Went to a practice skate on Sunday (yes even though I didn't have my gear yet) I'm glad I did, it just made me want to get out there even more. Burton was out on her skates for the first time and she did great! No falls at all...I can only hope for the same when I get out there.
I'm so excited...!
We were in the covered rink but then some ball hockey guys showed up for a game so we all moved to the outside rink. I just kept looking at the Man saying 'I so wish I had my gear'.
Just found out that there will be another skate for us on Thursday...which is a bonus as my gear is supposed to be here for Wednesday (though secretly I'm hoping it comes in tomorrow).
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| Me being cheeky! |
I'm feeling great...in the last two weeks there has been such a change...and my boys have been great...
My extreme diet change...well I would have never believed it if it wasn't for having to do it...taking out all sugars, wheat and other starches...I'm not feeling bloated, drained, tired... I was so proud of myself today...I got up and walked downtown and walked home...couple of weeks ago I would want to walk downtown and back but I'd make it one way or the other but not both... I also came home all smiles because I didn't need to use my inhaler while I was out...I haven't had to use the baclofen for the last two weeks either... my cramps...omg this is the first time in years where I haven't had at least one full day in bed during my period due to the pain of the cramps...(I know TMI...but fuckit)
I was wearing my yoga pants and a tank top this afternoon and I turned sideways and back to the Man and asked him if I looked any different...He said that yeah I did that I looked more compact...lol
I told him that I was feeling much more 'put together'...I don't feel thinner or skinnier...nothing that dramatic yet...but I don't feel bloated and fat everyday like I did before...so glad to be feeling like this before I strap on my skates...
I think for my own knowledge I'll be asking the Man to help me out by taking weekly pics of me in my bra and panties so that I can actually see the difference as I lose weight and as Burton puts it 'become badass' :)
I don't want to be 'skinny' ... I don't find that attractive...but I want to be healthy...
every time I start to weaken one of my boys have been right there for me... when I crave something they're the first ones to look at me and say 'No Mum, that's not allowed anymore' ... lol
I confided to Burton the other night that my depression as been going to the wayside as well...it used to be that every day I would wake up feeling somewhat good...but by the time I went to bed at night I'd be close to tears feeling so low and alone...and unloved.
Now though... I'll get twinging moments where I'll stop and wonder and then I'm able to shake myself out of it ...
I can't wait to go back to the doctor's on this Wednesday to let him know how much better I feel and thank him for taking the time to listen to me...
I heart you Big Daddy...thank you ;)
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