You Can Bet That I Stand Ready When The Wolf Growls At The Door

It breaks my heart every time I watch the news I'm hearing about another young American boy....who's become a man too quickly...because of an old man's war...coming home in a body bag....

why are they still there? maybe I'm dumb... I just don't get it...

Makes me glad about my decisions...

*sigh*

I'm sorry to all the families who have lost their children because of this stupidity...

"I can't call in sick on monday when the weekends been to strong I just work straight thru the holidays sometimes all night long.."

Hello? Is It Me You're Looking For?

What was the last ...

1) ... gift that someone gave you? Was it for a special occasion or just out of the blue? What's the last gift that you have given to someone else, and why? Did they like it?

2) ... time that you took a walk? Where did you go? Did you walk with someone or go alone? Did you see anything interesting along the way? Do you enjoy walking as a form of exercise?

3) ... thing that you thought of before going to bed last night? Why was it on your mind? Did you sleep well last night? Did you have any dreams?

4) ... day of high school like for you? What were your feelings on that day? Do you still keep in touch with any high school friends?

5) ... phone call you made? To whom, and how long did you talk? Are you on the phone often? How many phones do you have at home?

Please leave your answers in the comment section.

Are Ya Looking For Answers....

well here I sit typing my blog entry into a notepad text box...
why? you may ask...
well because something in blogger is making my system
freeze...everytime I try to type it in the regular blogger box...
fucking thing...
sometimes I think it would just be better to write it down in a regular
journal... blah... anyway...

So it seems that I'm going to have to save some money up so I can get
my passport renewed...seems they are gonna be bucklin down at the
borders... yep... thats right... to all you americans that have homes
here... :P you are going to need a passport in order to get here or go
home...

so it looks like I'll have to go get the passports for everyone... by
June... *shudder* thats not that far away... you are now saying... "well
why June Rae? where ya going this time?" well I can't tell ya that :P
LOLalright I'll tell ya which state....
I'm going back to South Carolina in June ;)

Not just that I want to get the passports so that incase I get really
spontaneous and fly to England one weekend... lol
Because we all know how often that happens...
not just that...a good friend of mine IS graduating in February and
damnit I need to be there and see it happen, since she's worked so hard
to do it. So yeah need passport..SC in June and Ohio in February...

Talking to people online about some of my computer issues... I'm
realizing just how badly I was addicted to it... *shudder* glad I got
over that... LOL

yeah yeah yeah :P

but seriously tho... I'm not on anywhere near as much as I used to
be... I log on... I play Kingdom Of Loathing ... doesn't that just
sound like an amusement park I should be the owner of? LMAO other than
that I'm not really on here anymore... it's just not THAT important
anymore...

dear gods I think I might be growing up :O

On the work front TW is finished in Hell as of the 24th of April...
yep thats right kiddies I'm changing campaigns again...
but guess where I'm going back too??? oh guess... guess...c'mon
guess... well if ya guessed it then you got it right... I'm going back
to CC.... grrr... however the up side to going back to CC is that I'm
going to be doing MidAtlantic Billing rather than Jersey... (there is a
god) sorry anyone who is in New Jersey but ya know what...everyone in
NJ seems like they are angry at the entire world...


Keenan's bowling party... omg that was fun... not all the people showed
up that were invited... but fuck 'em (excluding Shana because she got a
late invite... other than that fuck 'em all)
we had fun with mine and Krammit's clan... Keenan had Fun... thats all
that mattered to me...so...mission accomplished... and no one got
knocked out by a bowling ball...

hmm so what else is new...

oh in the Lions club I'm incharge of my own fundraiser (Paulie's gonna
call after that comment... I hope... God Damnit Paulie call me
sometime!!!) Our club will be selling these giant colouring
books...they're awesome...10 bucks a book, 36 pages in a book, and
they're like 2 feet tall at least... but anyway... so yeah... we're
hoping to sell enough to go to the International convention next
year... it's gonna be in New Orleans... hoping I can find a couple of
people I know from there...

hmm not sure what else to talk about... I think thats about it...

Anyway.. have a good one... oh yeah and no I won't tell you why I'm
going to SC in June :P ba ha ha

Your Inner European is Irish!

Sprited and boisterous! You drink everyone under the table.

Who's Your Inner European?

this post was supposed to be in my deadjournal.... but dj is being a dick

One thing that I hate...

People who will tell you some of the wildest stories or the latest adventure that they've been on... but when it comes to you telling them a story that is equally as wild... they don't...nay they won't believe you...
they have this attitude of "only really weird/wild/ghostly/fucked up shit happens to me"

to all those out there who don't believe the stories of others...here's a big how da do and fuck you too...

to those of you who don't believe me when I have something to say... Fuuuuuck you!

I have come across some funky ass shit in my time... some that I barely believe happened... I don't need you to justify whether or not it happened or try to figure out what happened or why it happened... I know it happened and if you don't believe me... then why is it ou think I should believe anything that comes from your mouth... it's called trust motha fucker... you want me to trust what you say... you have to trust what I say...

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I've definately learnt something... in the last 27 years...
never depend on anyone...

people will almost always let you down...
100 out of 101 times... someone will let you down...

Don't ask for help... because even tho your "friends" say that no matter what they'll help you out... they won't...

where did this come from.. I dunno...
just shit thats been on my brain... things that have been proven over and over again...

enh fuck it... y'all ain't worth it...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SQUIRRELS!!!!

What The World Needs Now Is....

Happy Belated Birthday To My Baby...

yep Keenan turned 4 yesterday... my goodness eh? yeah...
so bowling is still planned for the 16th... again I'm shuddering at the thought of lil kids with bowling balls...

New moon tonight... good for new beginnings....

Raistlan and I were joking last night.... there's a group of people that went down to the Blue Ghost Tunnel... they've been down there a few times... I'd like to go as well... but we were joking around about the two of us going down there and cleansing the tunnel... lmao

see its funny to us... but anyway...

So I hope everyone got off their chests what they wanted too in my comment area.... lmao
I think thats the most comments I"ve ever had on one post...
what shocked the hell out of me... id that I talked about the pope, I talked about Terri Schiavo among some other things... and the one thing that gets snatched up to talk about in the comment area is Velvet (Nights wife) ... interesting.... (figured I'd give her an id in my blog if she's going to be such a hot topic of conversation).... because c'mon people its not nice to say SHE all the time... ;) we're nicer than that...
so everyone play nice on my blog ;)

*yawn*
alright I have to get ready for work...
everyone play nice while I'm gone.....

Blog Referral

It's not too often that I refer people to other blogs... I usually just blogroll any new ones or interesting ones... however I've been reading thru this one... and I've gotta say... it's been a long time since I enjoyed one so much... well since Erik's Blog...

Meet NDIK8... some of you may recognize NDIK8 from my last post... (made a comment)

Anyway... love the opinion that is present in this blog... it's great...

go fuckin read it :P

LOL

Music Makes The World Go 'Round... Not Love...

I'm constantly using song lyrics for the titles of my blog entries... so I decided to share a list of some of my favourite lines from songs

"I'll let it pass and hold my tongue and you will think that I've moved on" Dido - White Flags

"Now I lay me down not to sleep, I just get tangled in the sheets" Bare Naked Ladies - Who Needs Sleep

"But my dreams they are just empty as my conscience seems to be, I have hours only lonely, my love is vengence thats never free." The Who - Behind Blue Eyes

"I just want to fly, what ya want? what ya really want? Dance a lil stranger show me where you've been" Sugar Ray - Fly

"I only meant to love you, didn't you know it baby, why couldn't you be content with the love I gave" Joss Stone - The Choking Kind

"I wanna be haunted by the ghost, of your precious love.... I build my world around you I bless the day I found you...I'll stay beside you I'll never leave or tell you all those lies that you never believe" The Pogues ft. Sinead O'Connor - Haunted

"I remember falling, I remember marching like a one man army... I believe in something, I don't want to remember falling, for your lies" Our Lady Peace - One Man Army

"I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired... I'm sick and tired of being critisized, I'm sick and tired of barely gettin by, I'm sick and tired of not living right" Nappy Roots - Sick And Tired

"If you wanna leave, take good care, hope you have a lot of nice things to wear, but then a lot of nice things turn bad out there, oh baby baby its a wild world its hard to get by on just a smile..I'll always remember you like a child" Mr Big - It's A Wild World

"All day staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall, all night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something, hold on, feeling like I'm headed for a break down and I don't know why, but I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell, I know right now ya can't tell but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me" Matchbox20 - Unwell

"Incase you realize that sometimes you're just not ok,You need to understand that theres nothing strange about this, You need to know your friends, You need to know that I'll be waving my hand watching you drown, watching you scream quiet or loud, and maybe you should sleep, and maybe you just need a friend" Our Lady Peace - Clumsy

"For somebody who don't drive, I've been all around the world, some people say I've done alright as a girl" & "I'm ok alone but you got something I need" Janis Joplin - Rollerskate Song

"Barrels in your mouth, bullets to your head,The back of your neck’s all over the shed
Boomshacka boom chop chop" Insane Clown Posse - Chicken Huntin'

"Bitch, I go down south, With a piece of wheat hanging out my mouth, And sport a funky-ass straw hat, But after I hit it...motherfuck that!" Insane Clown Posse - Redneck Ho

So theres some of my favourite lyrics from different songs.... todays favourite song lyrics are from the song : The Ghosts That Haunt Me by Crash Test Dummies ....I dedicate this to all of you! Do you have any skeletons?

There's a skeleton in everybody's closet

I can think of one or two in my own room

But I would like to introduce them both to you

Shake their bony hands and so dispell the gloom



'Cause you're so kind

I know you would not mind

Send away the ghosts that haunt me now

And the things I fear

Just wouldn't seem so near

And when I stroll out late at night

There would be nothing rattling at my heels



There are nights when all my aching bones won't let me sleep

Demons come to plague me as I lie in bed

But I know if you were sleeping there beside me then

That you could fend them off and they would let me rest



There are nights

When the wind comes howling through my old place

I have dreams

And I wake up with the sweat pouring down my face

And I wait till the morning comes



There will come a time I fear when all my days are done

And they will come collect my corpse and bury me

But I hope you'll come over to the Other Side

To join me in our new life, keep me company

But Most Of All We're At War With Ourselves...

wow March 17th eh... was that really the last time I blogged??

ok so ... what to say....

how about what I think about what was going on this past week....

Terri Schiavo... glad she finally passed on... I can't believe that we still treat our animals better than we treat fellow human beings... do I think she should have had the feeding tube.. no... is that my opinion... yes... and I'm entitled to it. Of course throughout North America because of her case... I think every couple married or otherwise have now talked about the "what if's" ... what if that happens to us ... what if that happens to our kids....

well if you haven't talked about it with your significant other... wow I applaud you for your self control... anyway Raistlan and I have talked about it... neither one of us would want that.... as a matter of fact if there was no chance of us living normally again... call Dr Jack and have him over for tea....
However I don't believe we've discussed what would happen if it was one of our kids...
hmm I'll have to bring that up tomorrow...

the Pope.... well you know I'm not Christian/Catholic or of any off branch of Christianity... however I do believe he was a good man and he served with honour and dignity as the pope... he just seemed like a nice guy... I'm sorry he's gone...

Micheal Jackson... ok... my take on Micheal has always been... the poor guy never got to be a kid... he was on stage by the time he was 5... was expected to grow up really quickly... so he decides that he's going to live out his childhood by having sleep overs and building his own amusement park so that other children who are having to grow up quickly for one reason or another can be a kid when they are at his place.... do I think he molested these kids... no... I really don't... do I know for sure that he didn't... no... but then again nobody really does... do I think he's a lil weird... yeah I do... I mean seriously he's whiter then I am... and I'm a lil canadian fat chick that never gets out in the sun... do I believe that people are going to try to take advantage of him... yes I do... people nowadays are always looking for the easy money... and whats the easiest way to get some... hit someone up who has lots... and then when they realize what you're up too... sue them and get more...

So now would ya like to know what I've been up too?

well too bad... lol

working... hardly...lol every day for the past two weeks I've been allowed to go home early....whether it was 15 minutes into my shift or half an hour before my shift was up...hell on thursday I was allowed to go home before my shift started...so thats whats going on on the work front...

Raistlan and I are going to buy a car as long as the guy who's selling it too us isn't a procrastinator...I'll let ya in on all the info once it goes thru...but YAY! to the getting a car...

I have been playing the gamecube with Raistlan most nights after dinner... it's been fun.. I've gotten him addicted to the Sims... considering he said he didn't like the game... we now own the original Sims, Sims Bustin' Out, and The Urbz... my fav would have to be The Urbz...

I hate my cat... the communist toad has gotten out twice...and has stopped eating... I was thinking of naming it Terry...but thought that was a bit harsh... feckin thing hasn't eaten in three weeks.. I have no idea how it's still alive...some how the crickets have been getting out of the cricket keeper... and scaring the shit out of me most nights... to the point where one night I had a dream that crickets were jumping up on my bed and crawling on it... ick!

Keenan named his fish "Chicken Huntin'" think I said that before... but it's still funny... anyway... it's a frigging pig fish I swear...it eats so much... thats it on the animal front...

Keenan will be 4 on thursday.... he's decided he wants to go bowling for his birthday... frankly I didn't know he remembered what bowling was... anyway... so a bunch of screaming hooligans with bowling balls.. I'll definately let ya know how that goes....

and to top off my week... I log onto my computer for the first time in what seems like months...actually turn on my messenger programs to chit chat with people and I come across a message in my offlines... if you've been with the blog a long time you know how strange my life was this time last year... anyway.. I was writing about someone named Night... well anyway.. for my friends who are reading this.. I got a strange extremely vague message from his new bride... it stated that she would like to talk to me and gave me her email address...

so this should prove to be interesting... and yeah I sent her an email ;)

thats all folks....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULIE!!!!