Am I running away?

Am I do this in the hopes that he'll chase me and tell me he doesn't want me to go?

Am I causing a situation in the hopes that he'll do the white knight routine and save me?

If thats what I'm doing ...this is the worst way to go about it... could I really be that stupid?

with all the realizations I've been having lately...I wish I could stop this snowball...

omg did I just say that??
holy shit I did...

Fuck fuck fuckity fuck.... god damn it...

Oh if I was only born a cat...

I hang my head in defeat...