What Could Ya Do With A Drunken Hillbilly

ok so I called the doc today....

I'm pissed...

they sent my info to Hamilton rather then to Toronto... receptionist told me that she knows nothing about timeframes... and gave me the phone number to the Arrythmia Centre...

called the centre... first woman I talked to told me says "well darlin' you're not in the pile on my desk...I'll transfer you over to the other girl"

next woman (Diane) says... "I'm processing patients from September hun... when did your doctor send in your paperwork..."
Me "umm about a few weeks ago"
Diane "oh yeah hun I wouldn't have gotten to you yet"
Me "uh..."
Diane "your file gets assigned to a doctor, they assess it to see how urgent it is and then from there we assign you a date"
Me "and you're still processing people from september??"

Needless to say I was not a happy fucking camper...

I'll be calling my cardiologist tomorrow to have my stuff sent to Toronto where it was supposed to be sent the first time... whichever one calls me first and gives me a date first will be the one I'm gonna go with... fuckers

anyway...post more later

Make Up Your Mind and I'll Make Up Mine, Don't Worry About Me I'll Be Fine....

did you ever think that maybe I just needed somebody to talk to... did you ever think that me sending that message however weird it seemed... was me reaching out to talk to someone while I sat here alone at my desk... just listening to music and trying to drink myself into oblivion...

why at all would you think that.... because I'm the one that is usually cracking jokes and being there for everyone else... why in the hell would I need anybody right?

Thank you.... thank you for the big fat nothing... thanks for the support... the show of caring ... understanding... maybe some fucking empathy...

whatever... its alright... I just won't do it anymore... no more serious conversations... I'm fine your fine thats fucking fantastic...

Why should you care... no one ever asked you too... and you never said you would... I guess it was an assumption... I'm sorry I'll try not to make anymore...

I'm sorry if I inconvienced you in anyway...

You are one of the few people in this entire god forsaken place that I can talk to... about everything... anything... you have known about stuff that no one else has...

why do you keep me around? Do you need me for any part of your life? Do I fit into a category of any kind? Do I have anything thats unique to the others?

Money, Money, Money, Money....

Is there anyway to forget that you are an ordained minister??

Apparently there is... because I completely forgot that I did the course and got the letter... back in 2002... {wow so the people I've slept with since then can honestly say they've had sex with a minister... (lmfao)}

was cleaning out my desk the other night... and came across the letter that was sent to me that I could use as a reference... so hey thats cool...

what was that? oh... a minister with what church...? The Church Of Seven Planes... I fell in love with this organization because of the fact that their motto is... "One God...Many Names" and thats what I always taught (when I was still teaching)... tolerance is key. Just because someone doesn't call God the same name you do doesn't make them bad or wrong...

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I can't wait til you get here :P even if I only get to see ya for a couple hours :)

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Might write more if I find anything interesting...

Is There Anyone Out There Cause It’s Getting Harder And Harder To Breathe

So even tho its under warranty the muffler guy wouldn't look at the muffler system... fucker...
what the hell? I just wanted to know if they could put a clamp on it.. my junk is hangin a bit low (that would have sounded even more perverted if this was a guys blog)
dude told us to go get a full diagnostic done on the car... oh yeah sure... like thats cheap...

Drove to Raistlans dads house... he wasn't home... YaY! ... picked up a brake cap... yeah I think thats what it was...

Went to visit Jester... boy I've kinda missed him... he was good today... not as spacey as some days... anyway I'll see him again on Saturday...

went over to my mom's house.... no one was home... YaY! ... made a snack while I was there said hi to the dog...

was on our way home... decided to go to Krammit's house... it was like a test for Raistlan and I... I haven't had a cigarette in over 4 weeks... he hasn't had one for about 4 weeks... Krammit is a smoker...

We were there for about an hour or so... because I was supposed to go to work tonight... (little background info... I'm allergic to bun buns [bun buns = rabbits] when I was pregnant with Gambit I had a bun bun and after I gave birth to Gambit all of a sudden I was allergic )

Ok so not only is Krammit a smoker... but she has a bun bun... normally bun buns in small doses are ok.. they don't bother me... and normally smoke wouldn't either... but wow .... I got in the car and started heading home and all of a sudden I couldn't breathe... and my inhaler was at home...
(*rolling eyes* gawd... my inhaler... I feel like a fucking... well we won't go there) I had to stop in Welland and get Raistlan to drive because I was lulling in and out of focus and conciousness... lulled in and out all the way home... got home... got my inhaler and passed out... Raistlan called in for me...
two days... I am on the schedule for only two stinkin' days this week.. and I just called in sick for one of them... god... anyway... I'll probably go in tomorrow even tho I'm not scheduled... we need some spending money for yule (which is sneaking up way to quickly)

so I've spent the evening in bed... trying to feel better...

all of my insides are vibrating/shaking like you wouldn't believe... my head is very fuzzy... I can't concentrate... and if I move to fast my heart rate sky rockets... I'm not well today...

I snuck out of bed just to type this...

I hate snow.. it was snowing all day... blecch...

quick question.... is there a such thing as topic specific search engines... I know there are search engines for porn, search engines for cracks, cheats and codes for games, and search engines for shopping... but I need a search engine for recipies... omg that would be too cool... a search engine that searches all the webpages for recipies... anyone know of one?

I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away

Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Fuckin Snow.....

I firmly believe that everyone should do some good... in the way of volunteering...
whether its helping an elderly neighour, or serving meals at a hospital, joining a service organization... I believe that everyone should volunteer... but it should be a joy that you bring into your own life... It shouldn't feel like a burden... if it feels like its bringing you down rather than lifting you up... get out... get out as soon as you can... volunteering is just that... it's volunteering... you are there because you want to be.. and you realize that you are not getting paid... if all of a sudden volunteering feels more like going to work... you need to find a new way to volunteer...

there is no better feeling in the world then the feeling you get when you help someone.

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When someone lies to you and you find out about it... how does that make you feel?
When someone makes you into a scapegoat and you find out about it... how does that make you feel?
When someone puts you down...how does that make you feel?
When someone treats you and your family like shite.... how does that make you feel?

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If you feel that there is something missing in your life... it's probably because there is.... If you feel like you are not being treated in a manner that you believe you should be treated... then... why be in that situation?

If somebody lies to you once do you think that they'll do it again?

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I look into the eyes of my baby boys... I never want to see sadness there... If I saw sadness there on a regular basis because of the way somebody was treating them... I would be homicidal.... If you cause my children pain or sadness... you better run for the hills... it break my heart to think that somebody could treat children badly... I don't even like my husband disciplining my children... because somedays I get so mad at him... for raising his voice or sending them to their room or what not...
To all the women and mothers out there... if someone was mean to your children what would you do?

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incase you hadn't noticed I'm kind of having random thought day today... figured I was about due since it's been awhile...

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Tonight was the first night for snow... yep it snowed... :( was hoping it would wait a little longer... we don't have a snowbrush for the car yet ... so when I finished work I hand to wipe off the back window with my hand... man that was cold... turned on the defroster on the back window but still... would of taken to long to melt it off... *sigh* I hate snow... after 27 years of it... it starts to get a little old... I'm starting to get in the christmas spirit a bit... unlike last year... last year I didn't even put a tree up... this year for the last couple of weeks I've been trying to figure out where I'm going to put up the tree... oh yeah that and I'm starting to freak out about money and whether or not I'll have enough :( (we never have enough) I got the most awesome gift for Raistlan... I'd let ya in on what it is... but he reads my blog everyday... so y'all will have to find out after he does... but ooooooo its good :D

enh alright I'm off... tomorrow (well today actually but don't fuck me up like that) is payday so we'll be shopping and making miracles happen with no money... :D

And The Beat Goes On.....

Had an episode today...

instead of writing about it twice so I wrote it once and you can go to this link and read it...

but only if you want...

I hope tomorrow goes better...

What A Way To Make A Living...

I have bruises on the palms of my hands... my feet have blisters and hurt... I can barely stand up straight... I smelt of beer.. and was called a cocksucker twice to my face by a drunk groom-to-be infront of his bride-to-be, his father-in-law-to-be.... all to make a measely 75 dollars plus tips...

and what will you do for money?

me? ...apparently I'll sling beer and shots at a stag and doe for apprx 300 people...

long story...

went back to work today...

Boy was that a joke....

systems had been down all day... phones were wigging out... customers could hear us but we couldn't hear them... it wasn't just our office it was company wide... thats like 8 offices....

at first my phone was fine it was as soon as I said those fateful words... "Mine's working fine" my next call lasted 45 minutes because I was trying to be helpful.. from what I understood from the guy... I was the third person he had spoken too that had phone troubles and he REALLY needed help... so I felt bad...
yeah he needed my help soooo bad...why?
because he had signed up at ebay and couldn't find the ebay confirmation email... someone stab me.... 45 fuckin minutes...

all I have to say is thank the Gods I don't have to work for the next two days ... lol

SUCKERS!!!

You No Longer Exsist In My World, In My Heart....

I think the rating site that I put my pic on had a brain fart.. all of a sudden yesterday I no longer exsisted... :O

I couldn't believe it... I was mad.. I was doing fairly well... not the greatest but then I never really expected too...

But to all of a sudden be erased :( thats not cool...

so I'm all set up on it again....

so... could you do me a favour.... GO VOTE!! again :D

thanks guys :D

Too Stern On Stern...

So today on the way home from driving Raistlan to work I was listening to Howard Stern...

Just as I was pulling into the driveway, they were playing a clip of two senators talking about the scheduling on the American Forces Radio... well they decided to use Howard Stern as an example...

The one guy had asked what the conditions were for being put on the AFR and the other guy answered that "you had to have a syndicated show that had over 1 million listeners..." so the first guy said "well if those are the only requirements why don't we have the Howard Stern show on there as well it seems that maybe there are other conditions as well that we don't know about"

so Senator 2 said some shite about Howard Stern being offensive and how there are lots of people that find his radio show and its content offensive.
Senator 1 replied with "so you're admiting that there are other criteria for what gets played on the ARF"

So it goes on like that for atleast another minute until Sentor 1 says to Senator 2 "well there are people out there that believe that Rush Limbaugh is offensive and his content has a lot to be desired" They aren't putting somebody like Howard on because they think that the Arabs will find it offensive....

Well anyway thats how the conversation/debate went on for a few minutes... until Howard turned it off...

But they debate would have been interesting to finish... because serioiously... who's the judge of what thousands of people would find offensive... Have you listened to Howard Stern lately?? seriously he's nowhere near as bad people believe he is... he just speaks bluntly about whats on his mind.. which a lot of the time happens to be tits and ass.. he's just like everyother American male.. except one thing... he made it look and sound good... and has his own radio show...

I will be one of the first to point out that I don't agree with most of the things that Rush Limbaugh has too say in the least...

I'm not political... everyone else tells me what I am.. I've been labeled a Liberal... as a matter of fact I might a guy that as soon as he found out I was Canadian he nodded and said "yep, Liberal"...
I just shrugged and said whatever... lol

but in my opinion I think if they're gonna have one side of the coin on the American Forces Radio (Rush Limbaugh) then why not have the other side of the coin (Howard Stern)

shouldn't it be up to the troops? shouldn't they get a say in what they would like to listen too??

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So I have a tip for you...
Todays tip - Don't fry bacon on the range naked... as a matter of fact don't fry any food naked...

People Are Strange When You're A Stranger, Faces Look Ugly When You're Alone...

So I put my pic up on a different site and took the hotornot site... apparently they don't like fat chicks there... lol

So here's my pic on the new site... so help a girl out ;) go vote :D

All I ask is that you be nice ;)

So I still haven't heard from Toronto... *sigh* I think I might call my cardiologists office and see if there is something amiss... and see if we can't get on this... before I end up in the hospital again... they're getting worse and the after effects are lasting longer... what's a girl gotta do to get some heart surgery around here... ;)

I think whether they call or not I may start my med leave in the middle of December or so...
That would give me until April or May depending on when I take it...

Spanish was fun tonight.. we had a substitute teacher tonight... she was short and cute... she spoke a lot slower to us so we could understand her better... she was real nice...

I did some of my homework... but I still have more to do... lol

I'm avoiding again ... lol

He Rocks In The Treetops All Day Long...Rockin' and a Boppin' and a Singing His Song...

I'm A Spoiled Brat ...

Raistlan is not too keen on birds... he thinks they are noisy creatures...

I love birds... I think they're pretty... especially the real pretty ones... lol :P

so since I'm a spoiled brat and my man loves me more than anything... he bought me a beautiful pair of Lovebirds... they are quite pretty...

theres just one thing...

the guy we bought them from says they are not a breeding pair... which leads him to believe that they are both...

male...

yep I have Gay lovebirds... it's great... lol no but seriously... he had them for a year and they never produced any eggs... so he thinks they're male...

so yep gay birds...

their names are Raistlan and Sairys :D (yeah it's corny... but hey they're my birds :P) and Sairys isn't a gender specific name so there... :P

My man loves me neener neener neener... :D

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I feel like because of one man's insecurities I've lost the chance of making a good friend.
Someone who I have a fair bit in common with... all because of his insecurities...

Don't Want To Be An American Idiot, The Subliminal Mind Fuck America

So yeah I lasted 2 whole hours at work tonight.... *sigh*

I couldn't take it... was getting chest pains... and was too distracted by them...

but man had a couple of doozy's before I left work...

one guy called to yell at me that his cable had been off "ALL DAY" ... so when I asked him what the lights on his modem were doing... he answered with " the standby light is on"
Me "do you have a standby button on the top of your modem?"
Him"uh... yeah"
Me "could you push that button for me please?"
Him *sigh* "yeah I guess"
Me tight lipped "thank you"
Him "oh wow its back on"
Me (smacking myself in the head with my keyboard while phone is on mute)
Him "thanks... bye"
click...

I hate stupid people

theres others... but... alas I don't have the energy to type out the conversations...

you know.. one of the things I've learnt in the last couple of years... lying isn't worth it... I tried it...
I tried to spare Raistlans feelings by lying to him before... all it did was blow up... and he lost faith in me... and it took me a long time to get his trust back...
Now after that long road... everything is fucking awesome... was it worth it.. I dunno... I don't know if we would have ended up here without going there first... so it does make one wonder...

So my question to all of you my faithful readers....

Is there ever a good reason or good time to lie about something?
c'mon let's talk about this one....

Gimmie Yop Me Mama, Yop Me Mama, Yop's For When The Morning Comes...

I have a four year old for sell.... anyone want him?? :P
he makes so many messes in a day it's no where near funny anymore... when FACS decided to come for their visit a few months ago... she was nodding saying well this is good enough I guess... I was standing there thinking... "sheesh lady this is the cleanest it's been in here and thats only because the four year old has been preoccupied for two days" (he was at a friends house) lol

anyway onto the post.... hmmm

I hate work... I don't want to go to work... I'm sick and tired of listening to whiney americans complain that their internet isn't working... or listen to them complain that they "have to" have their services because they run a business from home...blah blah blah... well ya know what mother fucker... there is bigger things in this world then your internet service... and you know what... with the type of internet cable you have it specifically states that you would not be running a business from it.. and you clicked the "I agree" button... so fuck you and your stupid lil ebay business...

*sigh*

I needed the vent... but didn't help too much.... I still have to go there and answer stupid questions for five hours... the money sucks... and when there is down time between calls, then you have to listen to some of the lamest conversations... *sigh*

I'll be home around 11:30pm... anyone who wants to hear me vent and or talk to me... feel free to send me a message when ya see me come online.... LOL

well here I go.... off to Hell I go...

Evito Mis Deberes en este momento

Just an offhand question...

If you found out that your spouse was talking to not one but two of your exes what would you think?

*laughing hysterically* ok no... that was just a question that popped into my head... only one person who reads my blog would understand it... lol

I'm avoiding....

I'm avoiding doing my homework like a good little girl... I have an assignment that I have to do for my Spanish class... it's due in about 4 hours and I haven't started it... I'm a Baaaaad Guuuuurrrl....

wanna spank me...

;)
Anyway... so yeah I'm cruising around on peoples blogs.... going thru my list... that one over there ------>
yes I actually read all those blogs on a regular basis... now you know why I don't have my spanish assignment done.... lol

Hey did I mention a couple of months ago Raistlans social security number finally got here... YAY!!
it took almost a full year for them to get him a SSN... damn those people are slow... so yeah now if we want to we can move to the states and he can get a job there... maybe we'll stick him in the military >:) LMAO

bah... ok I have to go do my assignment....maybe I'll post it later... then Anna can tell me how bad it is... lol

Mis Deberes - Mi Casa