I was going to sit here and write a seperate entry for the latest about stuff thats been going on...
but I'm just so drained... and I feel so empty inside...

I've tried so hard to put on the "I'm ok" act and to not let anyone know that it bothers me...

but fuck it hurts... it hurts so bad sometimes....

they hurt me without even knowing it sometimes... other times I think they hurt me on purpose just to see if I'll cry...

I'm trying so hard to stay in good spirits... I'd like to think that they care...

*sigh* why does it have to hurt so much?

I need to go to bed... maybe it'll be better when I wake up...*snort* yeah right...