Happy New Years Eve...Fuckers!!

thats right it's not the new year yet...so get over ya selves :P

so today is the day where everyone reflect on the past year... and every station or channel has a top "whatever number" of 2005....

So I thought what the fuck why not have my own Top "Whatever Number It Gets Too" Moments/Memories Of 2005...
we'll discover the worst and best... why not...

1. Starting off the new year dancing in the middle of a dance floor with my man... having everyone yell happy new year... and we continue dancing and kissing on the dance floor like no one else in that ballroom existed.

2. Realizing that my 8yr old is not a my lil baby anymore, when he decides he doesn't want a birthday party with a bunch of kids, just wants to go to the movies with a friend.

3. Walking my 4 yr old to his first day of school trying to convince him and me that everyone would like him just fine and that everything was going to be ok, And then after dropping him off crying all the way home because I'm still not convinced.

4. All the tickle fights on the weekends with the whole family on my bed.

5. Finding out that my heart condition must obviously be getting worse as time goes by. Since I don't have the energy I used to, and the SVT episodes are becoming more frequent and longer each time.

6. Finding out that I'm not as forgettable as I thought I was. After not having a computer for months, having a warm welcome from all the friends that missed me while I was gone.

7. Quit smoking! (yes thank you thank you no applause just money)

8. Made a couple of new friends! Kept a couple of the old ones ;)

9. Got a car... even if it is a piece of shite!

10. My father came to visit me.

11. Got disappointed by a bunch of my friends on my birthday...all I can say about that is... Family. Blood is truly thicker than water ;)

12. Got to watch a hockey game (actually two in one night) with my Krammit for the first time !! (doubt she'll wanna do that again...*evil giggle*)

13. Decided that there were a couple of people that I didn't have to deal with, no matter how many people told me I did :D

14. Talked to a very good friend on the phone for a couple of hours and for once was not worried about the cost.

15. Going to Medieval Times for Sis and Raistlans birthday... and actually being able to keep it a surprise :)

16. Finding out that my Sis loves me so much that for my christmas present she's taking my mom and I to Cuba for a week long vacation ;)

17. Finding out that a very good friend of mine landed a job in Switzerland... after working in England for three years... Good Luck Squasha!!

18. Finding out that Moonie and Chris could finally get engaged....then hearing that they did officially get engaged.

Theres probably a whole lot more... but I haven't slept in what has felt like days... so thats the list ya get... If I think of anymore I might post them in here... but who knows...

this will be my very last post.....

of this year....

Another year has gone by... and while its been going its seemed as slow as molasses in January... but damn now that I'm sitting here watching the snow dumping down I realize that it did go by kind of fast....

I hope you can sit down for a few moments sometime today and reflect on your year that just zoomed by... maybe take a couple of notes about it... that way when you're old and gray... you can go back and remember them all over again...

For all my friends - may you have a wonderful new year!
For those I Love - I don't tell you nearly enough how much I appreciate and love you ;)
For my enemies - I hope when you get into a snowball fight the yellow one lands right in your mouth.
For my arch nemesis - Don't think I don't know what you said about me! I'm coming for you!!
For the people I don't know who read this - Have a safe New Years Eve celebration... and Have a good year... cause they're good tires ;)

By The Way.... never make new years resolutions... why in the hell would you want to start off a new year lying to yourself ;)

hmm...I have more to say but it doesn't deal with thise topic....hmm ok running over to my dead journal then to post that ;)

Happy New Years Eve Fuckers ;)

Half Nekkid Thursday

Yep its that time of the week again... Half Nekkid Thursday... not much to say about it today...



just took this picture the other day..

I have so much to say... yet at the same time I don't feel like I have the time to say everything... then I started to wonder well... even if I do put all of what I'm thinking down... who's really gonna care... some of my blog entries are so cryptic... because it needs to be said but I try to hide who I'm talking about so that I don't lose any friends... or so that I don't have to face the rejection... when I love I love hard and that is kind of a bad thing... and frankly it scares people... it's not the love where I want to marry the people or even be committed to them... I love them as my friends... but even that love is very aggressive... territorial... borderline obsessive... and because I can be so out there with it... and yet so reserved about it... people don't know...

You have to get the balls to say HEY... this is how I feel about you....but don't take it the wrong way...

Too many linear thinkers... too many people thinking narrow mindedly....

did you ever wish you had a big rewind button... so you could push it... go back to certain scenarios and do them over the way you want too... how you would havekissed him before he left... how you wish you had of told her you loved her before she got on the train.... how you would've taken that punch you planted on his face back.... how you would have kissed him before he left like you wanted...

sometimes people open up at just the right time... and then they feel freer for expressing themselves rather than keeping it bottled inside and constantly wondering....

expression through words... people can talk and talk and talk and never say anything... and when it comes time to say something important ...they can't think of the words to use... words... they're so easy... you have been learning all about them from the time you were 3 ... try and express how you love someone without simply saying the words I Love You... describe the feeling of Love...

See I have a confession to make... I'm one of these people that can go on talking forever about everything... yet ask me to describe my feelings about someone who is dear too me... I choke... I can't do it.. I've tried... and I can't do it... it ends up sounding whiney... yes even when its typed in an email... so how do you tell someone you love them without scaring them?
How do you tell the partner you're with I Love You everyday without it starting to seem old... like you need to find a new way to say it... even tho those 3 lil words are the ones that sum it up best...

And who cares who you love... just love them with all you're might...and tell them often how you feel... if they can't handle it... fuck them... then they didn't love you... isn't it best to find out sooner rather than later...

Love isn't just something that lovers do....

Happy Boxing Day Fuckers!

Yes it's Boxing Day... it's that day where all the stores open their doors back up and you box your way into them for huge sales and the exchanging of the stuff that you didn't like... huge huge huge day here... kinda like that whole black friday thing in the states...talking about black... I found out just how racist my grandfather is today...(fuckin asshat)
He says today... hey today is Black Monday.... umm ok silence falls over the room... I'm thinking ok maybe because it's like black friday in the states where a lot of shopping is done blah blah blah... nope... I could only wish... nope he meant it as... it was the blacks holiday... I said...huh? you mean Kwanzaa? oh yeah yeah thats it... Its the blacks holiday now... (hang head in shame... thinking Gawd how can I be related to him)... I said.. well actually its the first day of Chanukah I believe... then out it comes... well there are more religions and holidays out there then you are aware of apparently. (How can I possibly be related to these people!!??)

Apparently the holiday brings out the prejudice in people... observe...
Mom- "I don't know why it is Elton John got married to THAT man"
Me- "maybe because they've been together for something like 14 years or something like that"
Sis- "What's even worse is the guys a Canadian"
Me- "oh my fucking God... did you just say that's the worst part??....no the worst part is that it took so long for the UK to ok same sex marriages you fucking racists"
they looked horrified... but why I was the one that actually was... I mean c'mon people!!

Christmas Eve- went down to my mom's house... had the traditional christmas eve dinner... Cream of Mushroom Soup and Grilled Cheese Sandwiches :D wrapped some last minute gifts... watched some classic Christmas movies...put the kids to bed... then Santa came...

Christmas Morning- couldn't sleep on the floor so I ended up... wait ok lemme start from the beginning... Mom was going to sleep in her huge bed with the two boys, B-i-L was going to sleep with my sis and Raistlan and I were gonna sleep on a foam mat on the floor... so mom didn't feel well so she slept on the couch the two boys were in her bed and the B-i-L was in bed with my sis and Raistlan and I were on the floor... I couldn't sleep on the floor (hurt my back) so I slipped into mom's bed with the two boys and fell fast asleep... I woke up looked at the clock and it said 8am... wtf?? and we were all still in bed... I woke up the kids... told them to go wake up Daddy and Auntie... so out we went and opened up all the gifts when everyone got out to the livingroom...
and then I had to wait for my born-again Christian grandmother and her husband to come for dinner... you know the one that I've told several times that I am not Christian and please don't push your beliefs on me... so she buys my children nothing but religious stuff for every holiday...
dinner was great... tasted yummy... and grandma got bearable after 3 glasses of wine and 3 beer...

So pretty much this year I learned that Christmas is what YOU make of it... and its great if you remember the great things...like the way the kids faces light up after unwrapping there star wars light sabres... or the way your husband smiles when he opens his brand new telescope... or the way your mom almost cries when she sees all the cool horse stuff she got...
OR
you can remember all the crappy stuff and consider it a crappy christmas and remember... the way your sister didn't respect your husbands authority when discplining the kids when they got unruly... or the way your mother gets snotty when she forgets what you told her ten minutes ago and you try to tell her that you just told her ten minutes ago... or how your brother-in-law (B-i-L) ate all the peanut butterballs you made for your sister and she's now on a rampage and spreading her grumpiness...

So I've decided that with all the good came a whole bunch of not so pleasent... but I'm going to remember the good ;) especially the ones of the kids opening their presents :D

Talking of Presents... this christmas was the year of the monkey... woo hoo
I got a bunch of monkeys sitting in a circle around a candle...just monkeying around... and I got monkey socks..they're cute.. Gambit took a pic of them... after we get them developed I'll have to post them... I got three pairs of toe socks (the monkey socks were toe socks), couple pairs of one piece pj's... I love one piece pj's :D, some really nice earrings... some makeup (they always restock my supply a bit at christmas), monkey boxers :D Boots that go up to my knees... a scarf, a poker set, a set of snowglobes...they are so cute, couple of books, and some other lil stocking stuffer stuff.... can't remember right now...

So... Happy Boxing Day Fuckers... Happy Birthday to those who happy to be unfortunate enough to be born around this time of year... Happy New Years... Happy Anniversary to those who were silly enough to get married during the holidays... Happy Divorce to those who are getting them... Merry Christmas... Happy Kwanzaa... Happy Chanukah... and to any other religions.... Happy Holiday to you as well...

Is that politically correct enough for you uppity stuck up fuckers....
Anyway.. Hope you had a good holiday... what'd you do?

Half Nekkid Thursday

I decided that for half nekkid Thursday I would post a pic where I looked all dressed up.... Here's a pic of me and my Krammit at her wedding... Awww she looked so purty that day... *sniff sniff*

And you actually get to see my nekkid arm... so be happy with that :P




So I'm supposed to be wrapping presents... the last of them... and I'm annoyed because there was still a couple of types of cookies I still wanted to bake... and haven't finished...

My sister came by and saw the snowman jar candles I made and thought they were so cute she commisioned me to make two more by this weekend...
Yeah I neglected to tell her that it took me about 3 1/2 days to actually make the ones I had already made...

So yeah I've been doing those rather than the other stuff.. lol and of course I take way too many breaks ... lol

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I hope everyone has a great holiday... if I don't see you or post before christmas day....
thats a laugh ya know I'll post something tomorrow...

Where Are You? Stop Kicking And Screaming! You're Not Listening!!!

So I had this post over on my deadjournal... and I figured we'd get a conversation going in my comments if I posted the link here so y'all could read it...

If You Can't Be With The One You Love, Then Love The One You're With... Or Fuck The One You're With

Wow that title was longer then I thought it was ... lmao

Skyye and Anna seemed to agree with the post ;)

Don’t Hide Away Like An Ocean, But You Can See, But You Can Smell And The Sound

have you ever written a letter/email that you knew you would never send to the person it was addressed to...

for whatever reason... it was too "deep" for them to handle... you don't know how they'll take it... you don't want to express that much to them... don't want to hurt their feelings...

for whatever reason you don't send it...

yeah I wrote one of those today... ya know "they" (the infamous they) say write the letter it'll make you feel better... didn't make me feel better it made me wonder... you know the wonderful "what if" game...

bah humbug... welcome to monday...

"If along the way, you are growing weary
You can rest with me until a brighter day
I am no superman, that’s for sure
And I have no answers, yeah
I am no hero, oh don’t you know~
But I do know one thing,
Where you are is where I belong
Where you go, I do know, is where I belong"

Half Nekkid Thursday

Ok so would you give a ticket to a woman driving around town like this? seriously....
Did you know that where I live it's legal for women to go topless? I swear to God I shit you not...it really is... a woman who lives a couple of hours away from me fought for the right for women to go topless if they want too... and won.
I always thought that blogs should be educational... :D

So I went to the dentist the other day...got a wisdom tooth pulled and two fillings... omg my face hurts... I have my trusty T3's... which I have no faith in the pharmacist anymore... I walked up to the counter and said "does this have any sort of stimulant in this...?" he replies with "nope they don't just... codiene and tylenol"...I get home and read the lil paper that comes with all medications... yeah it says codiene, big long ass word for tylenol and caffiene....oh I'm sorry but correct me if I'm wrong but isn't caffiene a fucking stimulant??? people get hopped up on caffiene all the time... Gawww... so I shouldn't be taking the T3's because of the caffiene... but ya know what... fuck that my face is killing me... shut up I hear you out there "yeah it's killing us too"....

I have to go to the doctors tomorrow and get my paperwork for work filled out... I'll be taking a medical leave from work... for a lil while... then I have to go to the dentist again in January after the holiday break... and then Cuba... and then surgeon... wow I have stuff I can write down in the new date book I won tonight... ha ha theres a story...

I went to my sisters christmas party with her tonight and we had to sit through all kinds of boring shite... they were about to do another round of door prizes... and I said (to no one inparticular) 660 is gonna win (that was my number) sure as shit they called my number... freaked out my sisters friend next to me...(I wish people would get it already..I'm psychic... geez) so I go up to the stage.. get my present (it was wrapped) I take it back to the table and rip the paper off the top of the box...I see this business card on the end of the box that has some name on it and a fire extinguisher...I say... hey I won a fire extinguisher...they all laugh... and I continue unwrapping this box.. and sure as shit its an actual fire extinguisher...I'm like WTF??? everyone at the table was just as stunned as I was... I was just commenting the other day that it seems like if I win I always get a bottle of wine (what can I say I live in wine country)...this is the first time I can honestly say that I won a fire extinguisher... (lmao) attached to the box was a datebook and a pen from the same company that donated the fire extinguisher...

And you can't prove thats a pic of me :P
9 frickin days to go... Fuck!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE!!!!

Of All My Twisted Dreams, But This Cheap Investigation Just Can't Stifle All My Screams

I just woke up from a drug induced coma... omg I've never slept so deep... but the reason I'm writing about it is I had the strangest dream... THE strangest dream...

This guy shows up at my mothers house when I just happen to be there... he knew about how ya had to come to the back door and pretty much let yourself in... he let himself in and it was only me in the house...not even any kids there (woo hoo) I was in a night gown (odd since I sleep naked...yeah I know TMI) it was a very short night gown... anyway... I was shocked to see him... to say the least... (not gonna go into details about him... y'all pretty much know who it is) he said he would never come here... but there he was... which was odd he was almost as shocked to see me as I was to see him... I did the normal ask him what the fuck he's doing here... anyway seems he came to pick something up... yeah because he would travel that far to just pick something up... so I figured ok now was the time to ask him a few things that I've wanted to ask him... so I started with the questions and when I got to the "uncomfortable" ones he said he had to go... so I walked him to the door and said "see ya" and shut the door... I went to get changed into some normal clothes... and I heard the door behind me.. it was Keenan... I spun around to see my mom had come home and she had Keenan... she looked at me with the utmost look of anger on her face and said "where is he?" so I explained that he had just walked out the door she walked in... and how she should have passed him... so we looked out the window... he apparently had been driving a brand new truck, black and for some reason it was towing a smaller black truck... he was out there trying to shovel the truck out... mom was freaking out because the driveway was just a stone driveway and he was starting to dig a hole in it... so I ran out the front door (I was halfway done changing so I was in my bra and my jeans) and I started yelling to him that he couldn't do that... I moved my mom's van so that he could get out... and turned and went in the house... my family got ready and left to go to our christmas celebration... he showed up there... (wtf??...ok he doesn't even know where they live in real life... but anyway) he was invited in by one of my aunts... I came down the stairs and saw him sitting there... and I wanted to smack him... he completely ignored me several times when I asked him what the fuck he was doing there... my family started in in our celebrations... we danced to old polka tunes... we sang... we laughed... we all played games... and he was there... he was participating in all of it... (even in the dream I was thoroughly confused) I asked him all kinds of things.. about the kids and what not and asked him what his big problem was with a certain situation... and the response was "just cause" ... and then the phone rang and woke me up...

maybe I'll take a nap later and try to figure out what the fuck that dream was all about... but right now my face is killing me and I have to walk midget to school...

oh why is my face killing me... for those who aren't on my yahoo list... yesterday I went to the dentist... got a partial cleaning in the right top quadrant of my mouth...also got two fillings and had an extraction done... yes that means he pulled one of those fuckers... it was one of my wisdom teeth... and fuck does my face hurt now...

ta ta fer now...

Sun, Fun, Passport.....Health Card??

I have a date!

well sort of...

I have an appointment in Toronto on Wednesday January 25th starting at noon... I say starting because there's a bunch of shite that I have to do...I have to go to the diagnostic centre...to do an ecg...then I have to go to admitting and get a hospital card then I have to go and meet my doctor... Dr L Harris (female btw)

after talking to the receptionist at the cardiologists office I cried...

scary... because now its getting closer... happy... because now its getting closer...

I'm still a lil stunned... I'll post more later...

On The Road Again...I Just Can't Wait To Get On The Road Again...

So it seems that the funniest entry for the week was done by Bone ;)
congrats... you won the goldplated kewpie doll... ok no not really... you just win the knowledge that your entry was loved more then everyone elses... :D

(when reading this remember that the passport office closes at 4:30pm and I left the house at 3:30pm.)
ok so I went to get my passport on Monday... drove downtown... went into the MTO building up to the 9th floor... nope it's not up there... went back down to the lobby... asked where the passport office is... ends up its not in the MTO building on St Paul St it's on Church St... oy ve... get into the car drive around the corner to Church St... run inside find out that its on the 6th floor... take the elevator up to the sixth floor... go into the passport office... YAY... no one's in there...no lines... take a number... go to the window... hand her all my info... "do you have your birth certificate?"...."Shit!...no I didn't realize I needed it...what time do you close?" ....."Well its 4now so in a half hour"... I go running out of the office... take the elevator down the 6 floors run across the street get into the car...throw the envelope of info at Raistlan... (now normally at 4 in the afternoon in downtown...you would never get back to the apartment and then back again within a half an hour) I was determined to get the damn passport handed in that day... I jumped on the 406 and proceeded to break almost every traffic law known to man... Raistlan ran upstairs got my id... I then again sped all the way back downtown again... parked infront of the building on church st.... ran in... got in the elevator and when I got down the hall into the passpoprt office... they were counting their tills and checkin the receipts for the day.. I glanced at my watch it was 4:20pm...whew... walked up to the window and took care of getting my passport paid for... whew... and now I have the ugliest passport photo... I didn't mind the photo I had before....
But what the fuck is with not smiling in your passport photo... I'm a smiley kinda person... and you want me to look "natural" in my photo... then let me smile damnit!! it looks like a frigging mugshot.... *Sigh*


The coloured one is my old passport photo... the black and white one is the new one...
Man I'm such a fat head... I can't believe I'm posting this for anyone too see... I was 16 in the coloured one..you know ...before two kids, before a man and before I became lazy.... now you know why I'm a fat head... lmao

Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir?

Welcome to my very first "Half Nekkid Thursday" post... I came across this while blog surfing one day.... if ya wanna read the guidlines and maybe participate.... go over there ---->
and click on HNT- Half Nekkid Thursday little button.... So in the spirit of HNT I had to rummage through my pics to find one for my post today...

So thats the one I decided to bust my HNT cherry on...

So I've thought of some "homemade" ideas for christmas... see the spirit starts to come back eventually.... it might actually be all the way back by 24th :P anyway... so I came up with a couple of ideas... first one being tins of cookies... let me rephrase that... tins of homemade cookies made by me next weekend :D I'm gonna be up to my armpits in flour next weekend... anyway... we also have these interesting peanut jars...they're in the shape of this guy...you know Mr Peanut anyway... but if you take the labels off and paint them white... ta daa you have a snow man... which is great that it already comes with a top hat :) anyway so I'm gonna paint the jars and then turn them into candles :D
Anyway...and I thought I might put together a cd of pics of the family... not me naked ya big pervs... tho if you'd like to donate some money over there ---> we could discuss that option...

WHAT?? oh its not that bad :P
People have done worse for less :P

Anyway... I have to go and hunt down my laundry in Niagara Falls now... See Ya Later :D

Tis The Season To Be Jolly....

So we made it to the front page of the newspaper... and no it wasn't because I finally snapped and murdered everyone in sight... it's actually because of this party I've been planning for the community.... Woot Woot!!! Frontpage... I think I need to buy more stuff...
I'm glad I was far away from the camera... lol

Look For The Girl With The Sun In Her Eyes, And She's Gone

Ok haven't done this in awhile.. but its Monday sooo...
Which will be the funniest blog entry this week??

Whoda at Woulda Coulda Shoulda

OR

Aka_monty at The Daily Bitch
(the December 4th post)

OR

Red at Letters To Nowhere

OR

Bone at If You Only Read One Blog This Year

So just let us know which one you think is the funniest post thus far this week and post it in the comment section... C'mon stop being so lazy... :P

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Every so often I sit and think about what I'd like to be when I grow up... and I say sometimes I come up with some of the weirdest ideas...
a baker (love decorating cakes well and baking),
window dresser (that hit me while I was decorating the tree with the kids),
personal stylist (well... only cause I love shopping..and damn some people just don't have any style...coughmymomcough),
a coach (doesn't matter what sport, when I'm on the sidelines I'm smarter than any coach on the field),
interior designer,
fashion designer,
web designer (I don't know where that one came from, I can barely add shite to my blog template),
school teacher (I must've been smoking a whole lotta dope for that one, I hate other peoples kids, well unless the parents are cool...),
chef (only because I love cooking...well and eating good food),
proof reader (I used to do that and now it's just habit to find the mistakes in anything written),
breeder (birds, dogs, cats didn't seem to matter... no I don't have any weird fasinations with animals doing it)

Well thats just the list from this weekend... lol the one main thing that seems to run through most of those...the one thing that sorta links them all... creativity... hmmm

I decided tho what it is that I actually want to do... problem is schooling... a youth counsellor... stop fuckin snickering :P .... seriously... I've done just about it all... I can be the one to tell them how stupid it truly is... hell I already do... I have a gazillion cousins all younger then me (except one)...

story time...
I have an aunt that lives out west...was catching up with her on the phone one christmas a couple of years ago... she was telling me about my cousins drug problem... I stood there shaking my head... lord knows I've done almost every drug to man... she was really upset... and asked me if I'd speak to him... I'm thinking what the fuck am I supposed to say to him especially since I was a few hundred miles away... but it was my aunt.. I love her... she housed me for six months.. so I said alright... talked to him on the phone... told him what kinds of things happened with me... and then I explained to him that the drug he was addicted to wasn't even something natural like pot... it was acid/lsd... it was nothing but a combination of chemicals... then I told him what some of the chemicals were... and shocked the fuck out of him... heard from my aunt 6 months after that conversation and she had informed me that my cousin was in rehab... and he had told her that everytime he went to drop another hit of acid he couldn't help but think about what was in it... she thanked me profusely... I really didn't think I had gotten anything thru to him on that phone call...

so yeah a counsellor who specializes in working with youth would be ideal...

I'll Trade You A Wise Man And A Donkey For The Baby Jesus...

that is what I over heard today while sitting here at my desk....

I walked very quietly into my kitchen and hid in the kids doorway, peeked over the microwave and I see that the kids have stopped decorating the tree... they found the little tiny nativity scene that was gifted to me years ago... each one of them had a couple in each hand... and theres Gambit standing there with a wiseman and a donkey in one hand following his brother around saying "I'll trade ya a wiseman and a donkey for the baby jesus".... well damn if I didn't start laughing my ass off... so I told them to play nicely with them and walked out thinking nothing of it....

sitting back at my computer working on some stuff (read that to say chatting) and all of a sudden I hear....

"angels aren't evil!"

my ear perks and turns toward the kitchen... (moms ears do that didn't you know) up I get back to my peekin spot... theres Keenan with the nativity scene lil angel and the baby jesus in one hand waving it above his had making evil laughing sounds... Gambit turns to me and says "Mom the angel is not evil right?" and hmm and ha should I get into a semi religious conversation with the kids...nah... so I say... "can be" Keenan... "see the evil angel came down and is kidnappin baby jesus and taking him away"

somehow...somewhere I knew... deep in the pit of my stomach... I didn't want to acknowledge it... but... a wave came across and smacked me in the face ... and said "You're going to HELL! if you let them continue like this"

then like a light from yon window breaking... I thought "ba ha ha I'm not going to Hell... I don't even believe there is a hell outside of this what we live in right now"

Anyway... thats weird... lol

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so yes the tree got put up today... went and picked it up... and the kids decorated it... and then I fixed it... you know... taking 75% of the ornaments off the bottom right hand corner of the tree...and dispersing them all over the tree...

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So I had a breakdown the other day... ya know... crying and bitching and the ball of wax... I realized that I had no money... thats right... none...for christmas... for other people I don't care too much... other family members and what not aren't expecting anything... but I don't have enough money to buy the kids anything... I know that I shouldn't worry because they won't remember the presents in 20 years they'll remember how they felt on christmas day....
I just want to be able to walk into a store thats not a dollar store to buy the kids something that they actually want... *whew* ok got that out....

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So I think I'm gonna do some baking... I have to go through my books and find some good cookie recipies...

other than that... not much else to say... I'm taking my drugs like a good girl... and making sure I don't die... apparently dying is not allowed during the holiday season... looking at about six months still... alright it has now taken me a couple of hours to type this out.... damn I chat too much...

If I’m Sleeping, Don’t Wake Me Up, If I’m Sleeping, Leave Me Alone

Holy Crikey!! I actually slept through the night Yay!!



I got home from all that running around yesterday (no I didn't end up going to work...I was falling asleep while driving home...had to get Raistlan to take over) I got home and normally as soon as I get out of the car I'm wide awake again... not last night... brought everything and everyone up stairs... I sat down on the couch to finish watching survivor and promtly dozed right off...
Raistlan was making dinner... which the kids ended up not being hungry... so sent them to bed... I was still dozing... Raistlan finished up and we ate while I tried to watch the Apprentice... he was doing some stuff on the computer... I woke up to see that The Donald had fired two of them again... I sighed and asked Raistlan why he fired both of them... thank god he was semi listening to the tv... so...

At 10 o'clock Raistlan announced that he was going to bed... and started walking out of the livingroom... I started to stand andsaid... Hey I was waiting for you so we could go together... walked in the bedroom laid down and BOOM... I was asleep!!!

And I just woke up at 7:20am :D YaY!!

however....

Keenan made me sick so now I'm here coughing, sneezing and blowing my nose constantly... :(

**********edited in at 8:35am*********

Just went and checked out my site meter listings... found something really cool... it has a list of locations that have been to my blog... not just country and state/province... but the city as well... it's neat.... so just to show ya... here's a few that popped up on the most recent list of visitors list..

San Antonio, Texas
Montreal, Quebec
Peoria, Arizona
Seattle, Washington
Mountain Top, Pennsylvania
Euless, Texas
Colorado Springs, Colorado
Valdosta, Georgia
Charlotte, North Carolina
West Linn, Oregon
Nords Warf, New South Wales
Tallahassee, Florida
Shaw AFB, South Carolina
St Catharines, Ontario
Finksburg, Maryland
Hinsdale, Illinois
Santa Ana, California
Sumter, South Carolina
Addison, Illinois
Japan (doesn't specify where in)
Eufaula, Alabama
Surat, Gujarat (India)
Bedford Park, South Australia
Crystal Beach, Ontario

Thats just a few... come on people where are the comments from y'all :P
I also noticed that I don't have a lot of readers from my own country.... hmmm

You Spin Me Right Round Baby, Right Round...

Didn't realize there would be so much running around involved with planning a kids party...

have to leave soon to go get our picture taken for the newspaper... then have to run around dropping off letters for donations to different stores... drop the kidlette off at school ... he lucks out today... he has the people from Zooz coming into his school today... after we drop him off we'll probably do more running around... until I have to drop Raistlan off at either the apartment or Keenans school...depending how late it is... then I'm going out with Paulie ;) have to run to Costco and see if I can't find some sort of "Goodie" for Santa to hand out at the Party...

whew...

haven't seen paulie in what seems like months.... Yay I get to go shopping with Paulie :D

Then after shopping with Paulie I have to come and pick up Keenan and Raistlan and head down to Fort Erie to go to Gambits parent teacher interview... then I have to bring the three of them back here and I have to go to work...

how odd that the first time I'll be able to sit down and relax is at work... (which I'm gonna have to call in late for as it is)...

So here I go to start my day ;)