Making Tail, Watching Zombies, Maybe Dying...

Spoke too soon I believe...

Been having some real bad cramping the last couple of days...so much so that the man left a few minutes ago to buy me a new hot water bottle from the drug store...

We both agree that my body is rude....giving me a couple of days where I was fine and feeling good...and then suddenly a couple of days later it decides to start cramping and purging worse then a binge eater...

So today...taking it easy...having a The Walking Dead Marathon that started last night...2 episodes to finish season one....then we're going to hunker down and spend the rest of the day/evening watching season two...

My idea? Not in the least... I effin' hate zombies...but since I'm feeling so horrible...I'm easily swayed by my children...lol

So going to sit here...making a tail and watching zombies...yep...maybe eat something...

oh...

and going to try not to die from all my insides falling out...

And Life Goes On...

They said to expect 2 to 3 days up to possibly 2 weeks of bleeding like a normal to heavy menstrual cycle.

What they didn't ever say was that there was a possibility that there'd be no bleeding... yeah I'm a bit mystified by it.

Had some pretty bad cramping yesterday when I came to in the hospital, and was bleeding then...came home and took a couple of advil...was a bit dizzy and nauseous from the anesthetic... had a good sleep last night...

Still had some slight cramping today but for the most part...no bleeding...

Not sure if I should be happy or worried. *shrugs*

I was doing some laundry today...did some dishes...didn't feel much different then any other day...but still been real good about not lifting anything heavy or too physical ...even though I felt as though I should be doing some other stuff...

did light things...did some more sewing...been making yoga pants and dresses from old t-shirts that are too big for me now...or just don't suit me much any more...

pulled down my suitcase and garment bag but still seems a bit too early to start packing...ya know since I only have so much clothing that'll fit at the moment...

been gathering some 'things' and some 'stuff' to start packing up... but a bit unsure of how things'll be in Reno... especially the weather...

good news though...I'll be all healed up and won't have to take it easy while I'm there...even though I'll likely be getting my R & R on while I'm down there...

I'm getting really excited...it's already next week when I leave...hoping that my ankle holds up on the 20th with walking through airports and shit...

The Man and I were talking about what we're going to do tomorrow...he was thinking of going to work out...I might just go and walk the track... I'm not allowed to swim or workout yet...

Some odd things on the list of do's and don'ts...but the most odd one was for 12 hours after surgery I wasn't to cook or use electrical appliances...no reasons why...just don't do it... lol

I should look it up to see if there is a reason listed somewhere.

Birthday Wishlist...
See Pacific...
Layers by Scentsy combo - Daily Layers - Satin Sheets
Lose my belly fat
Nook Colour
Roller Derby Shirt a Month Club :)
iTouch
iPhone
Vibrator
Fancy Underpants

Pyramid Lake 2010

FML.

I have to have surgery on Monday afternoon....

I go in at noon... 2 hrs before the surgery itself...I can't help but think, that time is going to do nothing but make me worry worse...I'm hoping they'll give me a sedative before they knock me out...

Going to have my lady bits scraped out...yep doesn't that sound like fun... nothing like having surgery less then two weeks before going out on vacation...

I'm still not 100% after my ankle fracture... and now I have to go under again to have something else done... what else am I going to have to go through before the end of the year...

Had a conversation with Big Daddy tonight...the timing on it sucked...big time...seems he went out for a breakfast with a lady from work... dunno where that's going... don't want to think about it right now... like I said... bad timing and all...

All I can hope right now is that my birthday doesn't suck... I'm not even all about the acknowledgement and presents this year...

really right now...I just want to stop being hormonal...want my tits to stop hurting...and I want to get my weight back under control...I haven't been eating right...or sleeping right...

I want to get to Reno...lay on Big Daddy's couch and read a book in complete silence...and not have to worry about anything...and maybe see the Pacific... really want that...

I'm not supposed to smoke for two days before my surgery...but been so stressed I've been smoking more...

Yeah...think I need to go to bed...I'm tired and feeling a bit like crying

Weigh In #6 cont'd

Ok so I remembered today to get up and actually check my weight...which I was told not to do until my ankle was 100% better...but figured I started doing weigh in's once a month so  I'll keep it up...

Even though my results aren't really making me very happy...

Weight for this month is 184 lbs (+4lb)

I hate this I"m slowly creeping back up again...seems like I should just lay around from now on because when I was doing that I lost 17 lbs...now that I'm working on actually losing weight, toning muscle and getting into shape...I seem to gain it all...

*sighs*

well as long as I keep seeing minus signs from month to month when doing my body measurements I'll try to not get too discouraged....but I"m understanding why it is that people quit that's for damn sure....

Weigh In #6

Having some issues this month with the girly bits and therefore doesn't surprise me that my hips and belly and tits might be a bit wider...
fuckin girl parts...


Ankles - Left 9.5 (+0.5) Right 8.75 (+0.25)
Calf  - Left 15 (+0.5) Right 15.5 (+0.5)
Thighs - Left 23.5 (+0.5) Right 23 (-1)
Hips - 44 (+1.25)
Belly - 40.5 (-0.5)
Waist - 34 (-1)
Under bust - 34 (same)
Over Bust - 42 (+2)
Neck - 14 (-0.5)
Wrists - Right  6.5 (+0.25) Left 6 (-0.25)
Forearm - Right 10 (-0.5) Left 10 (-0.25)
Biceps - Right 13.5 (+0.75) Left 13.25 (-0.25)


I forgot to pull out the scale this morning so I'll have to add that tomorrow...knew I forgot something...