No No No No Don't Phunk With My Heart...

ok so I tried to post an entry the other day here and blogger posted only my title... that was fucked up... spent over an hour typing out a witty and funny and dramatic and heart wrenching post and poof... blogger sucked it out into cyber space... I was so pissed that it took me two days to calm down enough to sit down and type anything...

So.. Sunday was no fun... I ended up in the hospital in what they called an SVT... pretty much I had a cardiac episode and my heart was going wonky again... heart rate was 181 bpm... so they hooked me up to a bunch of machines and injected some kind of drug called denizen... it is horrible... it made it feel like everything in my body had stopped... I couldn't breathe, I couldn't focus, I could barely move, I couldn't feel my heart anymore... it was absolutely horrible... it lasted about 5 seconds... but it was the longest 5 seconds in my life... I literally felt like I was dying...

So I called my cardiologist today and told the receptionist about the visit to the ER... she scheduled me for a follow-up... after my last appointment I was supposed to call and let them know where I want to go to have some sort of procedure/surgery done... my choices are either Toronto (which if I go there could go in and get it done in 4 to 6 weeks) or Hamilton (which if I go there could take 4 to 6 months)... I don't know how to spell the procedure however I can explain it to ya ;)
they want to go into an artery in my leg, go up and into my heart, bother my heart until it starts freaking out and then they want to zap (the doctors words not mine) a nerve that is misbehaving... I'm sorry let me repeat that.... THEY WANT TO USE A LASER ON THE INSIDE OF MY HEART!!! anyway... if they slip I will end up with a pacemaker... A FUCKING PACEMAKER!!! at 27 years old...
so you can probably see why I haven't called them back yet...
but I think I've decided...
I think I'll go to Toronto... :(

So thanksgiving was on monday... went to Mum's house and had turkey with all the fixin's... it was fantastic... we need to have big turkey dinners more often in the year... :D

So with all the crap thats been going on with everybody's health I haven't been able to get back to the gym... I'm hoping to go back this week and get my routine back going again...

I have started a night class once a week that I am absolutely loving :D I'm taking a spanish class with my sister on Tuesdays... we're gettin all practiced up for when we go to Cuba in January :D

anyway... gotta run.. I need to get to sleep I have to drive Raistlan into work in a few hours