I've Been Everywhere Man, Across The Desert Land...

bold the states/provinces you've been to, underline the states/provinces you've lived in and italicize the state/province you're in now... (I put in bold/italics where I have lived before)

Alabama / Alaska / Arizona / Arkansas / California / Colorado / Connecticut / Delaware / Florida / Georgia / Hawaii / Idaho / Illinois / Indiana / Iowa / Kansas / Kentucky / Louisiana / Maine / Maryland / Massachusetts / Michigan / Minnesota / Mississippi / Missouri / Montana / Nebraska / Nevada / New Hampshire / New Jersey / New Mexico / New York / North Carolina / North Dakota / Ohio / Oklahoma / Oregon / Pennsylvania / Rhode Island / South Carolina / South Dakota / Tennessee / Texas / Utah / Vermont / Virginia / Washington / West Virginia / Wisconsin / Wyoming / Washington D.C /British Columbia / Saskatchewan / Alberta / Manitoba / Ontario / Quebec / New Brunswick / Nova Scotia / Prince Edward Island / Newfoundland / Yukon / Northwest Territories / Nunevit

Well this is where I've been.. so when I was told I get around.. I guess they weren't wrong :P
Do you get around? let's see how much you get around... post this on your blog/journal

I'll Be Waving Hand Watching You Drown, Watching You Scream Quiet Or Loud...

wow look who it is...
It's...

ME!!!!

yeah yeah I know... it's tough on all you addicts when I don't post for a couple of days... I'm glad that my couple of posts with the links sedated you for a couple of days... you know that last one I did... it took the better part of the day I had before work to actually put those together.... lol glad you enjoyed them....

ok so the update...

Valentines day.... (yeah yeah I know I'm a lil late...)
Raistlan and I went to the Mandrin for dinner on the 12th... came home and watched a movie and went to sleep.... yeeeeeeeeeeah riiiiight ba ha ha... ok so yeah we came home... you can figure out on your own what we did after that... Monday the 14th I got 2 dozen beautiful deep red roses delivered to me at work....had to get a ride home...lol it was one huge fucking bouquet... oh yeah and Magilla now has a friend to play with... I also got another big stuffed Monkey/gorilla/ape.... Keenan has named this one Grilla... as I said to my mother... yeah I know I'm a spoiled brat... not my fault I was raised that way :P
at least I was if you ask my older sister ;) what did you do for Valentines day??

Computer Related Crap
now here's something to figure out... the one main program that seemed to kill my computer the fastest is the one that is currently keeping it alive....
it will not stay on by itself if left on for an hour or sometimes less... if I get up and walk away from the computer I get the blue screen of death (different version of it anyway) in apprx 15 minutes... its fucked up... which keeps me from going online much... never know when its gonna die when I'm in the middle of something... oh yeah and the prgram that kills it the fastest now is Publisher... *shakes head*

Kids
Gambit just turned 8 this past Monday (21st) ... we took him to go see the movie The Son of the Mask... that was funny...lol
Gambit is getting his fathers attitude more and more... it's taking longer and longer each weekend to get him to lose the attitude... it gets quite frustrating... I know I know... it gets worse the older they get...
Keenan is doing well... hes extrtemely excited and can't wait until Friday to tell his brother that he beat the Shrek 2 game before him... lol
Raistlan has been trying to convince me that we should have another... *raise eyebrow*
all I gotta say is.... "Then they would out number us!!"

Work
hmmm what to say about work that everyone out there would understand... oh here's something... just because people can buy, turn on and surf the internet does not mean they are intelligent.... I'm telling ya people I'm dealing with the cream of the crop at work... note that lil puddle of sarcasm under that statement... and if it's not stupid people I'm dealing with its those people who believe they know everything... or just really strange calls...
and then on the rare occasion... the person who knows exactly what you are saying... those are sometimes a god sent... other times its hell... like last night... you know when you have to sugercoat and try to tell them they are shit out of luck they'll have to wait... and they turn around and say.."so what you're saying is there's nothing you can do for me so I should get off your phone and call back tomorrow?" how the hell do you answer that....??? here's how I did... "yeah pretty much" LMAO

Home
Getting closer to being able to move out of the lil shithole... we were actually able to put some money into the bank !! oh dear God... I think the world is coming to an end... usually if I'm not spending it Raistlan is... and don't think for one second I spend more than him... :P
Anyway... so hopefully we'll be able to put some more away soon... I would like to get out of this apartment in the spring... and still be able to afford to go away on vacation for a week in July....

Vacation
Any ideas where I should go for my vacation?? (sorry Englands out...I can't save up $2200 between spring and summer) :P
But then I got a good tip that the best times to travel to england is between October and April... riiiight like I didn't realize the best time to travel is in the off seaon... dumbass....

I'm proud to say that I am the first one in the house to beat the entire Shrek 2 game :D
Keenan was second...
of course we both got some help from Raistlan but still :P
and snicker all you want at the fact that its a kids game... that game is freaking frustrating in some spots :P

ok I'm off now.. gotta get ready for work....

I Read The News Today... Oh Boy...

I was surfing along the web while talking to "You" today.... found some interesting things....

there's always my favourite... T-Shirt hell.... got my monthly up date from them in my email... checked out some of the new shirts.... found one that I need... lol
found a t-shirt I'd get for a friend of mine... lol not telling who...

after laughing at the t-shirts I found... which I did not bombard you with all of them... just two.. aren't you lucky.... I went and was reading the funnies... which I do more then I ever read the actual news...

so after reading the funnies and laughing at t-shirt hell shirts... I brought myself to read the news... prepared myself to get angry... get sad... be in awe... and maybe even disgusted....
Anger was the first emotion that happened.....shit like THIS should not be happening

Disgust was the next one....not necessarily because Jackson is a pedophile... but because of the three ring circus that his trial has turned into... of course it would be worse if it was like the OJ trial where they let the cameras into the court room...

I hope this guy was trying to be funny... cause if he's not then... disgust, anger and disbelief are all rolled together on this one....

I was in awe of this pic... that lil boy musta been way warm ;)

some days ya just have to stick your tongue out at the world

why is it you always see a homeless person with a dog... the younger the beggar the younger the dog as well??

had to put this one in here for Ladybird :D

wow almost feels like home.... this link was shared with me when I informed a friend of mine that I was bored...

Now this is just pretty to look at...

I know a few men who wish they were this monkey... :P

I knew balloons were useful for something....

Things that make you go WTF??

I would so do this if I could get away with it... LMAO

I saw this one and immediately thought of you Anna ;)

I don't think that the jackhammers are what she should be worrying about... dumbass...

and they say smoking pot doesn't affect your decision making process...wtf was she thinking??

people who have way too much money.... *sigh* I know a few people at work who would live in this house....

Any ass men out there think you could handle hers?

things that make you wonder how the hell that happened....

wouldn't you learn the first time??

Hey I swear I've seen that crack at work.... ok maybe not that exact one... but I've seen a few...

Where's the Middle East again??

Actually you can tell by its nose that its a rabbit...

couple good porno clips for all of those that are still reading this blog entry....

Few women I know who would like to be this monkey....

ok I've just learned that I have to catch the bus to work today so I must go and actually get dressed now....

Enjoy the links

maybe later I'll post some actual stuff about me...lol

Links

the time has come again for me to share the weird links that have been shared with me...

Furniture?

Bread?

Lego?

Bears?

More Bears?

Not The Kind Of Bears I Was Thinking Of!!!

Cute!

Bunnies Too??

Funny

Boobs

Computers

Revenge

Ducks

Cat

The Queen

Military

I'm Gonna Keep On Dancing....

having scattered thoughts... and have a fair bit to post so I'll most likely try to group thoughts of the same type of topic on each journal...so yeah today's journaling/blogging will be split up between the different blogs and journals...have fun if you're going to follow along...

Work post

I'm getting tired of working at SYUTAC (Screw You Up The Ass Com) ... it seems like no matter how well you think you are doing... or how well a call goes... they can find something wrong with it...

They have a system at work set up: we/I take the calls-> QA listen to said calls -> send email to our/my supervisor -> we/I get taken off the phone and get "coached" on everything we did wrong on the call -> we have to sign off on it

QA - has to make a quota per day... of a certain number of calls they have to listen to
We/I - have a certain amount of time that they want us on a call... they want us to fix/help a customer in 660 seconds (11 minutes)
Supervisors- don't do much of anything...except make you wait when you need to transfer a call (making call times longer) and they are the ones that do the "coaching" sessions with us/me...
Managers - bug the supervisors...asking them stuff like...why are the call times so high, why are the customer quality levels so low...so again another person who does not much of anything useful
Mentors- I have yet to actually see one of these because apparently "the client" won't pay for one or some shit like that until there are 50 reps on the phones...
The Client - they want great customer service, low call times - yet - will not get the technicians they send to the customers place to properly educate them in how to get completely set up with the services...
SYUTAC- thinks that by setting up "incentives" thats going to make our call times lower and our customer quality scores higher....wtf??

I don't mind the customers I talk to on the phone... most of the time they apologize for being uneducated... and are usually very happy at the end of the call even if I try everything to help them and still don't fix their problem....
What I do mind is that I have had 3 of my calls listened too by QA - so far the three worse calls I've ever had... so my customer quality score is in the toilet... and I swear they try to find the shortest calls to listen too... what they need to realize is the problems that actually get solved and we/I do well on are usually longer then 10 minutes.
I took an extremely easy call last night...setting up a sub account (email) for a customer however because he was an uneducated person (when it comes to that) it took 40 minutes taking him thru the process... will they listen to that call? no why? because it's 40 minutes long.

I know I'm bellyaching... but you'd think that everyone above me would realize that pressuring us about our call times is going to do nothing but affect the quality level of the customer service...

Next Post -> deadjournal :)

I Don't Need You To Turn Water Into Wine, No

ok so I don't even know what to say...

first week of Feb has been tough... personal reasons... don't ask... no where near as tough as November but hey I don't wanna get too cryptic on ya LMAO

But anyway....

I'm such a wuss somedays... I bought Raistlan his Valentine's Day present already... and I already gave it to him... I just keep telling him there's more to come for Valentine's Day...
I've also noticed the more years we've been together the more demanding I'm becoming LOL
I told him I want flowers this year...but not the flowers he always buys throughout the year... I don't ever really ask for flowers, because I know they bug his allergies... but damnit... I want some now :D LMAO

work has been sucky... I hate not being able to help people... when I was on the CC campaign the majority of the time I helped people out with their problem... now on the TW campaign I feel like I'm doing nothing but transferring them or referring them to a third party company... *sigh*
even tho the position that I wanted came up I didn't end up applying for it (thanks Shana for the reminder) anyway they were looking for full time people...
I'm not so therefore would not get the job...The Major told me to apply and go full time...I asked him if he would pay for my son to go to daycare...that was a resounding no... *sigh* so I'm still stuck on the phones fighting back attacks and transferring people... It is really great tho when I do actually get to help a person fix their problem... they are usually so excited and grateful...

the kids have been great... well I mean they're kids so they get loud and mouthy and bounce off the walls... so yeah they've been great... and all I can say is at least now they're healthy... Keenan wasn't last week... he told me on Saturday that he wasn't feeling well then next thing I know he's leaning over the toilet for a few hours... it is extremely disheartening to watch a lil ting three year old body tense up and spasm while wretching into a toilet... not something I care to repeat anytime soon... I'm just happy that he's ok now...

Raistlan has been moody... and I'm not sure if it's related at all to the timing of the cryptic thing LOL or if it's for his own reason... but even says he has no idea why it was happening... so I think I just as I'm typing this blog came to the realization of what it was... we'll have to think some more on that.

Hard to believe that being 1700 miles away, he could still affect my family, as if he had picked up the phone and called... or showed up at the door... fucker.
yeah I've hit the bitter stage... LMAO
of well such as life when you've been touched by an asshole.

We have heat again...
Crazy psycho welfare bitch from downstairs some how managed to get the gas company to shut off the gas to our boiler a couple of weeks ago... we were living with a few space heaters throughout the apartment (thanks Paulie, it was WAY better after you lent us yours) so it took the landlady a week or so to get a new boiler into the basement...yay heat!

men have such warped memories!!!

Oh...
The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

I hear you still talk to me
As if you're sitting in that dusty chair
Makes the hours easier to bare
I know despite the years alone
I'll always listen to you sing your sweet song
And if it's all the same to you

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

And it's cold and darkness falls
It's as if you're in the next room so alive
I could swear I hear you singing to me

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok
Oh girl you are singing to me still
I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

lil message there for Raistlan... you were not in the casino chair you were on the couch... and you were playing the gamecube not the 64 and it was most definately not before christmas... stop arguing with me... I'm right! I know because it's my memory it was my moment to share something with you that I enjoyed and you were only half paying attention... I know what was going on at the time! :P

oh so now's the time to ask... did ya wanna know what I got him for Valentine's Day??
I got him a silver bracelett with his name engraved on the front and my name engraved on the back with a lil heart beside it... a big set of stuffed lips that say Kiss Me... and....well I'm not telling you the rest... maybe after our date on the 12th I'll fill ya in *evil grin* >:)

anyone know how much it costs to send a small package to England?? weighs a few pounds... payday isn't until the end of this week so I guess I'll figure it out on saturday before my date...

believe it or not... I haven't been around too much because of three things, my apartment, knitting and Raistlan.... I've been trying to keep my apartment clean (swear thats another part time job), I've taken up knitting - made Raistlan a scarf that he likes and will actually wear - think I'm going to make a blanket or something for my next project...might be that everyone gets at least one homemade present for christmas...this coming year, and I've also been trying to go to bed at the time that Raistlan does... or atleast lay in bed watching a movie with him while he drifts off to sleep...

but now that this has become an extremely long post I'm finishing it....

Later.

Close My Eyes And Listen To You Crying....

I've been told over and over again don't change who you are for another person...

what if you don't like who you are and you really want to change for what seems to be the better...

what seems to be the better to you might be annoyingly obnoxious to someone else....

when you read something that somebody else has written and think to yourself "Gods could you be anymore obvious regarding the about face you've done just because of so and so..."

if you are going to change your life do it for yourself not for anybody else... and for fucks sake get a spine about it... stop trying to impress everybody and try to guilt them into doing stuff with you...

and just because someone doesn't like you doesn't mean they have a fear of gays/lesbians/bisexuals/heterosexuals.... it means they just don't like you...

as much as we share between all of us none of us truly cares for everyone...

quit your fuckin whining and your passive agressive comments...

and you wonder why people don't like you... you try so hard that you come across as an attention starved puppy that bites whenever tries to pet it... it looks truly pathetic to watch...


"does it make you mad to find that I have grown, I bet it hurts so bad to see the strength I've shown"

I give up on you...and I suggest you don't talk to me or I'll let you know what I really think of you...lol >:)

(Keenan has been sick this past weekend, went out to see Racing Stripes for my moms birthday, went and had dinner afterwards, went back to work...that was my weekend)