Wednesday, May 31, 2006

S.A.D


"I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you."

Monday, May 22, 2006

Gather Around For Story Time!!

***Explicit Sexual Content***
**Note: The people in this story are fictional, they don't truly feel any of the feelings as portrayed in the following story, nor do they exist. If you think one of them represents you, congratulations you may be the most self centered person to exist. The events which happen in this story never happened, that early in the morning, nor at all. Just enjoy the sex filled story. It's purely for entertainment purposes. So whack away!**
*oh yeah, feel free to tell me what you think about it in the comment section...now I'm done*

She lay in her bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering, is he thinking about her too? Could anything top their first encounter? He probably didn't even think of it, that was months and months ago. She wondered about that very question every so often. Would there be a chance to find out?

She couldn't lay still anymore. She got up and washed up and brushed her teeth. Was it too early to go downstairs? Would he need more sleep?
She felt her stomach start to knot up from a sudden moment of excitement. She knew he was down there right now, asleep on the couch, or would he be awake? She looked at herself in the mirror, told herself to calm down and to get dressed.
Dressing in a pair of tight black stretch pants and a loose t-shirt, she opted for no bra, just incase.

Downstairs she could hear the slow steady rhythm of of his breathing. She tip toed past him into the kitchen and grabbed a small glass of juice. She was about to tip toe past him again to go back upstairs, when he mumbled good morning and asked what time it was. She told him that it was 7:30, he grumbled. She stepped closer and leaned down a bit and asked him what he had said. He reached out and grabbed her arm and pulled her so that she was sitting on the edge of the couch. "Where ya going? is what I said". She stuttered out "oh I ....I was.. just going back upstairs, s-s-so that you could get some more sleep" she gathered her wits and added "unless you want me to join ya on the couch..." He cocked one eyebrow up and thought for a split second, his answer came as an action instead, he lifted his arm and the blanket at the same time as an invitation to her to join him.

He was so warm, it was so warm under the blanket. She could've just closed her eyes and drifted back into sleep with his arm wrapped around her and the warmth he had created under that blanket. She had matched the rhythm of his breathing and was about to drift off when, her eyes flew back open.

She had felt it, it wasn't just a twitch in his arm. He had started moving his hand down her side to her hip, he paused there for a moment, gave her hip a light squeeze. She realized then that she had been holding her breath, and let it out with a little sigh of enjoyment. He continued down from her hip to her thigh, at least where he could reach too. He caressed her leg for a moment before he started back up her hip.
When he got to where her shirt overlapped her pants he lifted the edge of the shirt to ensure that his hand would go up under her shirt as he moved it back up to her belly.
He slowly slid his hand up her belly to her right breast.
She never realized just how big his hands were before, until that moment when he covered her breast with his hand and started to lightly massage it. He would move his hand to the bottom of her breast, cupping it, and then slowly moving his hand so that her breast slid out from under it so that he was able to caress the entire breast. She loved it, she never said anything for fear that he would stop and the moment would be gone. She found herself several times just holding her breath in, a way of hoping to make the moment last. She sighed and made little slight moans, this was her way of saying don't stop.
He had stopped caressing the entire breast and was focusing on her nipple now. He took it in between his thumb and forefinger and lightly rolled it between them, he moved forward and started breathing on the nap of her neck, sending shivers down her back and making her nipples even more sensitive. She arched her back as he did that and moaned her approval, she wondered for a moment if she ever told him that that drove her crazy.

She was starting to feel that this was a little onesided. She wasn't able to do anything to him for he was behind her. She snaked her arm under his while he was still playing with her breasts and ran her hand down to his hip. At first when she touched him he gave a little jump, like he wasn't expecting her to. Then gave a little sigh into the back of neck and started kissing and lightly sucking the back and side of her neck. She put her hand on the side of his hip and pulled him in toward the back of her and sighed. In return he slid his hand just under her breasts and pulled her into him.

She wanted to kiss him. The urge to kiss him came in an instant and wouldn't go away. She remembered kissing him the night before and wanted so badly to do it again. In the spooning position they were in on the couch it seemed unlikely that she would be able to kiss him. What started as an urge became an all consuming passion that needed to be fullfilled. Just as it became all consuming to her, he slid his hand down her belly and between her legs. Even through the pants he could feel the heat her pussy was radiating. As soon as he slid his hand between her legs, she moved her hand from his hip to behind his head and craned her head around, just as he started to lean forward and caught his lips with hers and kissed him with all the passion that had been building. She moaned into his mouth as they kissed while he rubbed her pussy through her pants.They broke off the kiss and were both out of breath.
He took his hand from between her legs and she started to moan disapproval with that action until she realized that he had slid his fingertips into the top of her pants and started to slide them down. With a sharp inhale she lifted her hips so that he could get them down. Her mind was racing, not a word was said, he just knew. He knew and she loved him for knowing. She pushed the pants off after he got them past her knees.
She was going to roll over to face him but he stopped her and made her face away from him still. They never said anything. He put a little pressure on the back inside of her right thigh. An action that she took as meaning bend her knee, so she put her right foot on her left knee.
Both of their breathing had increased. She was wanting so badly for him to touch her again. She reached her right arm between them and twisted her hand so that her palm was against him and lowered it until she found his dick, it was so hard. He did a sharp intake of breath, making her think, that was unexpected. Her head was swimming, she couldn't think straight, she wanted so much to have him inside her.
He slid his hand between her legs, this time from behind. She was bracing for the intense feeling that she would feel when he found her clit with his finger, instead he caressed the lips of her pussy with his fingertips. She wasn't expecting that to feel so good, she felt a warmth start at her belly button and slowly wash over the rest of her body. She moaned with pleasure and felt her whole body relax into his even more.
Instead of going for her clit it almost seemed like he did everything he could to stay away from it. Caressing the inside of her thighs, rubbing with the slighest touch of his fingertips on her pussy lips. She was getting so worked up and so wet, she couldn't believe how wet she was getting, she would've been embarassed at how wet she was if it weren't for the intense pleasure that was making her not care. He was doing it so if he didn't like it, it was his fault anyway. With the way he was still kissing and lightly licking her neck she didn't think he seemed to mind.

She gasped in pleasure when she felt his finger slid into her pussy and immediately find her until now impossible to find g-spot. She was so overtaken by the feeling that she thought her eyes would roll into the back of her head. He slowly and gently moved his finger in and out of her pussy. She arched her back pushing her bottom towards him trying to get more of his finger into her. She was so excited that she was wet from front to back.
He had worked up a rhythm that she was really enjoying, he would slid his fingers in, caress her g-spot, slide them out again and light graze his fingertip over her anus. She wasn't expecting that to give her such a jolt of pleasure, she couldn't help but let out a little yelp.
He went on with this rhythm for a few moments, she was so worked up that she just wanted him to take her. He could have asked her to do anything at this point, she had never been so turned on without having clitoral stimulation. She was getting to the point where she just wanted to be ravished.
She had just gotten into the rhythm when he changed it up. She started noticing that with each time he was putting a little more pressure on her anus. As soon as she realized it she got a little worried, she had only ever had anal sex twice and both times it hurt real bad.
He could tell she was tensing a bit, he leaned forward and kissed her just below her ear and whispered "We won't if you don't want to, but I want to fuck your ass so bad"
She couldn't help it, she moaned and before she realized what she was doing she had whispered out in a hoarse tone "oh god yes" in her head the little voice had said "What?"
He groaned like that was the best thing he'd ever heard, steadied his breathing and whispered into her ear "relax hun I won't hurt you"
She tried very hard to relax, at some point in this whispered break she had gotten so excited at the thought. She couldn't believe that she was going to go through with this but was so wanting it.
Before she could think another thought she felt something pressed against her anus. It was the head of his dick. She gasped at the feeling of it, it was so hard.
Harder then it was last night when she slid it between her lips for the first time, harder then when she made it explode in the back of her throat. As the images of the night before flashed through her mind, making her want him inside her even more, he pressed against her anus and slid his dick into her ass.
When he was all the way in he stopped for a moment so that she could get used to it. She couldn't believe the feeling, she couldn't even describe it to herself. It was a pressure, but it was a beautiful feeling. She felt a tingling sensation start from her pussy and spread up her body in waves, until it hit her cheeks in a wonderful pink flush.
She gasped, and was overcome with the feeling of wanting him to stay right where he was and a need to have him sliding in and out of her. He must of sensed this need and with a slow movement he slid in and out of her ass. Both of their breathing had turned into rasping pants of pleasure. She was moaning softly, while in her mind she was screaming oh my god fuck me. He continued the slow pace not wanting to hurt her, waiting until she gave some sign that she was comfortable enough for him to speed up. He wasn't sure if the last moan she had let out was a groan of pain or a moan of pleasure. While he was in mid thought, he thought he heard her say something. "What?" he asked.
"Fuck my ass" she moaned. His stomach leapt with excitement, he had wanted to hear her say that to him for a long time. He moaned and started to speed up, she gasped and let out a low gutteral moan as he sped up.
When he heard that moan his breath caught and he let out a shakey lustful exhale.
He put pressure with his hand on her thigh for her to put her legs together. She brought them together and was moaning and gasping. He then reached over her leg and put his hand between her legs. This time he went straight for her clit, which by this time was aching to be touched. As soon as he touched it she let out a moan that was so loud, she tried to say something but was so overcome with passion that it came out as gasps. Her eyes flew wide open again at the touch, she almost completely lost it and almost orgasmed. She didn't tho she wanted to wait for him, she wanted them to cum together. Which was going to be real soon if he kept up on her clit while fucking her ass. She was going out of her mind, she wanted to yell, she wanted to moan, she wanted to just explode. She craned her head around again trying to kiss him again, she could never explain to him at this point in time with words how he was making her feel. The only way she thought she would be able to convey how crazy this was making her was by kissing him. When she turned her head to him, they locked eyes and she knew, she knew that he could tell, from the look in her eye. The look that comes on a womans face when she wants it all and even more, when she's gone to that place filled with all the lust and all the passion. When she's ready to just explode, because she can't be filled with that much. If she could've gotten any closer to him she would've tried. He smiled an she just nodded, and kissed him with everything that she had built up inside her. She never wanted him to leave her.
All of a sudden her eyes flew wide open again and she got the look on her face like something was about to happen that she couldn't control, he nodded at her, he knew what was about to happen. With that nod he had given her permission. She squinted her eyes shut and felt the wave of warm tingling sensations wave overlapping wave from her toes to her head, again and again. She moaned out his name over and over again. Wanting him to know that she knew it was him giving her this immense pleasure, she wanted him to know that she wanted it to be him, that she wanted him to not have to leave again. Just when she thought it had subsided, she heard his breathing, it was ragged and deep, he gave out a couple of moans and on the last gutteral moan she knew that he was cumming. That sparked something within her, she was all of a sudden hit with another orgasm, not quite as intense as the last one. However it was intense enough that before she could stop it she had blurted out "oh my god I'm cumming again" she came again and he urged her on with low whispers in her ear.

When both were spent they lay there on the couch, breathing heavily and feeling satisfied. He put his arms around her kissed the back of her neck again and they both fell asleep. When they awoke they never said anything to each other about the mornings activities. He slipped his clothes on and went out the door and made the long trek home again. She waved good bye and went upstairs to have a shower and went about her day, straightening up and then making dinner for when her husband got home.
"I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other."

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Oh And They Fumble At The Gate...

Raistlan and I get up this morning... well around noonish for me... my mom has called to say that she's on her way... Raistlan has to take her to a park so that she can catch her ride... he brings the van back here and starts hurrying me so that we can get on the road before the possibility of hitting traffic in Toronto...

I hate being rushed... so I had been making some cd's so that I could listen to them at the hospital with my mp3 cd player... we gathered clothes to go to Nana's and we're ready to go... Raistlan still rushing me so that we could go, has his coat on... finally I'm done with the two cd's I burned... turned off the computer made sure all animals had a couple days worth of food... grabbed the keys...

and...

the phone rings...

it's a Toronto number... thought ok... maybe it was a friend of mine... grab the phone much to the dismay of Raistlan who's ready to go...

he watches... as my chin starts to quiver... and my eyes start to well up with tears... listening to me go... oh... ok... hmm... watches me throw down the keys on the floor... walk back in where the computer is... watches as I say mhmm and ok a couple more times... and how I hang up the phone... and just start bawling...

it was the receptionist from my cardiologists office in Toronto... she was asked to contact me and let me know that I had been bumped off the surgery schedule for tomorrow... not so bad right... figured...ok so they'll reschedule me for next week or tomorrow or a couple of days from now...

nope... the next available time to get me back into surgery is in July... FUCKING JULY!!!!!

I went thru such a rollercoaster of emotions today its not funny... yes this actually happened... so I start calling around... family who was going to come up to Toronto and texting friends and family about the call I got... so that not everyone I saw is going to ask how it went...

people seemed to have mixed emotions.. the ones closest to me... told me that they felt bad cause they knew how much I had been wanting to hurry up and get this over and done with... some didn't quite know what to say... but I gotta tell ya... the reaction that takes the cake... is the one who laughed when they heard the news... so glad you were amused by that... I'm so happy to keep you entertained... I won't go on the tangent I wanted too...

anyway...

So yes everyone I am not in Toronto preparing to get my heart zapped... instead... I'm saying 'Ta Hell With It!'

I'm sick of sitting around waiting for this shit to happen and be done... I'm going to go back to working out... I'm going to go out without fear... I'm going eat drink whatever I want... welcome home caffeine... and every single fucking time I have the littlest of attacks... I'm going to the hospital... I didn't do it before... not because I didn't want to inconvience the hospital... because I didn't want to be inconvienced by them... having to sit around and wait...

Fuck them.. and Fuck this... I'm taking my life back.

They're At The Post.....

About to walk out the door and head up to Toronto...

I'll be back on Thursday sometime... as long as all goes well at the hospital...

I might be able to come online tonight and post when exactly my surgery is tomorrow...

Talk To You Guys Later...

Monday, May 15, 2006

She Put On Dark Glasses And Long Sleeved Blouses, And Make Up To Cover The Bruise

Sooooo....

yeah... I'm not sure where to start in this one... I mean I could start at the beginning of the weekend... oh hell... ok...

I had posted and sent out invites for a informal type of get together downtown for some drinking and merriment with all my friends from here in town or the surrounding towns... I sent out about 30 or so notices... I got one answer saying yes... I got four saying no accompanied with reasons why (which I wasn't really expecting) and I got two maybes which called me on thursday and friday and told me why they had to say no... that was cool of them... everyone else didn't answer...
Pretty much the reason why I was doing this was to see people that I considered friends of mine before my surgery on Wednesday... understandable right? (I've just wanted to be around people I know and care about for the last little while...even if we were just sitting and watching tv...just being with people... "Action Is The Enemy Of Thought")

So friday I've just finished retouching up my hair and I figure I'll send a message to the person who said yes and let her know that I'd be heading down town soon... I mean come on theres like 8 bars on one street all stumbling distance of each other... we could find one place to go... anyway... so I find out at 10pm that she has no way of coming out but that she was still 'looking' for a ride...
Raistlan had gone to lay down on the bed cause the smell of the dye was getting to his head and he was kinda of tired... so he had fallen asleep... so I told her to forget it... we'd do something else another time...
later on... Raistlan wakes up and we went for a walk to 7-11 so that I could get a squishy (aka Slurpee) I had been drinking before he woke up... so of course everything is magnified when you've been drinking (well at least when I've been drinking...the default reaction when I'm drinking is to get horny...UNLESS somethings been bothering me...) so I started to feel a bit dejected... because it seemed like no one cared... almost started crying in 7-11... god I'm such a freak...

went to bed still feeling dejected... Raistlan did give it quite a go to lift my spirits...

woke up still kinda feeling the same because now my son is leaving for a week... and that makes me sad too... cause he's my lil buddy... didn't help that I had a bitch of a headache...
and everytime someone called they started the conversation with ... wait why are you home?
*insert eyerolling here* I had let my family know that there was a good chance that I would be out of town.. problem was I hadn't yet heard from the friend I was going out of town to see...

so my mother calls me for a second time that day again starting with ... wait why are you home? to which I followed up with... if you didn't think I was going to be here why are you calling... lol

Anyway... just get off the phone... and find out that the out of town friend had started heading in this direction and was about an hour away... yikes... I had been semi-napping... and wasn't even dressed... so rushed around trying to find clothes to wear and what not...
yeah still wasn't ready when they got here... just like a woman eh? ;)
so we went out shopping... they drank enough caffeine in one drink that would probably kill a small elephant... Anyway... left town and had some dinner and then went out drinking... always incredibly great to get away... Felt so incredibly bad... because they got real sick... not pukey from drinking sick... like something from dinner didn't agree...

And ya know... getting together with that one friend that was from out of town almost made up for Friday night... when I think about it I still get the twinge that no one cared enough...(well the ones that didn't reply)

got home today and went to mom's house for a barbque... mmmmm steak *insert drooling here*
my kids are great... Gambit was at mom's house...
well I'll give ya the run down... it was me, Raistlan, Gambit, the Ex, BiL, Mom, Mom's friend and Sis... ok so... gave mom her card... bought her a cake... had a yummy dinner... watched MI2... had cake...
well when Raistlans mom came down to pick up Keenan she brought birthday and easter presents down for the kids... I brought Gambit his... he got clothes... a water gun.. and some weird foam type rockets that you could shoot off a spring loaded handle thing... well that looked like fun... so he and I went outside and were playing with them...making just about anything a target... on my sister's pick up truck... her gas tank door (lil door ya open when ya go to put gas in the thing...anyone know the actual name??) anyway... that lil door is a different colour than the rest of the truck... lol ... so that became a target... the van parked on the other side of the truck... landing them ontop of the van was another one... it was all fun and games until the Ex walked outside and got shot by one... lol we thought it was funny... grandmas butt became a target when she came outside... the crack were the back of the truck and the cab of the truck meet... yeah we tried to get them stuck in there... needless to say he and I were having some great fun... and Raistlan too when he came out to join us...


So yeah... weekend started out yucky but quickly got better and better, dipped a bit while out of town, just cause I was worried about just how sick my friend might be... still a bit worried since when I tried to call and check on them, there was no answer...

My kids can be so sweet I love them... Keenan apparently tried to call today while I was still out of town to wish me a Happy Mothers Day... and Gambit made me the sweetest gifts at school... one is made from an old baby food jar, different coloured tissue paper glued to the outside, the lid painted and a lil butterfly was attached to the rim of the lid on the outside and there was a lil tealight candle on the inside... its too cute...and he made me a lil box that has a lil clear window and a piece of paper over the window that says:
"This is a very special gift, That you can never see. The reason it's so special is, It's just for you and me. Whenever you are lonely, Or ever feeling blue, You only have to hold this gift, And know I think of you. You never can unwrap it, Please leave the ribbon tied, Just hold the box close to your heart, It's filled with love inside."

And all of this came with a card that says in it...
"When you look in the mirror I hope that you see a mother so WONDERFUL with all these qualities!!! Happy Mothers Day Mom Love Gambit"

the card is designed to look like a handle held looking glass that has tin foil glued to the outside to really make it look like a mirror and around the mirror part it says MOM, Pretty, Artistic, Helpful, Loving, Fun, Intelligent
apparently all the kids did the same card... but they had to come up with the qualities themselves...

damn near started to cry... god having kids turns ya into a big fucking softy... when I was younger I never cried so much... lol... it's pretty bad that when ya think about how much you love your kids and you start to tear up...

anyway... thank you goes out to my out of town friend who even tho they didn't realize it, had restored my faith in friends... at least my out of town ones... lmao
Thanks goes to my family... especially my Raistlan... who doesn't mind my leaving town every once in awhile ;)
BTW my wonderful soccer/football star son... Keenan... his team won 2nd in his division this year... they lost the championship game... but hey... he's improving SO much... so he starts outdoor next week... lets hope it goes just as well...

anyway I think I've rambled enough for one day...

Happy Belated Mothers Day To All The Mom's Out There!!

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Yes Can I Have A Revolving Door With My Little Room Please?

Beware Of The Long Post! LOL

8:20am - Phone wakes my lazy ass up... it's mom... she's leaving to come get me... asks if I need to fast or if I want some breakfast cause she's stopping (btw breakfast for me is lunch for my mom... before she came to get me.. she went in at her regular time for her shift at work...at like 4am, and just left early so that she could take me)

So mom gets here and we leave for my 10:30am appt up at Toronto General at ...8:45am...

only traffic we hit was on the highway at Trafalgar Rd... never fails... always there... anyway... other then that it was somewhat smooth sailing... lol
keyword... somewhat... I took a look at the map they gave me and it looked like University Ave came all the way down to #2... apparently it doesn't... lol didn't take long to realize we passed it... so we got ack on track... which was fun... since we like yelling at stupid people...

get to the hospital... theres a parking structure across the street from the entrance I go in... yeah 15 minutes of driving up ...lol ended up finally finding a parking space...

went and found out where I had to go... up to the 6th floor in the hospital... (lol funny how many elevators I used yesterday)

oh yeah I was almost a half an hour late because of the parking garage and the lil detour we took.. lol so I walked up to the receptionist and said Hi I'm ... and she finished the statement by saying Rae... so after teaching her 4 times how to say my last name she laughed to herself and said with a nod over her shoulder... they're polish I wanna hear how they're goning to prounce it...

so by this time I'm donning a loverly hospital bracelet and now we have to wait... you know that hurry up and wait game... so finally out comes this woman and completely fucks up my name and she takes mom and I back into this little room...

in the little room is a computer, two chairs, a stool, a crappy exam table ...you know the ones withg the lovely paper on it... the lovely polish nurse hands me a cloth gown and tells me to strip from the waist up and that we'll be there for a couple of hours... and walks out...

comes back carrying stuff to take blood with... asks me to jump up onto the table... I said not if you're gonna stick me.. and laughed... the woman had this look on her face like no one has ever said no to her before ... lmao... mom just looks at me and says get up there...

so she sticks me in the arm and takes the fastest 5 vials of blood I've ever seen... so while she's doing that.. another nurse comes in and says something which I didn't understand... but leaves the ECG machine...
So I'm thinking ok it'll be like when I go to the cardiologist... we'll lift up the gown from the bottom put all the elctrode things on and during the test just put the gown down a bit... ;)
so she asks me to lay down after taking blood and rips my gown down, pulling my arms out of the holes and of course exposing my girls to the room...lmao
so then she starts to stick the lil electrodey things on... which most people when they have to put the ones on under my boob, they usually just lift it up a little with their finger and place them... not the polish nurse (who btw we found out very early on has no sense of humour which of course isn't fun) she palms my boob grabbing it and holding it out of the way while she slaps the lil stickies on my tit... omg the comment...'hey what are you doing later?' so almost slipped out of my mouth... lol I just giggled it back... so after the sticky things come the lil clippy things...( love the technical terms? ) same thing popped in my head when she got to my boob again...

so she says to me... hold very still and don't move... and of course I wanted to say... wel which do you want? so I closed my eyes and laid real still... and then came the end and the yanking off of the clippy things.... oh yeah instead of taking them off one at a time she grabbed the little boxy thing they're all connected to and just pulled.... yeeeouch!! and then came the violent ripping off of the stickies.... sheesh...

so then I covered the girls up and sat down by the computer... she got all kinds of information from us... and the stood up and said she'd be right back with some print outs for me to sign...
so she comes back we sign the papers.. and she says... ok bye bye now and walks out and shuts the door...

ummm.... I look over at my and go... psst... she just said bye bye... does that mean I'm done... we were left very confused... and complaining about her bedside manner... or should I say lack thereof... we were laughing when all of a sudden came a knock on the door... and this woman walks in saying that there was entirely too much fun going on in the room...
she introduced herself as Eleanor and proceeded to sit down and take all the information the last woman took... so mom being the mom she is and I love says... *laughing*
umm... we just went thru all of this with the last woman... why are you doing it all again?
apparently the nurse beforehand was in there for billing purposes...whereas she was in there for my chart...
so when she was leaving she said 'have a good day and the next nurse will be in, in a few minutes'... I laughed and said thank you... she looked puzzled and I said... 'the other nurse didn't tell us anyone else was coming just said bye... we thought we were done'

NEXT!!

so a few minutes later, another nurse, named Sharlene comes in... she was there to answer questions and let me know about all the ins and outs of the procedure...

and then came the next fun part...

as we are on our way out we have to go to x-rays ... they want x-rays of my chest ... they like it so much they want pics of my insides :D

so we're sitting in the waiting room for xrays and I'm listening to this older lady complain over and over again about how long it was taking ... her husband goes out to the reception area comes back in looking worried... and says 'c'mon hunny we have to go down the hall' to which she responds 'what for?!?'... gulp... 'because we've been waiting in the wrong waiting area...' .... 'FOR 3 HOURS!!??!'... they walked out...
oh my god it was too funny... felt bad for them...

so out comes this technician who obliterates my name (both of them) so badly that I didn't realize he was calling my name... (he had been calling two people out at a time, so I didn't realize I was one of them) ...my mom looks up and says... did you mean......? and says my name and he looks at his paper and says yes.... so I got up and took my shirt and bra with me so I could put them back on (yes still in the hospital gown) ... so I foollow this guy thru the door and he says... ok you can sit right here and I'll be right with you... it was about 6 feet from the door... I waved at my mom whom I could still see... she says from across the waiting room "what the hell are you doing?"
"waiting" I replied... "I think their weeding us out"
she shook her head and went back to reading her book

so yeah got the chest x-rays finally... got changed and came home....

all in all it was a fun day... I know... doesn't that sound weird... yes spending almost 3 hours in a hospital was fun... the only non-fun part was the traffic we hit and well... thats just to be expected when in Toronto...

anything else to update I'll post onmyspace... this entry has already become novel sized...

Monday, May 08, 2006

Internets Back

So I said that as soon as I got internet back, that I'd get back on here and do a right and proper post... so here it goes you asked for it...

first some news that I haven't let too many people in on... I haven't spoken to my Krammit since the beginning of April or so... we had a misunderstanding that neither one of us seems to be biting the bullet for and making that first phone call...
I do miss my Krammit... but do not try to give me any advice on the situation... just cause you don't know :P so there... lol

secondly on Tuesday the 9th I'll be going for all my pre-admin shite up in Toronto... yay... *note- thats a half hearted yay*

My mom is taking me up on Tuesday to find out whats going and what exactly is gonna happen...

next week I'm not sure how the hell I'm getting to Toronto... *laughing* surgery date is finally here... but because of bills and rent... I have no money to get there... oh the irony of it all... lol

Poor Raistlan he's so stressing out about how we're going to get there and how he's going to eat while there... I understand that thats his way... but me... I'm like ... enh we'll figure something out I'm sure... can't afford to stress about it... might have to call in a couple of favours and create a couple of IOU's... we'll see...

Mothers Day is coming up... and I will probably not see either of my chidren on that day... kinda defeats the purpose doesn't it?

One highlight... coming up at the end of the week Squasha will be flying back here for a visit... hopefully I'll be able to get up to actually see him... for more then just a couple hours at a Tim Horton's at 1am... lmao

Oh yeah we told Cogeco to stick it... so we no longer have Cable Internet we have DSL... blecch... seems... soooo slow... lol

"I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you."

Friday, May 05, 2006

Boys That Make Me Hot

Before we get to the post title.... Ooooo Squasha you are soooo sexy.... (ok you can go about your day now)

Ok so what is it with me and Eastern European men.... or men that have Eastern European backgrounds... I wonder if thats because technically thats where my relatives came from...hmm... anyway... this guy is so hot to me...


I can't pinpoint one thing... about him that does it... or a few others that I know or have seen...

I bring it to light because... well theres a guy who has a son in my sons class that looks like Stan (guy in the pictures) but is much closer to 35 or so years old... and man he's fairly hot... to me...

Some would say these guys that I would love to climb on look dumb or awkward... I think thats part of it... I'm not sure.. but they sure do make me hot ;)

Ok so that was my typical girl post... my I love boys post... you know whats funny... Raistlan does npt look anything like that ... lmao
maybe I'll write about something more earth shattering later or tomorrow

Thursday, May 04, 2006


HAPPY 31st BIRTHDAY RAISTLAN!!!


Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Cogeco Fucks Seahorse Ass With Turtle Dick!

quick update... oh wait first gotta get this out of the way so that he can continue on with his day... Squasha Bug you are a sexy beast!

no cable... cogeco sucks major goat ass...

Keenan... loves his swimming lessons... not liking school as much... starts outdoor soccer soon

Gambit... got the chicken pox... survived the pox... loving soccer... almost finished indoor, starts outdoor soon

Raistlan... in training for a new campaign... will be working old campaign as well as new campaign... best hubby in the world... working hard...

Me... started school yesterday... it was awesome... can't wait til tomorrow... anxious/nervous/scared about the 17th... it's sneaking up on us... hate having to come to the library to do my shiznit that needs to be done... once I get everything back up and running at home with cable I'll post a much better up date...

If ya have my number and ya feel like calling me... by all means... I get bored sometimes... if ya don't have it and ya want it and I actually like you and know you... feel free to ask for it...

Paulie... I have some stuff for you... gimme a call we'll go do coffee or something... ;)

If y'all didn't know I've expanded my life over to myspace as well... yeah just what the net needs... more of my ugly mug on it... well actually right now my profile pic is of a dog on myspace... but you catch my drift...

Anyway... gotta run now...