You be like that its that big man we all up tonight

Life is never dull around here I tell you what... lol

well at least not on Sundays...

As I sit and watch the tentacle porn that is Species II ... I sit and think about the night I've just had...

It started out with me having a somewhat deep-ish conversation with one person...about psychology and how I find him somewhat fascinating because of some of the issues that he has...

While talking with him I get a call from a drunk who proceeds to tell me how much he's had to drink and amusingly enough continues on to tell me about how if I left my two men how he could make me 100% happy and how he still likes to look at pictures of me, about how he's had to take pills since we had been together because no one else could ever make him as hard as I could, how no one will ever compare to me in his life ever again and how I had scared him all those years ago with how I had made him feel like no one else had made him, oh yes and him telling me about certain body parts of mine that he misses....

so while trying to talk to those two another pops up, this one is a little more sweet, I've had nothing to do with him but idle conversation he doesn't ever want to see me naked unless it were right in front of him and he thinks I'm some sweet innocent angel of sorts... he had been trying to help me last night with my computer issue I've been having...he was popping around to see if I had been able to figure out the issue yet... alas I had not...

So while dealing with these three up pops a message from the man I've been waiting for... I look forward to my Sundays because that seems to be the day that we get to spend some time together... Big Daddy... *dreamy sigh* .. first one finds his way to bed, I tell the third one that I can't talk as he knows where my attentions lay... so there I am talking with the drunk and texting back and forth with Big Daddy... I was in the midst of telling the drunk that I had to go, while laughing at his confusing verbal spewage... when suddenly Big Daddy stopped messaging me... so listened to the drunk until he was ready to pass out...

and thus my weekly talk with Big Daddy got fuckered and I am not happy...

It sucks when you wait a week to talk to somebody about something and then they just disappear while talking... oh well guess I'll have to wait to tell him next week...

On a brighter note... I'm feeling better then I was a blog post or two ago... though I've been really tired...really dragging my ass around, feeling like I'm not getting enough sleep even though I'm sleeping until 2...3...4 sometimes even 5 in the afternoon.... less pukey though... yay!

I've resigned from both Lions and Distress Centre Niagara... I had tried to resign last year from Lions but they decided to help me out for the rest of the year... I wasn't going to ask them to do that again...so instead I just left.

I felt under appreciated, overwhelmed and unheard in both places, so started wondering why it was I was still there when I had other things I could be doing with my time...

I suppose I'll have to find other distractions... one on my plate is the Relay for Life Cancer Walk for next year...I'm trying to raise money for my team for next years walk....

People have asked me why I'm suddenly interested in helping the Canadian Cancer Society... I wrote a message for my personal page that I'm going to share here as well...

Cancer and I...
I participated in the Relay for Life this past June down in my hometown...
It hit me a lot harder then I thought it would...and more then I let on...
I had grandparents with cancer, I've had friends who have battled cancer or lost parents and grandparents to cancer...I've known some who have fallen because of the wretched disease and those who have survived it...
Being there reminded me of the time in my own life when I was younger and had to go through not knowing whether or not I had cervical cancer...
I remember being so scared... so uncertain of the future... wondering what I would go through if I ended up having it...wondering what would happen if I died from it... wondering what would happen to my children if I died...
As I recalled all of this while walking around the track at my old high school I realized that I needed to do what I could to try to raise money for the cancer society...to do what I could to help out...