This is a picture of the American Niagara Falls. I'll have to go to Niagara Falls and see if I can get some better pictures to show you guys. Sunday July 25th 2004
Friday, July 30, 2004
Confessions of a Mom...
Red Clover said...
Supermom wins again, able to banish bogeymen and monsters with a kiss and a hug. Able to sit cross legged on the floor for hours on end.
Time is a very deceptive thing, especially where kids are concerned. Treasure your babies while they are little. They do grow up fast. Play, love, and laugh with your sons.
And Rae.. I'm proud of you. I hope that doesn't come across wrong, and that you know what I mean. Love ya hun! >:D<
I just wanted to post that in the body of my blog cause not everyone reads the comments that are posted here and I didn't want what I'm about to write taken the wrong way...
First off thank you Red.... that's nice to hear every once in awhile...
When I got pregnant with Gambit (my 7 year old) my mother asked me to put the baby up for adoption, explaining to me that I was only 17 (18 when I had him) years old. Me being a stubborn ass and trying to prove that I was an adult wouldn't even consider this option. I wasn't going to let her bully me like she had my sister (whole nother long story). I wasn't living at home when I got pregnant and my man at the time (Robert) and I moved three times during my pregnancy, we were living at a friends house (a friend of his moms) then we moved to his mothers for a couple weeks, then to my mothers for a couple of months, then into our own apartment. When I had Gambit I was ecstatic, my very own lil baby and he was sweet and he was a good baby. When he was one I went back to highschool and got the last two credits I needed to graduate, but then I wanted to go to college. I didn't know how I was going to manage that with a small child and a lump of a man. Robert wasn't very supportive of the college idea (we were having other problems as well). I left Robert and moved to the city so I could go to college. I left Gambit in his care during the week so that I could go to school and I would get him on the weekends. Even after I got out of college I left Gambit with him. By this time I was with Shadow. I had been told by my doctor that I was having some difficulties with my pap tests (shudder...damn things) and if they continued to keep coming back with the same results he would have to do an operation which would cut away half of my cervix. He told me in short that if I wanted anymore kids I might want to do it soon just incase. At that time Shadow and I hadn't even discussed kids yet we had only been together a year. Time passed... I got pregnant with Keenan. I was really happy, I love babies, I love being pregnant. I had a great bunch of friends that were very supportive and a great help, unlike my first pregnancy. I had a great delivery and we were ecstatic when he arrived. After 18 months or so I started to get itchy feet... I told Shadow and explained that it was about that age that I left Robert with Gambit. I figured it was still just post partum depression which seems to get worse with each pregnancy for me. Now I was coming into new territory, I wasn't used to having a toddler for 24 hours a day, Robert had to do that with Gambit. Time has wore on and I was getting more and more unhappy and I haven't been exactly sure as to why. I was able to actually entertain the thought of leaving both my ids with their fathers and leaving. I have still thought about it, a lot. I've had myself convinced that because I think like that, that I am a bad mother. I've been told a number of times by a few different people that I am a bad mother. Sometimes its in passing as a bad joke, and other times they have meant it. It makes me cry to think that I could have given them a better life by not keeping them. We're constantly scrounging for money to pay this bill or that bill and are constantly on the phone with creditors. Everyone says, yeah but we're all like that. That's not what I want for my kids... I wanted better than this.
People think that my staying with my family was a good thing to do... I don't.
I've been told that I neglect my children, and you know what maybe I do sometimes. I make sure that they are fed and clothed and played with during the day, but it just feels like I'm going thru the motions because I have too. I think I'm too selfish to be a good mother. You hear people talk about the sacrifices they've made for their kids... I can't think of any that I've made.
Now I know I'm not like some women I know....girls I should say but anyway... that as soon as they have the baby they are trying to see who can take the baby and how long they can take the baby for and what not. That too me is just weird.
He knows, I know he does... Keenan looks at me and knows I'm not happy... It's sad that a little three year old looks into his mommy's eyes and gets tears in his. I take his lil face in my hands and tell him that I really do love him... he nods at me, puts his thumb in his mouth, looks as if he's about to cry and then gives me a big hug.
They really are such sweet good little boys...and I really don't deserve them and I know they sure as hell don't deserve a mother like me.
So thank you for being proud of me... cause it's nice to know that someone is.
Supermom wins again, able to banish bogeymen and monsters with a kiss and a hug. Able to sit cross legged on the floor for hours on end.
Time is a very deceptive thing, especially where kids are concerned. Treasure your babies while they are little. They do grow up fast. Play, love, and laugh with your sons.
And Rae.. I'm proud of you. I hope that doesn't come across wrong, and that you know what I mean. Love ya hun! >:D<
I just wanted to post that in the body of my blog cause not everyone reads the comments that are posted here and I didn't want what I'm about to write taken the wrong way...
First off thank you Red.... that's nice to hear every once in awhile...
When I got pregnant with Gambit (my 7 year old) my mother asked me to put the baby up for adoption, explaining to me that I was only 17 (18 when I had him) years old. Me being a stubborn ass and trying to prove that I was an adult wouldn't even consider this option. I wasn't going to let her bully me like she had my sister (whole nother long story). I wasn't living at home when I got pregnant and my man at the time (Robert) and I moved three times during my pregnancy, we were living at a friends house (a friend of his moms) then we moved to his mothers for a couple weeks, then to my mothers for a couple of months, then into our own apartment. When I had Gambit I was ecstatic, my very own lil baby and he was sweet and he was a good baby. When he was one I went back to highschool and got the last two credits I needed to graduate, but then I wanted to go to college. I didn't know how I was going to manage that with a small child and a lump of a man. Robert wasn't very supportive of the college idea (we were having other problems as well). I left Robert and moved to the city so I could go to college. I left Gambit in his care during the week so that I could go to school and I would get him on the weekends. Even after I got out of college I left Gambit with him. By this time I was with Shadow. I had been told by my doctor that I was having some difficulties with my pap tests (shudder...damn things) and if they continued to keep coming back with the same results he would have to do an operation which would cut away half of my cervix. He told me in short that if I wanted anymore kids I might want to do it soon just incase. At that time Shadow and I hadn't even discussed kids yet we had only been together a year. Time passed... I got pregnant with Keenan. I was really happy, I love babies, I love being pregnant. I had a great bunch of friends that were very supportive and a great help, unlike my first pregnancy. I had a great delivery and we were ecstatic when he arrived. After 18 months or so I started to get itchy feet... I told Shadow and explained that it was about that age that I left Robert with Gambit. I figured it was still just post partum depression which seems to get worse with each pregnancy for me. Now I was coming into new territory, I wasn't used to having a toddler for 24 hours a day, Robert had to do that with Gambit. Time has wore on and I was getting more and more unhappy and I haven't been exactly sure as to why. I was able to actually entertain the thought of leaving both my ids with their fathers and leaving. I have still thought about it, a lot. I've had myself convinced that because I think like that, that I am a bad mother. I've been told a number of times by a few different people that I am a bad mother. Sometimes its in passing as a bad joke, and other times they have meant it. It makes me cry to think that I could have given them a better life by not keeping them. We're constantly scrounging for money to pay this bill or that bill and are constantly on the phone with creditors. Everyone says, yeah but we're all like that. That's not what I want for my kids... I wanted better than this.
People think that my staying with my family was a good thing to do... I don't.
I've been told that I neglect my children, and you know what maybe I do sometimes. I make sure that they are fed and clothed and played with during the day, but it just feels like I'm going thru the motions because I have too. I think I'm too selfish to be a good mother. You hear people talk about the sacrifices they've made for their kids... I can't think of any that I've made.
Now I know I'm not like some women I know....girls I should say but anyway... that as soon as they have the baby they are trying to see who can take the baby and how long they can take the baby for and what not. That too me is just weird.
He knows, I know he does... Keenan looks at me and knows I'm not happy... It's sad that a little three year old looks into his mommy's eyes and gets tears in his. I take his lil face in my hands and tell him that I really do love him... he nods at me, puts his thumb in his mouth, looks as if he's about to cry and then gives me a big hug.
They really are such sweet good little boys...and I really don't deserve them and I know they sure as hell don't deserve a mother like me.
So thank you for being proud of me... cause it's nice to know that someone is.
Is Godzilla In The Car?
Somewhere out there in this big huge small world there is someone who loves you just the way you are...
There is someone who will listen to your problem without ever comparing it to one of their own...
Somewhere someone is thinking about you and wonders how you are...
Someone will always care...
There is a man who will always believe in wining and dining a woman and not just to get them into bed...
There is someone who understands that you are not perfect but still wants to know everything about you...
Somewhere someone wants to get out but can't...
There's someone who won't look at you funny when you get into the car and look at them and ask "Is Godzilla in the car?"
Someone knows that you can't have everything in life...
There's someone out there right now that would love to oppress you and watch you wilt...
Someone is out there and would love to see you shine and fill out your potential...
There's someone waiting right now to see if you're ok...
There's someone out there that smiles everytime they see your face...
Someone is out there right now waiting for you to call...
There's someone mourning a loss somewhere...
Someone understands that there is a need for secrets...
There's someone that respects you so much it could almost be considered worshipping...
Right now someone is thinking about you...
Someone somewhere wishes they could change their life...
Someone out there wants to share a journey with you...
There's someone getting married and wondering if its the right thing to do...
Right now there is an insomniac that can't sleep and is chewing gum and typing in a blog about all the someone's out there... (at least ya know that someone is me) :)
(before panties get twisted or people start assuming, this blog was not intended or about one person, it's too let everyone out there know that there just might be someone out there thinking about you, wanting you and possibly waiting for you. Just remember you're never alone, there's always someone there that you can contact, who knows that ya just might need to talk.)
I couldn't sleep... I couldn't get comfortable... I had fallen asleep earlier in the night and was woken up by a scared lil boy at the end of my bed who had just finished having a bad dream... Altho he went back to bed with no problems after a kiss and a hug... Mommy couldn't sleep... this strange blog entry was floating around in my head... after laying in bed being smothered and stuck between a sleeping man and a cold hard night table for an hour I gave up wandered out here and sat at the computer and started typing... hopefully when I'm done this entry and this cigarette I'll be able to grab an hours worth of sleep before the little boy wakes up again and wants to play... because lord knows how fast kids grow and soon they stop wanting to play cars in the middle of the livingroom floor...
There is someone who will listen to your problem without ever comparing it to one of their own...
Somewhere someone is thinking about you and wonders how you are...
Someone will always care...
There is a man who will always believe in wining and dining a woman and not just to get them into bed...
There is someone who understands that you are not perfect but still wants to know everything about you...
Somewhere someone wants to get out but can't...
There's someone who won't look at you funny when you get into the car and look at them and ask "Is Godzilla in the car?"
Someone knows that you can't have everything in life...
There's someone out there right now that would love to oppress you and watch you wilt...
Someone is out there and would love to see you shine and fill out your potential...
There's someone waiting right now to see if you're ok...
There's someone out there that smiles everytime they see your face...
Someone is out there right now waiting for you to call...
There's someone mourning a loss somewhere...
Someone understands that there is a need for secrets...
There's someone that respects you so much it could almost be considered worshipping...
Right now someone is thinking about you...
Someone somewhere wishes they could change their life...
Someone out there wants to share a journey with you...
There's someone getting married and wondering if its the right thing to do...
Right now there is an insomniac that can't sleep and is chewing gum and typing in a blog about all the someone's out there... (at least ya know that someone is me) :)
(before panties get twisted or people start assuming, this blog was not intended or about one person, it's too let everyone out there know that there just might be someone out there thinking about you, wanting you and possibly waiting for you. Just remember you're never alone, there's always someone there that you can contact, who knows that ya just might need to talk.)
I couldn't sleep... I couldn't get comfortable... I had fallen asleep earlier in the night and was woken up by a scared lil boy at the end of my bed who had just finished having a bad dream... Altho he went back to bed with no problems after a kiss and a hug... Mommy couldn't sleep... this strange blog entry was floating around in my head... after laying in bed being smothered and stuck between a sleeping man and a cold hard night table for an hour I gave up wandered out here and sat at the computer and started typing... hopefully when I'm done this entry and this cigarette I'll be able to grab an hours worth of sleep before the little boy wakes up again and wants to play... because lord knows how fast kids grow and soon they stop wanting to play cars in the middle of the livingroom floor...
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Time...
Rae: Time is a really funny thing...have you ever noticed that...it can crawl by so slowly...yet ya look by and go wow that was fast...so much could happen in such a little time...yet it'll feel like a lifetime...time is the enemy...
Friend : riiiight...and you've been smoking crack...right?
Rae: no seriously think about it....is three months to you a long time or is it kinda short?
Friend : short
Rae: yet so much can happen in three months right?
Friend : yeah
Friend : i understand...but that's just a weird thing to think about
Rae: I'm just saying time is fucked up in that way... and yeah it is a strange thing to think about but it just dawned on me...
Friend : hmmmm
Rae: you never think about shit like that?
Friend : not very often
Rae: hurt your brain too much :P ?
Rae: lol
Friend : sometimes :P
Rae: lol
Time is a very strange thing....
Friend : riiiight...and you've been smoking crack...right?
Rae: no seriously think about it....is three months to you a long time or is it kinda short?
Friend : short
Rae: yet so much can happen in three months right?
Friend : yeah
Friend : i understand...but that's just a weird thing to think about
Rae: I'm just saying time is fucked up in that way... and yeah it is a strange thing to think about but it just dawned on me...
Friend : hmmmm
Rae: you never think about shit like that?
Friend : not very often
Rae: hurt your brain too much :P ?
Rae: lol
Friend : sometimes :P
Rae: lol
Time is a very strange thing....
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Me...
Is it really so hard to believe that I am not a high maintenance, spoiled, wild, loud, hard to get along with person?
I know I can get a little wacky at times... like dancing around somebody elses kitchen and hallway just because I was wearing a new pair of socks... but I did do it fairly quiet...
Just because I'm willing to give a handjob in traffic... doesn't mean I'm wild... just means I know how to cure a case of boredom on the way home...
I don't usually speak unless I'm spoken too, I don't babble incessantly I usually only say something if I deem it important
I'd like to think that I'm fairly easy to get along with, I usually change my attitude to fit in with whomever I'm with, yet at the same time it's still me...
My mom used to refer to me as a chameleon... she told me that it would amaze her sometimes how I could change so quickly... going out one night I could dres up like a skater/punk with the coloured spiked hair and then the next night get dressed into a formal gown and look like some kind of debutante...
I think of myself as quiet person... however lately I've had a few friends laugh at that and tell me to keep thinking that... I think that it's just because I keep a lot of myself to myself that I think I'm quiet...
I keep a lot of my past too myself because a lot of people would find it very hard to believe some of the stuff I've experienced already because I'm only 25... and for some reason people find it hard to believe that young people could go through a lot of tough times and some odd times...
I don't think I'm better than anyone else... I don't think that my life has been better or worse than anyone elses... but has been mine and frankly so far I haven't really liked it very much... I wouldn't change my past because everything that has happened to me has made me the person I am today... and whether I like the person I am now or not... I'm always trying to change for the better... As I mentioned before I've been told never change for any one person... but what if that person I'm changing for made me feel as if I was changing for the better? should I continue to change...
I like that everyone I've been with has taught me something new... I once sat in awe of what I've learned from others... especially boyfriends or men that I have been with... I was with a guy that taught me how to skateboard, I was with a guy that taught me how to hotwire a car, I was taught by another how to ride a horse, I was taught by another how to build an engine for a car and how to fix cars, I have been taught how to build a computer, I've learned that jets are amazing machines and politics are confusing, all women are beautiful in their own way, what people call a short in wiring sometimes isn't an actual short, roadtrips are more fun when theres two people and can even be fun with a 200 pound dog, I've learned that sex is fun and that if done right anal sex doesn't hurt, I've learned that no matter how bored or tired you are you'll find something to talk about in bed even if it is a whole conversation on shit, I've learned that even the smartest most intelligent people have brain farts and will say something stupid, I've learned that you shouldn't judge somethhing til you've experience it...
Needless to say I've learned a fair bit...
That was just some of the good/funny stuff I've learned from men... I refuse to start in on the negative.. it's not worth it...
I will continue to think of myself as a quiet person... because I truly am... very few people know a lot about me and thinking about it I prefer it that way... So I guess I'm a quiet person about myself...
Just remember no matter how much you read this blog, talk to me or hang out with me... you don't know me til I say you do...
"Please don't hate me...But I been fucking your mom daily...please don't hate me....never shoulda trusted a juggalo...."
(finished at 4:50 p.m.)
I know I can get a little wacky at times... like dancing around somebody elses kitchen and hallway just because I was wearing a new pair of socks... but I did do it fairly quiet...
Just because I'm willing to give a handjob in traffic... doesn't mean I'm wild... just means I know how to cure a case of boredom on the way home...
I don't usually speak unless I'm spoken too, I don't babble incessantly I usually only say something if I deem it important
I'd like to think that I'm fairly easy to get along with, I usually change my attitude to fit in with whomever I'm with, yet at the same time it's still me...
My mom used to refer to me as a chameleon... she told me that it would amaze her sometimes how I could change so quickly... going out one night I could dres up like a skater/punk with the coloured spiked hair and then the next night get dressed into a formal gown and look like some kind of debutante...
I think of myself as quiet person... however lately I've had a few friends laugh at that and tell me to keep thinking that... I think that it's just because I keep a lot of myself to myself that I think I'm quiet...
I keep a lot of my past too myself because a lot of people would find it very hard to believe some of the stuff I've experienced already because I'm only 25... and for some reason people find it hard to believe that young people could go through a lot of tough times and some odd times...
I don't think I'm better than anyone else... I don't think that my life has been better or worse than anyone elses... but has been mine and frankly so far I haven't really liked it very much... I wouldn't change my past because everything that has happened to me has made me the person I am today... and whether I like the person I am now or not... I'm always trying to change for the better... As I mentioned before I've been told never change for any one person... but what if that person I'm changing for made me feel as if I was changing for the better? should I continue to change...
I like that everyone I've been with has taught me something new... I once sat in awe of what I've learned from others... especially boyfriends or men that I have been with... I was with a guy that taught me how to skateboard, I was with a guy that taught me how to hotwire a car, I was taught by another how to ride a horse, I was taught by another how to build an engine for a car and how to fix cars, I have been taught how to build a computer, I've learned that jets are amazing machines and politics are confusing, all women are beautiful in their own way, what people call a short in wiring sometimes isn't an actual short, roadtrips are more fun when theres two people and can even be fun with a 200 pound dog, I've learned that sex is fun and that if done right anal sex doesn't hurt, I've learned that no matter how bored or tired you are you'll find something to talk about in bed even if it is a whole conversation on shit, I've learned that even the smartest most intelligent people have brain farts and will say something stupid, I've learned that you shouldn't judge somethhing til you've experience it...
Needless to say I've learned a fair bit...
That was just some of the good/funny stuff I've learned from men... I refuse to start in on the negative.. it's not worth it...
I will continue to think of myself as a quiet person... because I truly am... very few people know a lot about me and thinking about it I prefer it that way... So I guess I'm a quiet person about myself...
Just remember no matter how much you read this blog, talk to me or hang out with me... you don't know me til I say you do...
"Please don't hate me...But I been fucking your mom daily...please don't hate me....never shoulda trusted a juggalo...."
(finished at 4:50 p.m.)
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Monday, July 26, 2004
Reality TV Shows
If ya don't know... you're gonna find out now...
I'm a bit of a buff for some Reality TV shows...
Big Brother 1 thru 5 (watched them all)... I've been known to watch Survivor... (only a couple of them).... For Love Or Money (watch parts of it)... Canadian Idol (yes there is a Canadian version) and American Idol... Amazing Race (only number 4 and now 5) and the list goes on... I'm only extremely huge on Big Brother... I like the idea of being trapped in a house with strangers... don't ask why.. I have no idea why...
I have one beef with most of the reality tv shows tho...
WHERE'S THE FAT CHICKS???
SERIOUSLY... you see fat guys in BB but you never have any fat chicks...
there was a guy on BB that was over weight but there has yet to be a big girl... they are all slim trim little girls that wander around in bikinis...
they have people from their early 20's to their early 40's...so there's no agism going on... but damn I'm betting you'll never see a fat chick on the show...
not like I'm going to stop watching the show because of it because I'm such a voyeur when it comes to others lives... but damn I just needed to voice the compliant that I want to see a fat chick on Big Brother... (yeah you all know that secretly I wanna be the first fat chick on Big Brother...LOL)
If ya don't know... you're gonna find out now...
I'm a bit of a buff for some Reality TV shows...
Big Brother 1 thru 5 (watched them all)... I've been known to watch Survivor... (only a couple of them).... For Love Or Money (watch parts of it)... Canadian Idol (yes there is a Canadian version) and American Idol... Amazing Race (only number 4 and now 5) and the list goes on... I'm only extremely huge on Big Brother... I like the idea of being trapped in a house with strangers... don't ask why.. I have no idea why...
I have one beef with most of the reality tv shows tho...
WHERE'S THE FAT CHICKS???
SERIOUSLY... you see fat guys in BB but you never have any fat chicks...
there was a guy on BB that was over weight but there has yet to be a big girl... they are all slim trim little girls that wander around in bikinis...
they have people from their early 20's to their early 40's...so there's no agism going on... but damn I'm betting you'll never see a fat chick on the show...
not like I'm going to stop watching the show because of it because I'm such a voyeur when it comes to others lives... but damn I just needed to voice the compliant that I want to see a fat chick on Big Brother... (yeah you all know that secretly I wanna be the first fat chick on Big Brother...LOL)
Pictures
so I finally posted some pics from the trip to Quebec... I dunno about everyone else but we had one helluva trip...
thank you again to Shana for letting us borrow her camera... it takes beautiful pictures...
thank you John for taking everyone's pics and burning them onto cd's so that we could all have copies of all pics taken...
I'll have some more pics to post in the next couple of days... on the way home we stopped at the 1000 Islands in Brockville with John and Anna... I just need to get them off the camera...
John and Anna headed home at about 2 a.m.
It was great having people here and being around everyone for the last week and a bit... but it's also nice to be able to sit around topless again... LOL
I hope you all like the pics we took... they don't even begin to show how beautiful everything was... the places, the people we were with and the incredible scenary...
Anywho... I'm tired... having my before bed smoke and hittin the sack...
Blog Ya Later
so I finally posted some pics from the trip to Quebec... I dunno about everyone else but we had one helluva trip...
thank you again to Shana for letting us borrow her camera... it takes beautiful pictures...
thank you John for taking everyone's pics and burning them onto cd's so that we could all have copies of all pics taken...
I'll have some more pics to post in the next couple of days... on the way home we stopped at the 1000 Islands in Brockville with John and Anna... I just need to get them off the camera...
John and Anna headed home at about 2 a.m.
It was great having people here and being around everyone for the last week and a bit... but it's also nice to be able to sit around topless again... LOL
I hope you all like the pics we took... they don't even begin to show how beautiful everything was... the places, the people we were with and the incredible scenary...
Anywho... I'm tired... having my before bed smoke and hittin the sack...
Blog Ya Later
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Home Again Home Again Jiggity Jig
Well we got home a little over an hour ago
Everyone is heading off to bed
Deli and Mr Deli are staying with the lovely Ladybird tonight before they head back home, and Shadow and I are lucky to have Ergo and Mr Ergo staying with us tonight before they head back home tomorrow or the next day or when ever they decide to go...
and Moonie and Obi are at home relaxing after getting rid of us six freaks :D
Anyway not that I think anyone has actually been reading this while I was aeway but I just wanted to say that we made it home safe and sound...
more later
Well we got home a little over an hour ago
Everyone is heading off to bed
Deli and Mr Deli are staying with the lovely Ladybird tonight before they head back home, and Shadow and I are lucky to have Ergo and Mr Ergo staying with us tonight before they head back home tomorrow or the next day or when ever they decide to go...
and Moonie and Obi are at home relaxing after getting rid of us six freaks :D
Anyway not that I think anyone has actually been reading this while I was aeway but I just wanted to say that we made it home safe and sound...
more later
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Just got back from Quebec City, it was very nice but omg it was a long trip... It took three hours to get there, then we walked around all day and then it was three hours to get home again...
now there is a line-up for the showers, because we all feel grimey and sticky and sweaty...
Again I got some good pictures that I will post later when I get home... John is going to burn the pictures that everyone has taken onto one cd and give each of us a copy...
Wish I had of thought of doing something like that when I have made other trips...
Today was the first day since April that I have seen another car like Crystals, and actually I saw two... one on the way to Quebec City and one on the way home...since I went to visit her in November and then saw her again in April I have not (in Canada) seen a car like hers... So thought about her and my visit with her when I saw those two cars...
Anyway almost my turn for the shower so I'm off and running again...
will be home Saturday tho... yay normalcy again... LOL
now there is a line-up for the showers, because we all feel grimey and sticky and sweaty...
Again I got some good pictures that I will post later when I get home... John is going to burn the pictures that everyone has taken onto one cd and give each of us a copy...
Wish I had of thought of doing something like that when I have made other trips...
Today was the first day since April that I have seen another car like Crystals, and actually I saw two... one on the way to Quebec City and one on the way home...since I went to visit her in November and then saw her again in April I have not (in Canada) seen a car like hers... So thought about her and my visit with her when I saw those two cars...
Anyway almost my turn for the shower so I'm off and running again...
will be home Saturday tho... yay normalcy again... LOL
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Whew
it's been odd to be out of my normal routine...
at home I usually get up go to the bathroom (get showered and what not), get breakfast for anyone that is there, then I go and sit at the computer and check everyone's blogs/journals to see if they have written anything new and ground breaking, then I will write in mine or check my email and go about the day either chatting or cleaning or playing with the kids...
here it's been get up whenever or get woken up when everyone else is ready to go...have breakfast and then decide what to do for the day or get started on what was decided to do last night...
Anyway, of course being on someone elses computer (either moon's or john's) I don't have my favourites list so I haven't been checking my friends blogs/journals in the mornings...
Hopefully I don't have too much to catch up on... I did ask Red for a link to hers the other night when I did find some time to go into the chatroom...
I've only been in the chatroom a couple of times...and really when I was in there I wasn't paying much attention since there were some interesting conversations going on around me on the deck...
It's been a great trip... we went to the old port in Montreal...I've taken some nice pictures of all of us... when I can get them off the camera I'll share a couple with y'all...
Anyway I think we're going to be startin brunch in a minute... If I get a chance I'll be back later...
Blog Ya Later
it's been odd to be out of my normal routine...
at home I usually get up go to the bathroom (get showered and what not), get breakfast for anyone that is there, then I go and sit at the computer and check everyone's blogs/journals to see if they have written anything new and ground breaking, then I will write in mine or check my email and go about the day either chatting or cleaning or playing with the kids...
here it's been get up whenever or get woken up when everyone else is ready to go...have breakfast and then decide what to do for the day or get started on what was decided to do last night...
Anyway, of course being on someone elses computer (either moon's or john's) I don't have my favourites list so I haven't been checking my friends blogs/journals in the mornings...
Hopefully I don't have too much to catch up on... I did ask Red for a link to hers the other night when I did find some time to go into the chatroom...
I've only been in the chatroom a couple of times...and really when I was in there I wasn't paying much attention since there were some interesting conversations going on around me on the deck...
It's been a great trip... we went to the old port in Montreal...I've taken some nice pictures of all of us... when I can get them off the camera I'll share a couple with y'all...
Anyway I think we're going to be startin brunch in a minute... If I get a chance I'll be back later...
Blog Ya Later
Monday, July 19, 2004
went shopping today...
no big news about shhopping except that I have been able to read a lot of the signs... YAY me!! (seems my highschool french has been creeping back...just enough for me to read it...definately not speak it or understand it when people are talking)
It's cool we met up with Gar at the mall... Gar is cool... he came back to Moon and Chris's house for dinner...
Anna is making dinner tonight, I think she is going to attempt a spanish dish...
not sure...
I'm not sure if I am doing dinner tomorrow or the next day...
when we were plpanning we said that each one of us would make dinner at least one night...
I have Shana's camera with us (thank you again Shana) however we have no drivers so that I can take the pictures off the cam... I tried to down load them from kodak... not enough disk space on the laptop for the drivers... *sigh*
so either I shall have to try again later downstairs on Moon's computer which is in french or I'll have to just limit my picture taking and wait til I get home to take them off the camera.
Anyway... off I go again...
no big news about shhopping except that I have been able to read a lot of the signs... YAY me!! (seems my highschool french has been creeping back...just enough for me to read it...definately not speak it or understand it when people are talking)
It's cool we met up with Gar at the mall... Gar is cool... he came back to Moon and Chris's house for dinner...
Anna is making dinner tonight, I think she is going to attempt a spanish dish...
not sure...
I'm not sure if I am doing dinner tomorrow or the next day...
when we were plpanning we said that each one of us would make dinner at least one night...
I have Shana's camera with us (thank you again Shana) however we have no drivers so that I can take the pictures off the cam... I tried to down load them from kodak... not enough disk space on the laptop for the drivers... *sigh*
so either I shall have to try again later downstairs on Moon's computer which is in french or I'll have to just limit my picture taking and wait til I get home to take them off the camera.
Anyway... off I go again...
Sunday, July 18, 2004
Still on the laptop but I'll try to relate the story without throwing the laptop without the window... the touch pad is extremely sensitive...
Well like I said everyone made it to our place on friday night... Saturday morning Ladybird came to meet whomever was awake... I was asleep when she came to get Deli for breakfast... then Shadow and I got up and went to the market and while we were out Ladybird came back with Deli to see who was awake and what not... we got back and we had just missed her... so dayum... ladybird was at my house and I didn't even get to meet her.
Anyway, we left at about 1 p.m. stopped a couple times to pee and grab a bit to eat... well only ate at one rest stop... peed at a few and gased up at each of them...
got to Montreal and got lost... a couple of times... we were sort of doing loop dee loops in the right direction... finally we got to Moonie and Obi's at... oh...well...ummm... 11 p.m.
they bought some wonderful pizza and we got to sit in comfortable chairs and sit and chat without having to hit a talk button, without having to say "can ya hear me now?" "what was that I couldn't quite hear ya?"... it was nice to be able to hear Obi's comments rather than strain to listen to him past Moon's laughing or her saying "Shuuuuuut up" while laughing of course....
We've been having fun... even the two that don't really chat much seem to be having a good time.. (Mr's Deli and Ergo)
Anyway... I'm gettin munchy feeling and I bought some meat sticks I've yet to eat... Blog Ya Later
Well like I said everyone made it to our place on friday night... Saturday morning Ladybird came to meet whomever was awake... I was asleep when she came to get Deli for breakfast... then Shadow and I got up and went to the market and while we were out Ladybird came back with Deli to see who was awake and what not... we got back and we had just missed her... so dayum... ladybird was at my house and I didn't even get to meet her.
Anyway, we left at about 1 p.m. stopped a couple times to pee and grab a bit to eat... well only ate at one rest stop... peed at a few and gased up at each of them...
got to Montreal and got lost... a couple of times... we were sort of doing loop dee loops in the right direction... finally we got to Moonie and Obi's at... oh...well...ummm... 11 p.m.
they bought some wonderful pizza and we got to sit in comfortable chairs and sit and chat without having to hit a talk button, without having to say "can ya hear me now?" "what was that I couldn't quite hear ya?"... it was nice to be able to hear Obi's comments rather than strain to listen to him past Moon's laughing or her saying "Shuuuuuut up" while laughing of course....
We've been having fun... even the two that don't really chat much seem to be having a good time.. (Mr's Deli and Ergo)
Anyway... I'm gettin munchy feeling and I bought some meat sticks I've yet to eat... Blog Ya Later
I made it too Quebec and what am I going to do now...????
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anyway I had to do that one cause I liked the movie... Anyway still not ready to type out the story about the trip here... I think later I will go in the house (since I'm still sitting on the deck on the lap top) anyway...I'm still trying to get used too the keyboard... but then again at least its in english LOL :D
Deli is using the french one again and it shows LOL
anyway back to socializing :D
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You're Nancy, air and invention. Analysis: Oh boy.
You've got issues, mostly with the world at
large. You've been dumped on your whole life
and that pain has pretty much turned you evil.
Sure, it's not your fault, but you don't help
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anyway I had to do that one cause I liked the movie... Anyway still not ready to type out the story about the trip here... I think later I will go in the house (since I'm still sitting on the deck on the lap top) anyway...I'm still trying to get used too the keyboard... but then again at least its in english LOL :D
Deli is using the french one again and it shows LOL
anyway back to socializing :D
In Quebec...FINALLY
Hey there I'm sitting here on Moonies deck on John's laptop with the camera going...talking with Chris and Moonie and Anna...Deli, Mr Deli, John and Ry are all in bed... actually now Moon and Chris are off to bed...
If I have time after I wake up I'll relate our trip into a huge long blog... omg like how we got lost and how I almost was in three accidents while we were lost...
So all that is left right now is Anna and I...what die hards we are...LOL
*humming the temptations while I type this out*
anyway since it's so late and I don't feel like typing anymore I'm going to bed...
Blog Ya Later
Hey there I'm sitting here on Moonies deck on John's laptop with the camera going...talking with Chris and Moonie and Anna...Deli, Mr Deli, John and Ry are all in bed... actually now Moon and Chris are off to bed...
If I have time after I wake up I'll relate our trip into a huge long blog... omg like how we got lost and how I almost was in three accidents while we were lost...
So all that is left right now is Anna and I...what die hards we are...LOL
*humming the temptations while I type this out*
anyway since it's so late and I don't feel like typing anymore I'm going to bed...
Blog Ya Later
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Alrighty just wanted to tell y'all that as of later today around noon I shall be on the road to Moonie's house...
I'll be in Quebec for a few days and then we'll be coming home...
Right now I have Deli and Mr Deli sleeping in my kitchen on an air mattress that pretty much had to be blow up manually...
Ergo and Mr Ergo are sleeping in the livingroom on the mattresses from the boys beds...Ergo is using Maguilla as a pillow...
Shadow just headed off to bed and I shall be joining him in the bedroom to start packing our bag...
I'm watching Deli absentmindedly pet the cat and I'm here hoping that the cat doesn't puncture the mattress.... would hate for Deli and Mr Deli to wake up on the floor...
Anyway ok heading off to the bedroom...I'll probably make a couple of posts while in Quebec... Blog Ya Later
I'll be in Quebec for a few days and then we'll be coming home...
Right now I have Deli and Mr Deli sleeping in my kitchen on an air mattress that pretty much had to be blow up manually...
Ergo and Mr Ergo are sleeping in the livingroom on the mattresses from the boys beds...Ergo is using Maguilla as a pillow...
Shadow just headed off to bed and I shall be joining him in the bedroom to start packing our bag...
I'm watching Deli absentmindedly pet the cat and I'm here hoping that the cat doesn't puncture the mattress.... would hate for Deli and Mr Deli to wake up on the floor...
Anyway ok heading off to the bedroom...I'll probably make a couple of posts while in Quebec... Blog Ya Later
Friday, July 16, 2004
Uh Huh...*scratch head*
Apparently it takes 15 hours to get here from Chicago, by way of Ohio of course... LOL
Lemme be the first to say that Anna got a bit side tracked and wound up where she wasn't supposed to be... ;) it's all good they're back on track.
"there's a whole lot of rhythm going 'round"
can you say HYPOCRITE?? all together now "Hippo-crit" very good boys and girls...
I was once preached at about not changing who I was for anyone... don't change to fit in... be who you are... if they don't like it fuck them... oh how the tables turn...
"we've been dancin with Mr Brownstone,he's been knocking, he won't leave me alone"
hmm so I was just told by a friend of mine that they might be moving to MI...that would be cool...Michigan is A LOT closer than Texas...
....gotta go Anna finally made it...
Apparently it takes 15 hours to get here from Chicago, by way of Ohio of course... LOL
Lemme be the first to say that Anna got a bit side tracked and wound up where she wasn't supposed to be... ;) it's all good they're back on track.
"there's a whole lot of rhythm going 'round"
can you say HYPOCRITE?? all together now "Hippo-crit" very good boys and girls...
I was once preached at about not changing who I was for anyone... don't change to fit in... be who you are... if they don't like it fuck them... oh how the tables turn...
"we've been dancin with Mr Brownstone,he's been knocking, he won't leave me alone"
hmm so I was just told by a friend of mine that they might be moving to MI...that would be cool...Michigan is A LOT closer than Texas...
....gotta go Anna finally made it...
Gonna Get A Lil Crazy While Waiting For Anna
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Thursday, July 15, 2004
I'm Dumb
Ok I've come to the conclusion that I'm a complete idiot when it comes to trying to put stuff on my page...thought I might try Blogrolling... I need to fucking learn more code... it seems that the computer can make me feel my smallest when I want to do something to my blog...
I can't just open up the source code for other pages and go "Ooooh thats how ya do it" I've tried before... I tried when Squig told me how easy it was... It all looks Greek to me... I can't seem to wrap my head around it... It frustrates me to no end... So I guess there shall be no blog rolling on this page...
Oh well... c'est la vie!
I was not meant to design websites even my own lil space...
I gotta try to finish up cleaning Anna and John leave tonight to come here... Blog Ya Later
Ok I've come to the conclusion that I'm a complete idiot when it comes to trying to put stuff on my page...thought I might try Blogrolling... I need to fucking learn more code... it seems that the computer can make me feel my smallest when I want to do something to my blog...
I can't just open up the source code for other pages and go "Ooooh thats how ya do it" I've tried before... I tried when Squig told me how easy it was... It all looks Greek to me... I can't seem to wrap my head around it... It frustrates me to no end... So I guess there shall be no blog rolling on this page...
Oh well... c'est la vie!
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I gotta try to finish up cleaning Anna and John leave tonight to come here... Blog Ya Later
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Cable Update
Alrighty then...
Cable man just left...he was REALLY cute and good looking... take it easy girls he was married... he was really nice... took him about 45 minutes of running up and down the stairs... he finally just gave us a new modem... I dunno if Shadow is going to be too happy with that... because if I do recall he said "don't let him give you a new modem" but I'm not certain... but damn when the guy turned to me and said I think it's actually just your modem I"m gonna give ya a new one...what the hell am I supposed to say "Oh no I'm sorry sir you can't do that because the guy I live with says I'm not supposed to accept a new one" ??
This one works, That one didn't... what would you do?
the new one is cute and smaller... not that that should make a difference... I mean I think we had the old one for about 4 years or so... I think it was time for a new one ...LOL So bye bye beloved Samsung... and welcome to the family RCA...
He asked me when he got here the normal "Hi how ya doin?" I replied with tired and cranky, you? he chuckled and said I'm actually doing ok...so I just said well I'm cranky ya see because I'm a chat addict and well I haven't been able to chat really sincelast thursday...lol he laughed and said well lets see if we can fix that... He was a really nice guy...
*sigh* and now that I'm back on... there is virtually no body online on my yahoo list.. LOL oh the irony of it all...
oh well maybe I'll sedate the kids with nintendo and snacks and take a nap ...LOL
Enh maybe I'll just take a shower and watch the kids play...
Either way just wanted to let y'all know I was back... not like I got too many comments about being missed *ahem* (hint hint) :P
Alrighty then...
Cable man just left...he was REALLY cute and good looking... take it easy girls he was married... he was really nice... took him about 45 minutes of running up and down the stairs... he finally just gave us a new modem... I dunno if Shadow is going to be too happy with that... because if I do recall he said "don't let him give you a new modem" but I'm not certain... but damn when the guy turned to me and said I think it's actually just your modem I"m gonna give ya a new one...what the hell am I supposed to say "Oh no I'm sorry sir you can't do that because the guy I live with says I'm not supposed to accept a new one" ??
This one works, That one didn't... what would you do?
the new one is cute and smaller... not that that should make a difference... I mean I think we had the old one for about 4 years or so... I think it was time for a new one ...LOL So bye bye beloved Samsung... and welcome to the family RCA...
He asked me when he got here the normal "Hi how ya doin?" I replied with tired and cranky, you? he chuckled and said I'm actually doing ok...so I just said well I'm cranky ya see because I'm a chat addict and well I haven't been able to chat really sincelast thursday...lol he laughed and said well lets see if we can fix that... He was a really nice guy...
*sigh* and now that I'm back on... there is virtually no body online on my yahoo list.. LOL oh the irony of it all...
oh well maybe I'll sedate the kids with nintendo and snacks and take a nap ...LOL
Enh maybe I'll just take a shower and watch the kids play...
Either way just wanted to let y'all know I was back... not like I got too many comments about being missed *ahem* (hint hint) :P
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
| You are 28% geek | You are a geek liaison, which means you go both ways. You can hang out with normal people or you can hang out with geeks which means you often have geeks as friends and/or have a job where you have to mediate between geeks and normal people. This is an important role and one of which you should be proud. In fact, you can make a good deal of money as a translator.
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You are Skywarp. Sneaky little devil aren't you?
You think that the key to winning any conflict
is through deception. You are quite the
trickster and will use your speed to pull
pranks on any poor unsuspecting sap you care
to. However you aren't very bright and can't
think for yourself. Ever. You are useless
without someone smarter than you telling you
what to do. Rock on with your quick yet
mentally simplistic self.
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Because of the damn cable going on and off and not staying on for very long it seems that my computer has turned into a glorified stereo with bad speakers...
they aren't horrible speakers but they're not the greatest anymore...
Krammit and Aiden are coming over today.... YAY I'm gonna have someone to talk too while I clean up the apartment and listen to my glorified stereo :D
It's strange how things happen while you are a child that stick with you thru adulthood... My mom said that whenever she wanted me to do something such as tidy up my toys or clean my room she would come in and sit and talk or help me while I would put stuff away... and now as an adult it seems that I have a very hard time cleaning the apartment without someone here to talk to me or help me do it...
Krammit's the best she knows this about me...so when she finds out I have to clean for a particular reason (this one being that Anna, John, Deli and Randy are coming) she offers to come and help me... I aways tell her she doesn't have to help...if only she would keep me company while I clean up that would be great... she's such a good friend :D Like I keep saying... everybody needs a Krammit :D
Anywho I"m gonna post this while I actually have a connection...
they aren't horrible speakers but they're not the greatest anymore...
Krammit and Aiden are coming over today.... YAY I'm gonna have someone to talk too while I clean up the apartment and listen to my glorified stereo :D
It's strange how things happen while you are a child that stick with you thru adulthood... My mom said that whenever she wanted me to do something such as tidy up my toys or clean my room she would come in and sit and talk or help me while I would put stuff away... and now as an adult it seems that I have a very hard time cleaning the apartment without someone here to talk to me or help me do it...
Krammit's the best she knows this about me...so when she finds out I have to clean for a particular reason (this one being that Anna, John, Deli and Randy are coming) she offers to come and help me... I aways tell her she doesn't have to help...if only she would keep me company while I clean up that would be great... she's such a good friend :D Like I keep saying... everybody needs a Krammit :D
Anywho I"m gonna post this while I actually have a connection...
Damn Cable
Tuesday at 10:49 a.m.
I'm sitting here having a smoke and watching Ellen Degenres...yeah can ya tell I'm motivated?? not in the least...
I'm sick of the cable lights flashing at me... mocking me if you will....
*flash flash* look at us Rae *flash flash* theres three of us blinking at you *flash flash* don't ya just wish we'd connect *flash flash*
Altho I must say that with the cable being out...at least I'm getting more work done around the apartment...but damn all I wanted to do was check my email and such...
Great now the price is right just came on....must say I need to get off my butt and get some stuff done...
woo hoo the first guy to win the bid is Canadian....from Ontario to boot...
Tuesday 3:21 p.m.
I"m so very very tired...I don't understand why...
last night I actually went to bed early because I was sick of the cable going in and out and not being able to talk to my friends.
Yet for the past two days if I sit down for any amount of time I start to fall asleep or doze off while sitting here...
I have no energy to get up and do anything... I go to lay on the bed and watch the boys play the nintendo and I pass out... I'm just SO tired. I'm getting sick of this cycle.
Tuesday 3:42 p.m.
The cable thing is getting SOOOO tiresome....
Tuesday 6:55 p.m.
blah... almoist have the livingroom straightened out... *sigh* I can see it now tho... Thursday when I have the three kids here...that I'll have to do a "flight of the bumblebee" pick up again... I need to find a way to get the boxes that I have in the hallway to the storage unit... and I think I'm going to check to see if mom wants the rest of the empty boxes like last time...
I'm doing my post like this today because of the stupid cable modem acting up...
Tuesday 8:30 p.m.
Just shaved both the boys heads....I shaved Gambits first since he's used to it...Keenan watched on in horror for the first few minutes until Gambit told him that it didn't hurt and that it was much cooler than having longer hair... He also told his brother that it only tickled a little bit... So Keenan was extremely willing to get his cut... I was so thankful to Gambit for that cause he could've been an ass about it and pretended it hurt like hell...which I was half expecting...
Tuesday 11:38 p.m.
My cable has finally come back on for a little while...and alas...blogger decides that it's maintenance time...on the site...so I have resorted to writing my blog in Wordpad and I'll have to post it in the morning...cause I'm not staying up late enough to post it...I'm still extremely tired...
Tuesday at 10:49 a.m.
I'm sitting here having a smoke and watching Ellen Degenres...yeah can ya tell I'm motivated?? not in the least...
I'm sick of the cable lights flashing at me... mocking me if you will....
*flash flash* look at us Rae *flash flash* theres three of us blinking at you *flash flash* don't ya just wish we'd connect *flash flash*
Altho I must say that with the cable being out...at least I'm getting more work done around the apartment...but damn all I wanted to do was check my email and such...
Great now the price is right just came on....must say I need to get off my butt and get some stuff done...
woo hoo the first guy to win the bid is Canadian....from Ontario to boot...
Tuesday 3:21 p.m.
I"m so very very tired...I don't understand why...
last night I actually went to bed early because I was sick of the cable going in and out and not being able to talk to my friends.
Yet for the past two days if I sit down for any amount of time I start to fall asleep or doze off while sitting here...
I have no energy to get up and do anything... I go to lay on the bed and watch the boys play the nintendo and I pass out... I'm just SO tired. I'm getting sick of this cycle.
Tuesday 3:42 p.m.
The cable thing is getting SOOOO tiresome....
Tuesday 6:55 p.m.
blah... almoist have the livingroom straightened out... *sigh* I can see it now tho... Thursday when I have the three kids here...that I'll have to do a "flight of the bumblebee" pick up again... I need to find a way to get the boxes that I have in the hallway to the storage unit... and I think I'm going to check to see if mom wants the rest of the empty boxes like last time...
I'm doing my post like this today because of the stupid cable modem acting up...
Tuesday 8:30 p.m.
Just shaved both the boys heads....I shaved Gambits first since he's used to it...Keenan watched on in horror for the first few minutes until Gambit told him that it didn't hurt and that it was much cooler than having longer hair... He also told his brother that it only tickled a little bit... So Keenan was extremely willing to get his cut... I was so thankful to Gambit for that cause he could've been an ass about it and pretended it hurt like hell...which I was half expecting...
Tuesday 11:38 p.m.
My cable has finally come back on for a little while...and alas...blogger decides that it's maintenance time...on the site...so I have resorted to writing my blog in Wordpad and I'll have to post it in the morning...cause I'm not staying up late enough to post it...I'm still extremely tired...
Monday, July 12, 2004
Fucking Cable....Grrr
btw just wanted to let everyone know that there is something strange going on with my cable and it will not be fixed til Thursday...so I may only be on sparratically until it is fixed...and if I'm talking to you in a pm and I don't answer for awhile...it's most likely that I have been disconnected again...so please don't think I'm ignoring you...so if ya have my phone number by all means gimme a call rather then sending a pm ;) Love Ya Guys
btw just wanted to let everyone know that there is something strange going on with my cable and it will not be fixed til Thursday...so I may only be on sparratically until it is fixed...and if I'm talking to you in a pm and I don't answer for awhile...it's most likely that I have been disconnected again...so please don't think I'm ignoring you...so if ya have my phone number by all means gimme a call rather then sending a pm ;) Love Ya Guys
Warning this is gonna get long...
What happens when you cram 5 adults, 2 children, a dog, 3 tents, three air mattresses, a bag of outdoor toys, 7 lawnchairs, a cooler and a piece of luggage for each person into a 7 seater mini van???
Well if it's my family you get a rocky start, a rocky finish and one helluva party in between...
When going away on a weekend excursion with my mom driving she's either early and pissed because you're not ready or late and pissed because we're all late.
Sounds frustrating doesn't it? enh... That's my mom... after 25 years I've gotten used to it...
So which was it for this past outing? well it was the latter of the two...late and pissed...
Sis calls at at around 6:30 am (we weren't awake since we weren't getting picked up until 8 am) She leaves a message sounding a little pissed saying that they would be here (our house) at 9 am... Be Ready.
So I roll outta bed at 8:49 am...
I pack Keenan's bag, my/Shadow's stuff, a bit for Gambit, get dressed, get clothes out for Keenan, get my teeth brushed, pack snacks and toys for the kids all by about 9:05 am (sometimes I impress even myself)
So Keenan, Shadow and I are all sitting on the stoop (after lugging everything outside that had to go with us) waiting for Grandma, Sis and BIL...
finally they come pulling into the driveway at...oh...10 o'clock or so...uh huh...we had been ready and waiting...And damnit they had the dog with them...
(Now don't get me wrong, I love Otis...but when he gets into a car he turns into the demon dog that never sits down)
Anyway, Shadow and BIL readjusted everything on the roof so that all our stuff that could go up there would fit. I think after Sis and mom's ... oh so helpful.... supervision we finally hit the road at 11 am....stopped once to feed the kids lunch.
I was bored and Shadow wasn't getting annoyed with me bugging him... where's the fun in annoying someone if they don't get annoyed???
I was ready to kill the kids... Keenan thought it was a good idea to turn my seat into a massage chair by using his feet, and Gambit thought it was quite amusing to tease the fuck out of Keenan.
Of course BIL who was sitting beside Gambit was "sleeping" (either that man can sleep thru anything and not sound like a chainsaw in the car like he does in the house OR he was pretending) and not helping as always ( I swear that man is as useful as tits on a bull...which is funny since he's a Taurus)...I digress
Anyway, I made a sign in my notebook that said "TAKE ME WITH YOU!! Please!!!" and as we were driving down the 403 I would press a sad face up to the window on the drivers side of the middle window with my sign beside my face as we passed cars.
It was interesting to see the different reactions I got from it.
Picture this if ya will;
You're pulling up next to a small grey plymouth voyager seven seater van, luggage rack on the top full of what looks like camping stuff, the back window completely blocked by bedding and pillows, glancing over into the back seat you see two kids trying to kill each other and a sleeping neanderthal, thru the middle window you see this blonde girl with pigtails and sad eyes holding up a sign that says "TAKE ME WITH YOU!! Please!!!" sitting beside her is a long haired man with an evil looking goatee and moustache reading a book with some dude with a sword in his hands on the front, thru the drivers window ya see in the passenger seat an overweight female Elvis impersonator holding in her lap a black and white rat impersonating a dog and finally behind the wheel is a normal looking middle aged women with blonde pigtails, but she turns to take a quick look at you and you realize that she is wearing rather strange looking sunglasses that make her look like she has two huge bug eyes. Seriously what would you're reaction be?
Some people were confused, others just rolled their eyes, others just looked away but most laughed their fucking asses off.
We ended up playing highway leap frog with this guy from New York. Everytime he passed us or vice versa we would dance, smile, wave and once I played peek-a-boo with him. This of course is how I like to amuse myself on roadtrips...by playing with others in other vehicles...I figure it might just amuse them as well...
Ok so four hours later we arrive at our destination....Chatham
Why were we going to Chatham you ask...my mom's cousin and her husband live out there and every year they have a huge outdoor bbq/pigroast/party and we have never been able to make it before... Mike and Heather are the bomb... they have a huge yard...there was probably at least 100 people there at the peak of the party... and one thing I absolutely love about my mom's side of the family...at least that part...is they are musically inclined... before dinner Mike and some of his buddies were up on the patio playing some good tunes, some old rock n roll... ZZ Top, CCR stuff like that... then they also had a band there who came up and did some stuff from Hootie and the Blowfish and some Tragically Hip...among some other stuff... there were other kids there so we didn't have to entertain my kids too much...I got to see some family members that I only normally see once a year...I was actually able to sit down with them and have a conversation with them... I got to beat up a kid I've disliked since the day he was born...LMFAO...ok I didn't actually beat the kid up...I tackled a group of four kids when the football landed near me and I went after the ball...I tackled them...the kid I dislike was one of them....the other three got up and were laughing and joking around cause it was funny...the fourth one (still the kid I don't like) was rolling around on the ground whining and crying...there was a group of guys who had been watching and one of them yelled over "theres no crying in football, walk it off"....LOL...I was nice enough to apologize to the kid, help him up and make sure he could walk...fucking whiner....
the food was fucking awesome...the fire was great...the music was fantastic...
I hadn't heard Roland or Bobby sing in ages...it was so nice to hear them singing and playing again...
It was nice to be able to party have a good time and not have to drink to do it....mind you a lot of people were drinking but I wasn't one of them nor was Shadow...I just can't get drunk when I'm in a strange place with my kids are there...not that I want to be ;) they were all still singing and playing music when I went to bed in the tent at 3 am.
Anyway...Sunday morning we get up and start packing...and there started the rocky finish...LOL... Sis is a Taurus/Aries cusp baby, BIL is a Taurus/Aries cusp baby, Shadow is a Taurus, Mom is an Aquarius, Gambit is a Pisces, Keenan is an Aries and Me...I'm a Virgo/Libra cusp baby....needless to say with the first three around there is always a lot of BULLshit flying around... anyway when those four start trying to do something together (in this case packing a van) I become scarce....anyway...we stuck around for brunch but then got on the road home...
Nothing eventful happened on the way home cause I was sleeping off and on....and when I was awake I started writing this blog in my notebook....
What happens when you cram 5 adults, 2 children, a dog, 3 tents, three air mattresses, a bag of outdoor toys, 7 lawnchairs, a cooler and a piece of luggage for each person into a 7 seater mini van???
Well if it's my family you get a rocky start, a rocky finish and one helluva party in between...
When going away on a weekend excursion with my mom driving she's either early and pissed because you're not ready or late and pissed because we're all late.
Sounds frustrating doesn't it? enh... That's my mom... after 25 years I've gotten used to it...
So which was it for this past outing? well it was the latter of the two...late and pissed...
Sis calls at at around 6:30 am (we weren't awake since we weren't getting picked up until 8 am) She leaves a message sounding a little pissed saying that they would be here (our house) at 9 am... Be Ready.
So I roll outta bed at 8:49 am...
I pack Keenan's bag, my/Shadow's stuff, a bit for Gambit, get dressed, get clothes out for Keenan, get my teeth brushed, pack snacks and toys for the kids all by about 9:05 am (sometimes I impress even myself)
So Keenan, Shadow and I are all sitting on the stoop (after lugging everything outside that had to go with us) waiting for Grandma, Sis and BIL...
finally they come pulling into the driveway at...oh...10 o'clock or so...uh huh...we had been ready and waiting...And damnit they had the dog with them...
(Now don't get me wrong, I love Otis...but when he gets into a car he turns into the demon dog that never sits down)
Anyway, Shadow and BIL readjusted everything on the roof so that all our stuff that could go up there would fit. I think after Sis and mom's ... oh so helpful.... supervision we finally hit the road at 11 am....stopped once to feed the kids lunch.
I was bored and Shadow wasn't getting annoyed with me bugging him... where's the fun in annoying someone if they don't get annoyed???
I was ready to kill the kids... Keenan thought it was a good idea to turn my seat into a massage chair by using his feet, and Gambit thought it was quite amusing to tease the fuck out of Keenan.
Of course BIL who was sitting beside Gambit was "sleeping" (either that man can sleep thru anything and not sound like a chainsaw in the car like he does in the house OR he was pretending) and not helping as always ( I swear that man is as useful as tits on a bull...which is funny since he's a Taurus)...I digress
Anyway, I made a sign in my notebook that said "TAKE ME WITH YOU!! Please!!!" and as we were driving down the 403 I would press a sad face up to the window on the drivers side of the middle window with my sign beside my face as we passed cars.
It was interesting to see the different reactions I got from it.
Picture this if ya will;
You're pulling up next to a small grey plymouth voyager seven seater van, luggage rack on the top full of what looks like camping stuff, the back window completely blocked by bedding and pillows, glancing over into the back seat you see two kids trying to kill each other and a sleeping neanderthal, thru the middle window you see this blonde girl with pigtails and sad eyes holding up a sign that says "TAKE ME WITH YOU!! Please!!!" sitting beside her is a long haired man with an evil looking goatee and moustache reading a book with some dude with a sword in his hands on the front, thru the drivers window ya see in the passenger seat an overweight female Elvis impersonator holding in her lap a black and white rat impersonating a dog and finally behind the wheel is a normal looking middle aged women with blonde pigtails, but she turns to take a quick look at you and you realize that she is wearing rather strange looking sunglasses that make her look like she has two huge bug eyes. Seriously what would you're reaction be?
Some people were confused, others just rolled their eyes, others just looked away but most laughed their fucking asses off.
We ended up playing highway leap frog with this guy from New York. Everytime he passed us or vice versa we would dance, smile, wave and once I played peek-a-boo with him. This of course is how I like to amuse myself on roadtrips...by playing with others in other vehicles...I figure it might just amuse them as well...
Ok so four hours later we arrive at our destination....Chatham
Why were we going to Chatham you ask...my mom's cousin and her husband live out there and every year they have a huge outdoor bbq/pigroast/party and we have never been able to make it before... Mike and Heather are the bomb... they have a huge yard...there was probably at least 100 people there at the peak of the party... and one thing I absolutely love about my mom's side of the family...at least that part...is they are musically inclined... before dinner Mike and some of his buddies were up on the patio playing some good tunes, some old rock n roll... ZZ Top, CCR stuff like that... then they also had a band there who came up and did some stuff from Hootie and the Blowfish and some Tragically Hip...among some other stuff... there were other kids there so we didn't have to entertain my kids too much...I got to see some family members that I only normally see once a year...I was actually able to sit down with them and have a conversation with them... I got to beat up a kid I've disliked since the day he was born...LMFAO...ok I didn't actually beat the kid up...I tackled a group of four kids when the football landed near me and I went after the ball...I tackled them...the kid I dislike was one of them....the other three got up and were laughing and joking around cause it was funny...the fourth one (still the kid I don't like) was rolling around on the ground whining and crying...there was a group of guys who had been watching and one of them yelled over "theres no crying in football, walk it off"....LOL...I was nice enough to apologize to the kid, help him up and make sure he could walk...fucking whiner....
the food was fucking awesome...the fire was great...the music was fantastic...
I hadn't heard Roland or Bobby sing in ages...it was so nice to hear them singing and playing again...
It was nice to be able to party have a good time and not have to drink to do it....mind you a lot of people were drinking but I wasn't one of them nor was Shadow...I just can't get drunk when I'm in a strange place with my kids are there...not that I want to be ;) they were all still singing and playing music when I went to bed in the tent at 3 am.
Anyway...Sunday morning we get up and start packing...and there started the rocky finish...LOL... Sis is a Taurus/Aries cusp baby, BIL is a Taurus/Aries cusp baby, Shadow is a Taurus, Mom is an Aquarius, Gambit is a Pisces, Keenan is an Aries and Me...I'm a Virgo/Libra cusp baby....needless to say with the first three around there is always a lot of BULLshit flying around... anyway when those four start trying to do something together (in this case packing a van) I become scarce....anyway...we stuck around for brunch but then got on the road home...
Nothing eventful happened on the way home cause I was sleeping off and on....and when I was awake I started writing this blog in my notebook....
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Here I Sit...
I'm sitting here when I could be doing something a little more productive... cleaning...putting stuff away....sleeping...packing... but alas....here I sit...
it's strange...
it's like I can feel something looming over my head... and I'm supposed to be doing something... it's pushing at me... but I can't quite figure out what it is... nothihng mundane... nothing mundane ever looms over me... I've been very uneasy...
Anyway... I must go gather some clothes for this weekend and go to bed... I'll see everyone probably Sunday night or Monday sometime... Blog Ya Then
I'm sitting here when I could be doing something a little more productive... cleaning...putting stuff away....sleeping...packing... but alas....here I sit...
it's strange...
it's like I can feel something looming over my head... and I'm supposed to be doing something... it's pushing at me... but I can't quite figure out what it is... nothihng mundane... nothing mundane ever looms over me... I've been very uneasy...
Anyway... I must go gather some clothes for this weekend and go to bed... I'll see everyone probably Sunday night or Monday sometime... Blog Ya Then
Friday, July 09, 2004
Fairy Tales
I'm reading a book right now called "The Fairy Godmother" by Mercedes Lackey
I gotta tell ya right off the bat that I usually HATE anything written by her... But Shadow just finished reading it and was telling me about it, so I told him that I'd like to read it.
I'm really enjoying it... I'm feelin really close to the main character...
I'm not gonna do a book report on it...LOL that would be boring... I just had to tell ya that its a good book :)
blog ya later
I'm reading a book right now called "The Fairy Godmother" by Mercedes Lackey
I gotta tell ya right off the bat that I usually HATE anything written by her... But Shadow just finished reading it and was telling me about it, so I told him that I'd like to read it.
I'm really enjoying it... I'm feelin really close to the main character...
I'm not gonna do a book report on it...LOL that would be boring... I just had to tell ya that its a good book :)
blog ya later
Blah...
So I went to Hell and took the testing to see about working there... ick...
five tests on the computer and two paper tests...boring shite...
Paulie was nice enough to pick me up from downtown and brought me home... gawd he's so nice... I hate public transportation...
I don't have much to say...
yep hard to believe eh?...nothing insightful... nothing nutty... nothing fragmented...
I don't know what I'm thinking anymore... I'm concentrating more on me... my training has been slacking... and I've felt it... I've barely been on yahoo for the last three days... I've barely been angry... I haven't really been feeling like I'm lost... I know that good is coming my way and I'm making it happen...
I've been sort of wondering around in my own head lately (yeah yeah yeah lots of space to roam) just trying to figure my shit out...
blah...anyway...I'm gonna wander now...
So I went to Hell and took the testing to see about working there... ick...
five tests on the computer and two paper tests...boring shite...
Paulie was nice enough to pick me up from downtown and brought me home... gawd he's so nice... I hate public transportation...
I don't have much to say...
yep hard to believe eh?...nothing insightful... nothing nutty... nothing fragmented...
I don't know what I'm thinking anymore... I'm concentrating more on me... my training has been slacking... and I've felt it... I've barely been on yahoo for the last three days... I've barely been angry... I haven't really been feeling like I'm lost... I know that good is coming my way and I'm making it happen...
I've been sort of wondering around in my own head lately (yeah yeah yeah lots of space to roam) just trying to figure my shit out...
blah...anyway...I'm gonna wander now...
