The smile upon your face tells you the truth ... You’re exactly where you wanna be

omg went to bed last night such a happy girl... If I could talk to Big Daddy every day, most know that I would be just fucking tickled pink all the time... lol

well last night we were sending texts back and forth from I dunno like 9pm until 3am... so yeah... fell asleep a very happy girl...

I've been feeling really kind of crafty lately... yeah I know not the bet segue but deal with it... anyway... in the spring I always suddenly just wanna create stuffs... So last night after finishing up a couple of the Tree of Life ornaments that I wanted to try out ... I ended up taking photos of all the jewelry I've made that I still have... that was a lot of time... I still need to resize them as well... but... I wanted to put up the two trees I made... I'm thinking of trying an actual tree this evening while I sit and watch tv with the Man and the Boychild...


The other sort of crafty type thing I'm working on is somewhere in the next week or so I'll be putting my hair up in a sort of hybrid of braids/dreads...I just need to go and pick up a couple balls of wool :)

It will essentially look like this... providing I do them correctly... I'll end up posting pics when I've finished.

Another bad segue coming your way...

So I tried out my new enhanced license for the first time by going to Buffalo with Burton for an International Dinner our friend was putting on. I was very happy that we had no issues at the border. Got to the church (where the dinner was being held) and boy am I glad that we didn't wait much longer about going... the food was almost gone when we got there. We had shown up about 20 minutes after starting time... this months meal was Irish.. lots of 'taters :)

After the dinner we invited back to The Pirates pad... I love their home... I couldn't help how much Pirate Girl  reminds me of my Aunt ABC... I wonder if The Pirates are parrotheads like my aunt is... I'll have to ask. I gave Pirate Girl her bridal gift (waaaay early - her shower and wedding isn't until October) she seemed really genuinely happy with it.
Sometimes I'm not to sure about how the stuff I make for people will be received. Her reaction though definitely was worth it. She put the necklace and earrings on right away and then went running to the kitchen to show her Pirate Boy.
It'll make me very sad if I lose touch with her just because of the other bullshit that's going on and will eventually blow up. I'm not really wanting that day to come yet... but I know my aunt too well... it will.
I wish I had taken a picture of the set I did for her...might send her a message and ask her to take a pic of them so that I can keep them in my album.


Rawr!

Now I'm Free....Free Falling ... Falling...

I just had an awesome dream that when I woke up made me feel very sad...

I have a friend who lives far away and sometimes when they come to visit we don't really have any time to spend together...and nowadays when I do get to see them I feel like I'm squeezed somewhere into their agenda...

In the dream they had come for a visit again and I had assumed that there wouldn't be time for any sort of visit with me so I didn't even ask about it this time... and was pleasantly surprised when they came to get me and we did all sorts of things together... went shopping, sightseeing, lunch and just hung out together... it was really nice I was really happy to get to hang with them...

I was invited to go to a party and they came with me... and we all had a really good time...after the day we had they were tired so went back to their hotel as I left with some others to go somewhere else after the party... just about to leave and the friend waved the car down just so they could have another hug... they smiled and told me they'd call me the next day...

They did.

It was awesome... and yet when I woke up I was so sad.

I just knew that...well to be honest... that will never happen.
Guess that's what dreams are all about ... getting caught up with the thoughts of stuff that'll likely never happen.

Hell after the last time I did get to see them when they visited I wouldn't be surprised if I don't get to visit with them again.

I suppose we'll see.

There doesn't seem to be anyone around...

Yeah... so I'm a dumbass... came across this article in the local news... and read it and thought WTF?! and then linked it to my Facebook account... with of course my opinion on the subject within...

So after a few people made comments... my aunt made a comment about it being a joke... So I went back to the article and looked at the date... the spot I had looked the day before and sure enough it was now today's date... and I hung my head and mumbled... "I'm a fucking door knob" ... but I just shrugged it off and left the article up so that everyone could get a laugh out of the fact that apparently I had fallen for a silly April Fools joke put out by an isp...

So yeah... like I said... I'm a dumbass...oh well ;) seems it gave a few people a chuckle... so at least I could do that...

I"m sitting here...watching a show I've already watched... why you ask... well because a guy in the show seems to have the same heart condition I have... and they gave him a medication for it to stop his episodes... (WTF??) there's medicine that could help?? so I'm waiting around just to see if I could catch the name of the medication...so that I can look into it... again you ask why... well... because I got a referral to the cardiologist I wanted to go see.. yeah... my god damn fucking appointment is in September... I wanted to cry when it came in the mail...seriously...September? I've just sort have been left speechless... Probably going to call his office and get on some sort of waiting list for cancellations... or something... I truly don't believe he's that booked up...

... other updates to do... too exhausted to make 'em now...

Oh Uterus, How I Loathe Thee...

If you're male and are still reading past the title of my blog... you are a brave brave man... however I'm warning that this post is all about girl bits... so you may not want to read on...

I came to the conclusion a long time ago that my uterus hates me... I really tried to love it anyway since you know it is a part of my and all that jazz  - oh btw stole the title from Krammit's blog  (thanks for that Krammity-Jane) - so back to my bitching...

From the moment I got my monthly courses I knew I was in for a trippy ride... at least that's what I figured from all the shit they told us about in health class... I always had a rough time with cramps... but was always one of those really lucky girls that only got her period for 3 days... unlike some of my friends who got it for a full 7...

After I had my first son... my uterus I think got angry... for every time I had to go through the monthly uglies... the pain would be the equivalent of being in labour... for 3 days... hell my labour with the Manchild was only 9 hours...

After the Boychild... oh gods above it was fucking craziness... pain to the point of wanting to puke... pain so bad that I would snap at the Man and kids...

Then just to prove that it really hates me it just decides to not do it's job anymore... hence two years of taking fertility drugs...*mutters* hate you uterus...

I hate being on the verge of tears, so angry I could spit nails, in pain, and squishy between the legs all at the same time... it's no wonder that men think we're fucking psycho when we're bleeding... we don't know which way is up half the time...

The Man...and Big Daddy... are really good about my craziness... when I am and am not bleeding... lol

I want so badly right this second to rip off someone's face, slap them with their own tongue, want a hug, chew on red meat like some sort of wild animal, and cry... yes all at the same time... *le sigh*

So now I've been back on birth control for a whole month now... and I can honestly say that I think whatever doctor came up with the lame fucking sell point of 'helps menstrual cramps and acne' fuck them... I want to rip off their faces... the face part of their faces...

It's when I get like this that I know that I'd be capable of murder...

maybe if I'm still like this tomorrow instead of doing 'angry cleaning' I'll do a couple hours of 'angry working out'

meh...for any guy who read this... sorry... and... to quote one of the men in my life...

You keepin' close, you never fly away... While you in and out of every door... Flyin' back and forth, back and forth

God Damn Family Movies...they get me every fucking time... Just watched Marmaduke with the family... stupid talking dogs made me cry...

so ... my day... enh...

got up early... went to the mall... tried one of the new Timmy's fruit smoothies... um... Yum! got the mixed berry with yoghurt... omg mmmm... it was like my mouth was having a party... after that went to H&M to see about a sundress I saw that I was hoping would come in different colours... nope. Won't be going back... they have some pretty ugly clothing. Then we headed to our eye exams (The Man and I)... but another sundress caught my eye in another store... so quickly went in and looked at it...making a note to go back after our appointments...

went to the appointment and told the doctor about the issues I've been having with my vision... she believes I'm having Ocular Migraines... not exactly what I had thought but good to know that I'm not going blind...

so new glasses are ordered and on their way hoping to have them by the end of next week... she (the doc) put some sort of yucky yellow drops in my eyes...looked like I was crying lemonade...it was creepy... and then she used the dilation drops and man oh man did that suck walking outside afterward... I had on my sunglasses and still demanding the Man give me his hat as we walked over to the bus stop... I sifted through a huge pile of maybe glasses and brought the selection down to 6 pair... then I brought it down to four that I was going to see if the Man liked them or not...but had to go in for the last bit of my appointment now that my pupils were HUGE... as it was when I got out and was looking for glasses for the Man I found another pair... so I was back up to five pair... ends up... I went with the pair I chose last while I was looking for glasses for him... lol

I'll have to post a pic with the new specs when they get in...

So after all that fun and yes it was fun... told the women that worked there I wanted to come and work there they seemed to have fun...

We went for a sushi lunch...it was yummy for me... and alright for the Man. He didn't eat any of the rolls as they had the kelp/seaweed wrap and he can't stomach the taste of it... so he he'd other stuffs off the menu... what seemed to bother him the most was the noise... it gets really loud in there and today it seemed overly crowded... but he's my trooper...

We went home after that because it was getting close to the time that the Boychild would be home... I took the bus... the Man walked... I was already into a sushi coma and knew I wouldn't make it home walking...

He made it home before me... I was walking down the road in one direction toward home and the Boychild was walking from the other way... I have to say that from almost a block away I could tell the Boychild was angry about something... I saw the Man get up from where he was sitting and having his smoke and start walking toward the Boy... I took out my ear bud in time to hear the words "Friggin crying like a baby!" just before the door slammed...said by and slammed by the Boychild.... needless to say ---> o.O  was the look on my face... got the low down quickly from the Man and then headed in to talk to the Boychild... seems we were having a bit of a 'stick crisis'... The Boychild likes to bring home sticks that he likes so that he can play with them again later... yesterday he brought one home and left it in the front porch... today after school he saw the kid from around the corner carrying it... he kind of went off on the kid... gave him a bit of a push and took the stick back while yelling at him... So I sent the Man to the neighbours house to talk to them about why they were taking stuff out of our front porch... sent because frankly I didn't want to go back out into the sun, my eyes hurt and it was giving me a headache...

major crisis averted... :)

So then I had to get on the horn and call my mom to see if she would take me back to the eye place (had to drop off some forms) and then take me to the grocery store... just after placing that call Burton texted me and asked if I wanted to go with her to a sale at the book depot... I wanted to... but couldn't as I didn't know what was going on with the grocery shopping...sucks...they're having a sale on cook books... but good news... she sent me a text while I was shopping to let me know that the sale is going on all month long :)

I start a lot of sentences with 'So' ... hmm I'll have to stop that...

got home from doing all that... and was just too tired and sore to cook so thankfully the Man made up some burgers and fries...and we watched Anaconda...*teeheehee*  and then we watched Marmaduke... which brings back to the beginning of this post...

Somewhere in there I got a call from a friend of mine who is from Mississauga saying that he's in Welland...and he's in a shelter there because of some crazy shit that happened and some strangeness that ended him up in Welland...I need to get some more info in regards to that...