that if anything happened to you...'  - he doesn't understand just how nerve racking it is to be a parent...let alone the thought of your child crossing an ocean without you....

When at the conventions I always get that warm fuzzy feeling about Lionism...which makes ya smile and think these people are great and what they do for their communities is fantastic...which makes me want to be a Lion again...but then I remember all the meetings where there's arguments and talking behind other people's backs, the after meetings (which are those coffee's that people go out for and talk about the meeting and decide what they'll do at the next meeting...) and just some negative shit....my ideas being unsupported or outright ignored...

there's one club I'd love to join but they're on the other side of the district from me...*shrugs*

And a lot of the clubs need to get into this century...like if someone can't make the meetings for some reason, such as needing to stay home with a sick child, maybe being able to use the wide number of things available to us for tele-conferencing... hell there's lions out there who don't know what Facebook is, doesn't have email...there so much that we could utilize but they're so stuck in the stone age that they just won't get with this century...I'd love to start a club for people more my age...which was one of things I was trying to do before...a branch club of sorts and my other club was just really against it...

but alas...

the long and short of it is... I don't have the money for dues, dinners, raffles... I wouldn't mind volunteering my time for the community...but I can't afford the monetary side of it...